4:25am

Do you know what boggles my mind, but I deal with it because I have no control of it... Other people, other people's way of thinking on how I should react, what I should say and how I feel.

Like I said before. The MAIN reason why I don't hang out with others is because I don't know what or whom are after them. I'm saying I don't know what kind of shit they have got into before they met up with me. Like that other person may be just waiting for the right time to get some work in and here I come, meeting up with their intended victim. No this person has to not only take the person I'm meeting up with, but also me. I'm only accountable for my actions.

So I lost a couple of friends or family members on FB just because I post what I liked and what I feel. See the problem I have with FB is that most people air their disagreements and their problems on it. I think it's a cry for help or that they want people to feel sorry for them. Take for an example...

A woman I know post all kinds or horny shit on her feed but... In talking with her, she says all they are are reposts of how she is feeling. Well, she has a man and he also follows her and so does his friends and her friends also. A lot of her friends agree with her on her post. Her man doesn't. He asked her to keep some shit private but she won't, so he left her. Now her post reflects his decision. Now she lost about her children's fathers aren't stepping up and helping secure their well being. Now her post are..'Your children come first before you or anything else.'

Another woman, who is cute as fuck, has extra pounds and wants to be in a relationship so damn badly. Sure gets men who step up to the plate and want to date her and be her man but she ducks it all up some how. She then runs to FB stating that men should protect and defend and take care of their woman. So the man said something back. He said I would have but you have 3 children by 3 different men and Everytime I come around at least one of them is all up in your face laughing and giggling and you sort of just ignore me telling me that he IS their child's father. No man wants that, but some women expect to have it all ways when it comes to this.

I could go on and on with the women I know on FB and their ways. I also know I have my ways too.

I don't expect anyone to put up with the way I am, but some women do. They do it for the simple reason that they think they can change me. They also think that by giving me their bodies and sexing me the way I like to be sexed is going to change me...it's not. Sex is a feeling and that feeling comes and goes. After some women seeing and knowing this, they exit my life and are sent to that too. As Friends.

I'm not a complicated person, though some make me out to be. I know what I like and want. I know how I like to live my life, I know how to take care of me. Don't think you as a woman are doing me any sort of favors of being in a relationship with me, as you will find out I don't operate that way.

Just allow me to be me, don't set any types of standards. I will try and will all my might, I will treat you the way I want and how I treat myself. I don't care what your past may be, really I don't. I don't care any hard feeling if there are any from my past relationships into the one I may want to build and have with you.

I am on their planet and exais5 for such a short period of time. If I look to you like I don't care..I don't, but I do. It's just I'm trying to make the best of my short life span with you and with others.