Just Found Out That I Cant Drink Coffee While Wearing a White T

...some how or another, one drip. Always seems to find the shirt. Now I will feel self consious when riding the train thinking everyone will be focus on that ONE spot on my shirt.

I'm not saying that people don't know how to do their jobs in their respected fields, but... Not everything is ALL text book. I had an appointment with this conselor, kind of anger managment thingy. I say I don't have anger issues, I just have zero tolorance for assholes when they invade my space. Who hasn't want to just rip an asshole's head off his body at one time or another. I feel that some people, who go thru life without any issues like this are time bombs. It didn't help the matter when I pointed out to him that most violent work place issues don't happen mostly with people of color, but when they do, there is more to the matter tham that is spoken about. I really believe this with all people.

Sometimes you can go and complain about this or that, and your supervisor gets tired of hearing it. Then that leaves the person with no other way BUT to handle it on their own, which most times is very violent. I would never get to that point, I do know how to walk away..from the job completely. But those that sit in that 'chair', don't understand this. I feel this way about the matter...its all textbook to them.

I don't know if they keep up with the changing times, but things do change. I pointed out this to him...in the 'chair'. What you did..5, 10 years agao, what you learned, you can't always applied those same methods. Society and its changing ways always prove this. As for those who are completely in charge...they feel as if they are God-Like. I see it every working day, I see it in print in the newspapers and on TV. Certain people get treated a certain way because of their skin color. For those who continue to say, 'no, it isn't like that', they really need to step back, have a seat and listen & look at things for what they really are.

I'm not using my skin color as an excuse either cause I don't let issues of wrong doing to me, I don't bring race issues into factor. But it is what it is. I treat people, male, female, backor white the same. If you do something that bothers me, I do know how to approach you with this matter. Usually its 10 to 15 minutes later, wen to them, they think the matter is over with. I see that look in their eyes when I bring it back up..its the look of..'why say something now, you did what I TOLD you, right?' Right then and there when I see that look, my mind has already summed up that person's..how I feel about them from there on out. Until they do something in the future that will or would change my thoughts...yep, their an asshole.

I say this cause..people will treat you the way they want to until YOU, the person stand up and say something. People in general get the impression that they just have total control over other people when in fact they have no control over no one but themselves. Because at the end of the day, at night, when you lay your head down to sleep, you self consious comes into play. The tape is rewinded of the day. You know what wrongs and injustices you done to people. If you're a person with compassion shit should really bother you. And, if you claim you're a person of God, your first move should be to say you're sorry for your mistakes before you drift off to sleep. But then again, MOST people don't care.

Gone are the feelings they ways of treating people like you want to be treated across the board. We weren't born this way, some are bought up this way and will continue to pass it on to future generations. You know what I say?....

Lawd...I can't wait until the Zombies come. Then we will really see the weak from the strong. Bring them on !!