This is The New Thing

A couple of things I found out this week that passed. You know how something just comes to you...like you figured it out after all this time... Well, that sort of..no, it did happen.

I had an opinion on why some women go bananas all of a sudden. Not all of a sudden, because it does happens gradually.  When I actually saw it in motion, I didn't jump up and down. No, I was at peace with myself. Though every man thinks he knows why,  and some really do know why. Me, I don't want to share it but as a man I have to.

Saw I have a woman on the side, but I don't have a main woman, I'm not in a relationship whatsoever. But this woman I think enjoys talking with me because no one 3lse will pay her attention. Her last moves are crazy and most men don't want to even bother with her. It's not that I am trying to play a hero, it's just like like her as a friend and I enjoy talking with her.

Thought this woman is up in her years, but not older than me... She knows how to dress casually. I have to admit that. She also smells good. Her scent is that if no one else's I have came across. But yet still she is bat shit crazy. In trying to figure it out how we started, like what month. I can't remember.

I do know it started off with just me giving her head. She has asked me to "finish" what I started, meaning that since I went down on her, no I better go up in her. But I told her no, no because I know me. You aren't going to have me all stressed the fuck out because I want more. Well, I did give in one day. I gave her what she wanted. I didn't fake it, but I didn't have an ending. I made sure she was satisfied. Then something strange started to happen.

I don't k ow if it was that I didn't want to be inside of her, all I wanted to do was just give her head. Our get togethers started lasting 2, them 3, then 4 and 5 hours...whereas the last 20 minutes I was actually having penetration with her. I don't plan it, it just happens that way. Then one day she just came out and said something that messed me all up. 

She said that she doesn't like the way I make her feel. I know 2hwt I heard and what she said, I have heard before. All I could say was, but it makes you feel good. She replied, yes it does and the next day thinking about last night gets me going again and that is all I think about. I think you do it on purpose to have me under control, but I know it isn't that. It's that you are really enjoying me and I have never had a ma enjoy himself with me like you do.

I'm not making it up, she has about on the average 30, 35 orgasms before penetration. The last time we were together, she laid there and told me that her feelings for me has grown so damn much that it messes with her head. She told her best friend and she approached me the other day. After introducing herself she said I don't know what she sees in you because we've said she doesn't see it. I told her she doesn't see it because we are both with our clothes on. It's when we are naked and there is nothing to hide. Then she tells me, that that is going to happen because I belong to her, it some stupid shit she said. So I cleared it up for her 

I told her that I am too damn old to be having a girlfriend. She is my friend, she isn't in a relationship with me. We just had sex. I asked her did she want to, and she said yes, okay when. I asked her when is it okay for you, and she said we can right now. But if course she told her everything so I didn't have to repeat it again.

But I asked my friend what is going on. She says that shouldn't be feeling this way about me because this isn't her. I listened and said, okay ww won't have sex ever again. Yeah right, we had sex more often and the sessions have got longer and longer.99% me giving her head, and that 1% is me and my happy ending.

But 3hat is so fucked up.. I have these 3 female friends that each one knows I'm sleeping with the other. I'm not bragging, I told them I wanted them and asked coukd inhave them. Each one said yes. And each one asked me to not to have sex with the other. Staright and told them no, I'm doing what I want and please. If you don't like it, don't sleep with me  They contin6 to have sex with me. Why? Because they said I enjoy myself with them. That is true.. 

Well it's 7:59am. I e been up all night and all 3 of them are coming over for breakfast. First time all there are getting tighter and no, I'm not asking for some freaky dewky to go in.

It's about time they .et each other.

Drinking Games (I thought I published this)

First... Virginia's State Slogan I think is.. 'Vurginia is For Lovers'. But since living in this beautiful State, and meeting some of the women... Different colors, different sizes and backgrounds. Old and young... They all have one thing in common. 

Now this is from my observation, first handed experience. Almost all the women I have met, meaning I have held conversations with, talked too. Damn near all of them have done time, I mean been locked up...have records.  Let me go one step further... 98% of the are Felons.

