Friday, 5:50am

Right now, I mean at this present moment, I just got the SHIT scared out of me. I'm waiting for the 6:05am Westchester County Bus, 41, from White Plains, NY. Heading back home to Jamaica Queens. Standing in front of this building with my music playing on my headphones, and this guy comes barreling out of the building, scared me to death.

Like I said, I'm heading back home. Just spent from Wednesday after now, til now with my ex girlfriend Lisa. We have know each other going on now for almost 12 years. Even though we broke up, we are still close friends, friends with benefits. She says she doesn't want to be my girlfriend, she wants to be my WIFE !! Whoa, that's a mouth full right ? I have no problem with that to tell you the truth. Its just, I don't have any money.

I mean I do have money, enough for me to take care of me. But I don't have enough for two. She works and everything, and just last night she was talking about buying a condo. So she must have money for that, right ? Its just me. Right now, I'm at the point in my life where I feel that I should be able to take care of the both of us, but I'm not at that point. And I doubt if I ever will be in this lifetime. But all in all I love being around her, and doing things with her. Last September we took a vacation trip together. Spent 5 days at Virginia Beach, and had a nice time. This year we haven't made up our minds on where we want to go. Cape May, Atlantic City or Myrtle Beach. I want to go someplace affordable, cheap. I was thinking about just staying here too, and just taking little trips. That way I can save on hotels too. It still up in the air cause I'm not taking my vacation until September anyway.

I have to be @ work today @ 3pm, I'm closing @ 10pm. I'm refreshed and ready to start my work week. Today being Friday, people are starting their weekend, I'm just starting my work week.
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