Army. First girlfriend, I think when I was 13 years old, she was 16.
Then in Jr. HS, she was my first real girlfriend, Carolyn. Also, while
in Jr. HS, Pam. Then there was Diana, a Spanish girl, very pretty and I
would meet up with her when I got out of the Army too. While in HS,
there was Mina and Lisa. Lisa is Asian. The closes I came to have sex
was with Mina, was already and stuff, but some one walked into the room.
We were in her grandmother's apartment. I was then off in The Army, sex
never crossed my mind.
I remember it was in September, and my room mate Curtis had a German
girlfriend. He introduce me to her and every now and then I would see
her about town without him. She would come up to me and we would talk.
She introduce me to her girlfriends if they were around. At the clubs,
she had plenty of her girlfriends around, and I would be introduced to
them. One day she saw me and said that she has a sister that's in
Denmark, and would I like to meet her. Her sister was coming to visit in
November, but she gave me her address and we wrote to each other.
In September we were told we were going to Graff for 30 days, and would
be back after Thanksgiving. We were leaving on November 2. The unit
prepares to go to this training area like its a pullout, moveout for
war. Everything gets packed up. I was in my room, it was about 8pm.
Curtis comes busting into the room. His girlfriend's sister is here at
her house come on lets go. Curtis was shit faced drunk too. He handed me
2 pills told me to take them. Like a dunb ass I did. I told him she
wasn't suppose to arrive to later on. He said too late for that lets go.
The thing was, the unit was pulling out at 4am. So, I got my M16 and
gear, we jumped in a cab and headed to her house.
The 2 pills he gave me, were a known drug that people would take, my
first time, they called them Mad Dogs. They made me feel woozy, VERY
woozy. When I entered the apartment, felt like I was entering another
world. Very freakin light headed. Along with the fact I was nervous
meeting this woman for the first time. I don't know why or how, but I
ended up alying on the floor. She entered the room and this is what I
saw.
Laying down I was looking backwards, the room was dark but there was a
light on in the hallway behind her. She had on a night gown thay covered
her to her ankles, and I could see thru it because of the light behind
her. What I saw amazed me. All I seen was a shodow her her outline,
curves and all. She knelt down beside me, she was very pretty and her
english wasn't all that good. Her sister came in and spoke for her.
Curtis had told her that I never had sex before. Wondered how he knew?
And then we made love.
I don't know... no, I have no memory of actually performing. All I
remember is the sounds. That's it. Next thing I knew, we were rushing
out of the apartment to head back to the Post, unit was pulling out, and
I was still fucked up. No biggie, all I had to do was get on a the back
of a 2 and a half ton truck and enjoy the ride.
There ws talk about me after I woke up about me having my first time. To
this day its somewhat of a blur. But I know why I am like I am today
concerning woman and sex. Wanna know?
Here's the deal. From what happened for my first time, I was left with
the impression that if you want to make love, have sex or even fuck some
one, you just do it. You don't have to get to know anyone, as long as
both parties can agree to that's what they want to do. You can see a
woman on the street, any woman, and want to have sex with her, and the
woman could and probably does feel the same way too. But woman, some
woman, are just bought up thinking that that's not what good girls do.
Us men, that's different story. Its no game though. You see, you like,
you tell them what you want and what you would like to happen. Simple
like that. By no means is it any disrepectful to the female. Why waste
time?
Ok woman, I know you see that fine azz guy on the street, and he doesn't
eeven has to be all that good looking either. You're just looking
to..ummm, say get your groove on, no strings attached. What's stopping
most of you from taking it to that step is because of a number of
things. One, 'good girls' don't do that, and 2, 'I don't have to be like
that'. So what's wrong with asking for what you want? So we play this
game, you put us men off, make us wait. You want us to take you out and
such. But you know from the beginning, the first couple of minutes, if
you're gonna sleep with us or not.
Then there's the other type of female, and this one really gets me
upset. You know you're gonna sleep with us, but you want what you
want...first !! To see if he is gonna spend money on you, take you out,
pay your bills, get your nails and hair done. Hey that's all up to you,
get yours, but what would be nice if you state this from the jump. See,
that way I, we, know what we are dealing with.
I have no problem with a female doing this or that. It lets me know what
I'm dealing with. When you go to buy bread, you don't just grab the
first loaf you see, right? You look at a couple of loafs first. I know
some women, who are just like this. They will tell you straight up what
the deal is, and I respect them for that. If I want to play, I have
to...well you know. Then its again up to me to take things another
step.
While I'm at it... I have NO problem paying for sex. Now don't get me
wrong here. Ladies, there's a way, and you know how ya'll do. But when
in Rome.... while in Germany, paying for sex was no issue. Here
stateside, you're a trick, or a john. In Europe, its a business, and I
just read that they give a discount if you come to the place of ill
repute on a bicycle. Isn't that something ?
Tired, I'm @ work, and I should do some work.
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