That 2%...they wouldn't tell me. Actually said, words of effect... 'I don't want to talk about that time in my life.' Wow, it was said with this glint of... Like she was thinking about it and it felt good JUST to think about it...but I bet and or even wonder could I get that same feeling all over again." I'm just saying. Some of them told me staright up.... "Yeah, I fucked up. I shouldn't have done him dirty like that, but he'll, he did it to me, so I was just doing it back to him. But I know I was wrong." You would think she was talking about cheating on him because he did it to her. NO!! She was referring to beating the shit out of him. Though he didn't break BOTH or even one of her arms OR legs...like she did break BOTH his arms AND legs. I said to myself how does a woman break BOTH arms and legs at the same time...and not have any battle scars in doing so. There is only one way, she plans. She plans it all out in her head first..and when the moment is right, she strikes. This same woman... OMG!! I'm getting turned on and scared at the same time.

This same woman, we...dated? I don't know what it's called what we were doing. I know I told her at one time, no I asked her at one time... "So, you think you can just come over here and do with me as you please like I'm your sex toy, and use me?" She said yeah, but you like it. Lay down on the bed. Let me tell you what we..no, what she did. Just picture this ...

So, I take pride in myself knowing that I know how to please a woman in bed. I have progressed in knowing that a long time ago it isn't always about just insert penis, pump, and then withdraw. Women Love receiving head just as men do. And just like there are some women who enjoy giving, there are men who enjoy giving women head too. I am one of them.

Well, it was like our 5th encounter. I must have hit or turned in that switch that comes on after the 5th or 6th orgasm and I haven't even placed my penis inside of her yet. It sounded like one word. "Stopgetuplaydowndontmivegetlimp" That's what I heard, so I did. She stood up in he bed and told me to sit up. She then leaned forward, one hand steadying herself against the wall, grabbed my head and started using my FACE as a sex toy on and trying..in herself. But you see, she was already at THAT point in her orgasm. The point of "I know you can't do that, but I'm going to see if I can because anything is possible ".

I knew it wasnt going to be pretty when she started bending her knees and I could see her inner thighs starting to..quiver, yeah that's the word. She was at that point where my tongue didn't matter, my nose replaced my tongue..which meant she was...rubbing my face between her legs ? The question mark is because I thought and felt like she was trying to stick my whole head up inside of her. And I swear I thought I heard her grunting, making animalistic sounds. 

Okay, she is 56 years old, not that big of a woman but nicely shaped. I say this because of the way her hand ONE hand had grabbed and helped my head. It felt like I had a pony tail and that was what she was holding on too because she moved my head in the direction SHE wanted. I couldn't resist, I had no control, she had all control. So when at one time when my mouth was in the area of her clit, I told one hand, my right hand...grabbed her ass cheek, got a firm grip and sucked her clit..in my mouth and flick my tongue over it in rapid session about  6 times. Then it happened.

From what she told me it was the first time. I made it happen, it happen like... 1......2...THREEEEEEE and FOUUUUURRRRR.. She squirted...no, that's not the word. I opened a Flood Gate. Because the first one was a stream, and she held my head back some, then the second one came and she held my head closer... But when the third one came, it was more powerful than I have ever experience in a woman ever before. That fourth one... I was blowing back the stream, because it was far too much liquid a human can discharge from her body. I mean I was giving huge powerful bla back puffs to keep her stream from..drowning me. Yeah, that's the word, drowning me.

When she was finished, I felt her release my head as if I was something she was finished with and tossed aside. I heard oh my God...my God, oh..oh..Oh! She was laying on the bed when I looked over and her thighs were..she had no control over them. So I did what any man would do right about then. In fact I did two things all it seem like in one motion.

I reached over and slapped her pussy...which made her close her eyes she was cumming again. And that was when I grabbed her legs and went inside of her, she went into "Demon Mode".

Ah!! Demon Mode. It is achieved when with insertion of penis inside of a woman and her eyes roll to the back of her head and all you see is white...all white. The man 4h3n grabs one leg, the left and lifts it with the crook of his left arm, in the elbow and he ..he just goes to work. He is leaning forward close to her right ear and he says one of many things almost in a whisper in her ear. Because at this time, she is t even on the planet, not even in the same solar system. Because the orgasm she is about to obtain destroys worlds, her world. She will never be the same again. You will change her..and she will become your worst nightmare from this point on. She will think back to this time in the future and get angry thinking that what you did to her, you are doing to every female on the planet AND that YOU planned all of this, you planned all of this from the very beginning because that is what men like you do. You get women to go to bed with you and have them going crazy because you treat your penis like a weapon. ...knowing that from here in out that I can get anything I want from her because my penis is just that damn good. And that is what she thought too.

