The band Tool Said it Better....

...'fuck all you junkies & your short memories'. From the song Learn To Swim.

I have nothing against anyone who decides to use drugs, its your body, do with it as you please. I am NO stranger to the drug world. I go way back with drugs. As for dipping into them this present day..I don't think so.

I found for myself, that if I want to use, I can't do anything else. I'm talking about eating, working or having a relationship with women. Its not even a relationship, I talking about just having sex PERIOD !! I am also NOT talking about weed. I'm talking about cocaine, crack and herion. The last one definitly NOT, but the first 2...um, been there and done that.

Cocaine, was a steppinlg stone many many years ago. Graduated to crack and received top honors in that. Brief 6 month course...it wanted me to 'continue my education', but I couldn't afford the classes. These 2 are a full time job which the pay is like not even...hell, you DON'T get paid if you are using. Being broke, dirty and hungry isn't a good feeling. I bring this up because I was reminded of my pass this morning.

One guy standing in front of the store, $200 sneakers on. Fresh milky white t shirt, and nice shorts on. Standing across the street...3 people, 2 guys and a woman...looking greasy as all hell. One guy tried to sell me a backpack that look like a suitcase for an overses trip as I went into the store. I was using the ATM. He comes in and ask me again, hence the 'fuck your short memory' statement. He goes out the store and goes to the other 2. As I walk past I& hear one say, I grab him, you go through his pockets'. I stop and say if you do, I will kill the woman. I wouldn't do anything like that, but they don't know.

One, its TOO DAMN HOT to be doing any drugs or even drinking, outdoors. Even chasing people, asking people for money...to hot for that shit too. So I say, what made you even get open to even START? That shit is crazy. But what if the government made ALL drugs legal, would we have a total breakdown of society as we know it. Or, would the world embrace drug use? The way I see it, the United States would cease to exsit. It would be a total breakdown of humanity, nothing would never get done. For those who haven't tried, then would be the time to try...and be totally devastated. I give the country 3 days to a week before shit hits the fan.

As I walked past those 3, I got angry at myself. I thought, that's was how the world use to see me in the morning when I was out there. It didn't matter or bother me then, but know it does. I do not think I was better than any of those 3 cause I knew and know what it felt like to be in that grip, that deathy grip of drugs. I really don't know what made me stop, I just did. That's why until this day I can make $14 last almost 9 days. Its priorties, I put them first.