'...put the dog in the basket!!'

Friday, the first day of Summer. I read somewhere about a month ago that everyone should take that day off from work, it was 'National Take a Day Off From Work Day'. I swear, I read it somewhere, so the next day I asked The Chef could I have that day off and he gave it to me. I Googled it, but I couldn't find it anywhere on line. Thats what I get for always reading something at one time or another. I had a good day reguardless.

I made plans with my ex girlfriend, well she made the plans. She wanted to see Man of Steel, but we were going to go and see it on Friday night. During the day, cause she also took the day off, we were going to the beach. But when we woke up Friday morning, it was chilly and we BOTH had 2nd thoughts about it being a beach weather day. Decided to catch the 12pm show instead. Didn't feel like a Friday cause when we went into the theater a total of 6 people were inside. We both fell asleep at the boring parts and was waken up with all the loud destruction. Good movie, but...Naw, I'm not gonna say it and spoil it for those who have yet to see it. But it just boggles the mind.

Saturday...BEACH DAY !! See picture above. That was before the Grandmother, Mother and FINE ASS DAUGHTER showed up.I'm standing where they pitched there blankets. Notice all the OPEN space that's around, right? The daughter, about 20 years old had the body of a... I can't even explain it. But the mother caught me checking her out, and when my ex went to the bathroom, moms said something to me, but I corrected her after she said her little speech. Told her the woman I am with is my ex, we are not in a relationship, but we do sleep with each other cause that is the way she wants it. When my ex came back, the mother told her that I, her boyfriend was checking out her daughter. My ex said, well he does have eyes and your daughter is very attractive and he is not my boyfriend, but I would be disappointed if he slept with her today or tonight and not with me. For the next 2 hours they became good friends, exchanged numbers. All I did was just LOOK at the daughter, my GOD!! The body on that young woman. What topped it off was the hair...Brazilian fashion, curly, long and black. I didn't stare at her, I took in ALL of her, from head to toe. She asked me my name and gave me her number when we left. My ex tore it up though.

Darlise, I have known her since 2005. She was my consulor when I was in a shelter. She knew I had a thing for her, but her playing that game of, 'I'm better than your shelter, not being able to manage your life ass'. I was working, even though I was in New York City a whole 2 weeks AFTER working on a Cruise Ship, I just didn't want to live with family until I got my own place. She didn't see it that was though. I did follow the rules of the shelter, they found me a 3/4 house, which led to a rooming house...which I left cause when I bought food, they would eat it when I was at work, so I left there too. One day while I was working in a deli in a supermarket in Queens, NY, she walks up to the counter. She got fired from the job because out of all the YEARS she was working there, she was suppose to go to school to get a certificate that would keep her working there. She was on public assistance, with them paying her rent. I went to her place a couple of times, just to hang out and I made it be known that I wanted to sleep with her. No hints, just came right on out and said it. She was still on that, 'I'm better than you' stuff until one night I got a call from her.

She said that she need help, that she 'picked up'..crack. I told her to get some help, and that I couldn't help her. It may seem like the wrong thing to do, but I was worried about myself. I'm no angel mind you and the way I saw it... I buy $200 worth of crack and have sex with her, but I didn't want her that way, so we lost touch...until yesterday. Now she is in a shelter and wants to see me. The shelter is in Brooklyn and I told her I would come and see her on Sunday. Its Sunday morning right now, 5:39am and...I am looking at this tight ass, dark skin woman laying in the bed next to me. No it isn't her, its my ex, and she is sleeping. Darlise has no job and I asked her to send her resume. I told her that I know of some people who are hiring,  places, pay is between $9,50 to $10.25 an hour, 5 days a week, 9 hour shift plus tips. She doesn't want that, she wants to go back to doing what she was doing before, helping people. Told her she needs to help herself first. I was going to go and see her today, but I changed my mind. I'm going to tell her why too. Its like this...

Right now she has NOTHING, and she will be looking for anyone who is interested in her, to do for her. And all I want to do is DO her. I have no issue in telling her this if I see her too. But all types of logistics will be involved. She will say something like... well I have to pay some one at the shelter to watch the kids while I am with you. And afterwards, I know she will ask for some money too. See, I will bypass all of that shit and just stay away from her. Oh, I will talk with her on the phone, and even text, but I will stay away...for her OWN good.

I never see myself better than or better off as the next person. One minute you can have a million dollars and in 2 weeks be flat ass broke, shit has happened to people like that. That is why I do, say and go as I want. I see it like this. Women she never ask a man to DO for her, even if they are married. A man will do for you as he seem fit. You as a woman with all functioning parts of your body should be able to do for yourself. When a man does for a woman and she continues to want more and more, regardless of how much money HE has, he will leave you. If not leave you, will see or WANT to see another woman who isn't costing him as much too be with. That is how we are as men. ALL MEN.