She kept offering me money, to use her car, buying me food, offering to wash my clothes...and coming around and just being in a d around me. But... But afraid to have sex with me again, though she wants to but if she does, she knows she will lose her mind. She brings her girlfriend's with her. The way they look at me... One has this look of.."Oh, he isn't all of that, I can handle that shit." As to when my friend just placed one hand on her forearm as to say and saying.."No Young Grasshopper, you are not ready yet."

Then from out of nowhere, she wasn't around any more. I mean I never called or texted her, she did all of that to me. But one day I just noticed I haven't heard from her.

Oh, I'll tell you about drinking games another time, remind me.

This is Weird

This is the second time something like this has happened to me. Though I can't explain it, I'm not complaining about it either.

I went to sleep around 7:45 am. I woke up AT 2:10 pm. I told myself that I need to go and get some cigarettes. I looked in my make shift coffee table and I saw I had half a pack. I got dress and went to the store.

When I entered the parking lot, I sang a lyric to a song... "Yes, the rthym a rebel, without a sound I'm lowering my level." A blondes hair woman in front of me  said.."5-0 said freeze'..without even turning around and facing me. I said "Public Enemy Number One." Then she turned around.

She said I LOVE PE! I said yeah, they Old School. She noticed my accent and said NY right? I said yep. And when just started talking and talking....for an hour inside the store. People came and went looking at this couple discussing Rap and The Hip Hop Culture. I say she is in her late 40's early 50's. She told me that she didn't know how to set up her YouTube, in fact she doesn't have one, but want one. I told her to do it in her phone, but she said she didn't know how to and if I have the time can I show her. Sure.

I purchased two packs of cigarettes and found her outside. She said we can sit in the car. I told her I lived like less than 2 minutes from here and if she wanted to and wasn't doing anything, come back to my place. She thought about it and said okay. She said since the guy behind the counter knows me, she felt safe.

Back at my place the first thing she noticed was my DJ Controller and asked was I a DJ. Yd her no, but a retired Cook. Was amazed by my setup and that I had 3 laptops up and running. Told her to use the laptop in the sofa and walked her thru setting up her account and then downloading the app on her phone and signing in. She wanted Premium YouTube so she paid for it. I asked her does she want some music on her phone, she said she didn't know how to do any of that either. Connected her phone to the laptop, at up folders and asked her to write what she wanted down.

45 minutes later she had albums and singles she wanted that I had download from a torrent site. Installed VLC player, showed her how to use it, also showed her how to use YouTube. She asked me was I hungry and that she would buy dinner, it was around 4pm. I said okay, Chinese Food. I went into my drawers and saw I had 2 packs of cigarettes already in there. The. It got strange.

When I saw the two packs I stopped, I stopped moving. She asked what's wrong and I just put my right hand up, not saying a word, but giving her the stop motion, and she did. I looked at her and asked her can I ask her some questions. How come you went into the store and you didn't buy anything. She said she didn't know why she even came to the store because she didn't need anything thing. So I asked her but where was she going. And she got this look in her eyes and said that she wasn't going nowhere. But why were you in your car? She said she didn't know. Then she got what I was going after.

The world we live on is strange. Strange shit happens to people everyday, but most don't even pay attention. She lives 45 minutes away and there are stores, many of them between where she lives at and where I first saw her at. That means...

I the. Said to her that I'm going to ask you some questions again and answer them honestly. Boyfriend, no Husband, no Children, no Looking for a boyfriend? Yes, for the longest. Why? The she got quiet. I told her to just say it. She said because she is always thinking about sex, hasn't had sex in almost 2 years and wants to get laid. I tols her, if she wanted to we can do it right now. It's her decision. With no hesitation, she said okay and went into the bathroom.

We ordered Chinese Food afterwards, and ordered more Chinese Food later on. She asked could she spend the night, I told her yes. She asked could she take pictures of me, of us..I said sure go ahead. She left around 10am the next morning.

She never slept with a Black man before and she believed in safe sex, but I didn't use a condom. She said she wasn't worried about it because some One or Thing was in control of  what was happening and no one will believe her when she goes back home. Her phone never rang the whole time she was with me, but when she got to her car, notifications were  and kept going off. Text messages and voicemails and emails. I start singing the Tight Zone theme.i will never see her again even though she said she wants to come back and see me.

I waited a good while before I made this entry. I was expecting something to happen, but nothing did. 

God puts people together. He also probably said that day that he was going to do something Special for hers d took over. On my park, he worked his strings attached to me also.So that at the right moment...All I had to say was...'Yes, the rythem a rebel, without a pause I'm lowering my level."

NSFW...

About 3am this morning she called and asked what was I doing. I was setting things up to do some drawings and write down some ideas that were just popping into my head. She told me to come over, about a 20 minute walk. Here I was hoping that she was coming this way.

Walking, I'm on the phone with her...I'm huffing and puffing. The walk is a little bit uphill. She was waiting at the door with it open. They way she was speaking, all loud and shit... I thought she was going to wake up the neighbors.

Walking thru the living , towards the back of the house.. I'm thinking we are going to the kitchen. Nope, her bedroom. She told me that she has a problem with me, a real problem. I say oh hell m, what someone say I did or say. I said this as I was turning around to sit in a recliner. When I sat down, I looked over at her and she was naked and got into the bed. I sat there and asked what did I do. She said tske your clothes off and finished what you started the other day at your house .

I asked, why did you make me stop after I flicked your clit with my tongue that one time. You damn near jumped up in the air and out of the bed in one fluid motion. I know she was expecting Soft Sugary Kisses..yeah right. She talks shit a mile a minute, so I slammed it one time with my tongue. She said she is loud, can't control what she feels, so she feels more comfortable here in her own house.

Let's just say she does NOT just lay there. She is VERY active and was all over me. I was hoping and saying to myself if she calls me Daddy I'm leaving. No, she didn't say that. But she was right, she is very vocal. Words like..'Oh shit...hold up, what oh my God.. Oh, Oh, yeah oh shit. Wait, stop one minute.She said, you're right, you do want to experience me and enjoy me. Saying this while moving the blankets and pillows into the floor, and then pulling me close to her and she laid back on the bed.

The house she lives in is nice. From the furniture, to the rugs and colors on the wall. When we finished, I got up and asked where is the bathroom, she point and said that way. Came back and sat on the floor. I took with me from home a pencil and some drawing paper...I started drawing writing things down, while sitting in the floor. After about 10 minutes, I felt cold air and when to stand up and there was a woman in the doorway.

She whispered, I thought I heard someone down here with her. Then she introduced me to her mother...while I'm naked. Her mother is my age, and her, she's 44 years old. She told her mother, see, he doesn't look 63 right. I'm not trying to cover myself up because it was way too late for that. Her mother said good bye and left. I asked her why didn't you tell me your mother lives here also.  She said she asked her mother can I come over and her mother wanted to know who is it that you're inviting over be ause you never had any man come into this house.

We 'played' one more time and I told her I have to go. I have some things to work on before I do anything else today. And that when I get finished I can come back. She said no she is going to come to me.

Before I left, she asked was I expecting any. Company over and was I sure no one was coming thru. I asked why. She said because I'm going to be spending a lot of time with you, so any of your friends that stop by, make sure when you let them in, tell them I am here.

She kissed me in my cheek and told me that she will be at my place in 3 hours with breakfast.

WTF?!

Oh, that what happens. I looked at a last post in Edit Mode, and it made it as a list for today. Sorry 

My, My, My, My, My....

She's a Lil Cutie...though she is little, not young, just little.

First contact 2021, social app. Told her I wanted to meet her in person. She didn't understand the invite, the time part I later found out 

Then... Wait, I might have mentioned her before? So what, I'll mention her again. Then, she told someone she knew me, and referred to the time part that SHE misunderstood but tried to make me the weird one. You misunderstood. Back then since I had access to a car for a short period of time... Took her to work, picked her up from work...and asked her to ride along with me somewhere. But because I wouldn't take her somewhere or another...she kind of threw a small hissy fit..'...keep your little White BMW, I don't need to ride...'  I took that what she said many ways, nothing bad either. She knew it wasn't my car, but I had access to it, and it wasn't little. A 4 door monstwr of a car.

Next time I saw it her, thru social media again. She took a picture with another woman who I wanted to be with...had an opportunity to do so, but I refuse to treat her like some people told me to do. I. Too old for those and that game. I leave it up to them to want to do something different, to change themselves but .. if you want to keep doing what you're doing, go ahead and do so. You're still my friend, you can still come visit and spend the night. But I'm not going to make another move on you, you have to make that move to me 

Well anyways.... This and that happened to her and I thought she was in something, but she isn't...though both play the role of being so. It's been so long since I have had made moves like that, that I didn't recognize it for what it was and is. Then as I was up late at night my phone vibrates it was her... That move never changes though, late night call, she wants to come over and she did.

2 bottles of wine in her backpack...We talked and I came straight out and wanted... I did...she's nervous about.. I stopped, pulled back. I mean you did tell me stop or no..word or words of changing her mind, so I did stop. But I don't know, but I do know it's not me. This has happened 2 times so far out of 4. Was I suppose to 'play like force' myself on her, is it or was it a fantasy thing she has..not saying it is, and why the fuck am I questioning myself about it? Because I'm human..better yet a man.

So those few hours we were together alone may be the first and only time I'll ever be with her. I have tasteful pictures of her and memories of those hours all in my head. Maybe it has to be some time between those hours, years...her settling down and on her own..and then another chance meeting. But I know one thing. She knows I am different.

Man, I am Falling Behind, It's So Bad.

I have a little over a month and a half before I debit my 62 minute DJ set. So far I'm about 60% with felling comfortable doing it for the first time. April 23rd is my birthday and I am planning on streaming it Live. But there is a problem. A small one, that is becoming a major pain in my ass.

Okay I have some broadcasting equipment that I purchased, it was in the low end of all of their models. But from what I've read about it, it's good for a beginner such as myself. I'm going to place a picture of it as soon as I finish with this.

What the slight issue is... I have to find a media to broadcast it on and in. I want a free one if there any and there are. But I didn't know it was so technical. I know I'm going to need the software and I picked OBS. Don't ask me what it stands for, Google it. I played with OBS a couple of months ago. Downloaded it for free and opened it up and I was able to bring up my webcam in it, my laptop microphone works with it. I just finished reading that I might need anorher piece of hardware to go along with it though, an Encoder. But first hear this.

So I get an email from Amazon stating that the company who I purchased it from wants to know what I think about thier hardware. So I answer them. Amazon sells it through their website and that's who I purchased it from. I get another Amazon email, but it's from the company, Squarock telling me that Amazon will not give them my email address and that I am to contact them thru Facebook. Hold on... My email to the company Squarock was asking them for advice in what website should I use that would benefit me with their hardware. Amazon does not want to give them my email because I think they, Amazon, thinks that if I want to upgrade, I will go straight to the source, Squarock. But it gets even better.

I did reach out to them thru Facebook. But I went to their website first. They are sold out of the unit I purchased. But Amazon has a shit load of them. I started doing the math on Squarock asking price and then what Amazon is selling them for. I know for a fact Amazon did not buy all those units at the asking price Squarock was selling them for on their website. They done moved up and on to a better looking one too. It's still in it's crowdfunding phase though. All Squarock told me...I think was ALLOWED to tell me that THE unit, not their unit can hook up to a cellphone and my laptop. Amazon...they got some shit with them.

I just have to clear my head about this now. I have the DJ Controller working, I figured out yesterday how to import the music and where to stash it at on my laptop.. I have about 40% of working knowledge of what the switches, knobs and whatever else does. I have shitload of music I can use. I just have to piece together these two pieces of hardware. If I'm going to need an Encoder, that's going to cost me about. $250. I'll find out on Friday because today Thursday I helping someone clean out their storage unit.

Good thing about helping this person is.. it's where their storage unit is at. About 30 miles from here. Also in the town is where Xfinity has a store, and that store is the only store around. Xfinity only send out Technicians for installs only...I think. Because trying to get a real person on the phone is something crazy. Nowadays even the people 2ho are supposed to come to your home and help you, don't. But their company prices keep going up and up with little help from the people who use to in days gone by. I want to hard wire my TV and PlayStation, an Ethernet Connection. This will leave my wifi with less connecting to it to work my DJ Controller. See, that's some more shit that I have to figure out. I mean I purchased the Ethernet wires and ran the. To the TV and PlayStation, but the Ethernet didn't catch.

I know I'll probably curse someone out, watch.

That little box at the top, that's 5he broadcasting hardware.