"...just get ona bus Gus, don't need to discuss much"

This young lady, whom I use to have a 'relationship' with, who STILL thinks in her own mind we still are in a relationship..well she called me and told me she needed some movies, TV shows...ANYTHING to watch. Times are hard for her right now. No cable, it was turned off and she is just now caught up with her 3 months due in back rent. I guess bills kind of...its a turn off when it comes to sex. Since she was tardy in the sex aspect of our relationship, I let her know...no bueno. I went to her house and dropped off a 32 GB flash drive of movies & TV shows for her. While I was there I get an email from another female friend asking what am I doing right now. This friend lives about 4 hours from me by Greyhound bus...Albany, NY.

In a email, I told her that I wasn't doing anything. She replied and ask did I want to spend an evening with her. I asked for her number. I never met this person in person, only thru emails, so I called her. I told her what the deal was, I will be there in about 5 hours, I'm on my way. Hell, its a Saturday, day off and I wasn't doing anything  later on or for the night...just some reading and watching whatever I didn't get to watch what I downloaded. So, if she was serious, I'm on my way and if she decides she wants to back out, just text me. I explained that once I get on that bus heading upstate NY, my turn around would be her destination. She said just come..and oh yeah, she is having computer problems and maybe I could fix her computer while I am there.

I told the young lady I was with, that I have to go. She wanted to know where, so I told her. She threw in that I was crazy. So who isn't nowadays. Nice little ride upstate NY. Listening to my music on my ipod nano and dozing off every now and then. Albany, NY came so fast, didn't seem like I was on the bus that long. I called her from the bus station and she said she will be there in 10 minutes. She was on time. Like I said I never met her in person before and today was the first time I heard her voice too. She walked into the bus stationed and I was knocked off my feet. She never told me her real name, but I use my first name on the website, so she addressed me by ny first name. Told me I looked just like my pictures.

She's beautiful...stunning AND tall. Dark skinned and evenly toned in both color and physic.(don't know if I spelled that right, spell check says I did). First thing after she kissed me on the cheek, first thing she said was asked me to open my coat, so she can take a good look at me, I did. We went to her car, she explaining all the way that she has NEVER did anything like this before and that she just has a good feeling about me, and that I was willing to take a 4 hour bus ride to her in this cold. Nice home..2 great kids, girls 16 and boy 9 years old. The boy wanted to show me the video games he got for Christmas and ask did I know how to play. Mom, went into the kitchen to finish preparing and making dinner. I asked where her computer is located at, she said upstairs, told her to go and get it. Between working on her laptop and playing some shoot em up game with her son, I was busy. All along, the daughter asking me all kinds of questions about New York City, she never been to the city.

Dinner was nice, conversation was pleasant. Me as a child, we never had the, the thing of sitting down at a dinner table and eating. I ate in front of the TV, so this was different but I enjoyed it. Like I said conversation was great, it was like...I don't know. It was like something was missing in this home, a man to sit at the head of the dinner table, to start conversation with his family, to see what and how their day, week was. That was what was missing. The last bus leaving for NYC was at 11pm, it was just after 10pm, so I told her that I should start getting ready to go. Asked me to help her with the clean up, I washed the dishes, and we talked. She told me that I didn't have to leave tonight if I wasn't in a hurry, she wanted to talk with me alone and get to know me better cause like I said, she thinks I'm crazy. So, I was spending the night. Me, being me, I asked where was I sleeping? I figured in her son's room and he woukld sleep with her. Nope, it was in her room and her bed.

We talked until 3am about everything. You name it, we talked about it, time flew by. She ended the conversation with that all she wanted right now was to fall asleep with me holding her. And...that's all I did. I woke up at 8am and I just looked at her laying there, she was facing me. I thought, what was there NOT to like about this woman. She didn't know me from nothing other than a couple of emails that were of deep conversation and she invited me and offered to let and did, let me spend the night not only in her home, but her bed also. I went to the bathroom and when I came out she was awake with the TV on. She thanked me for being a gentleman. I told her that yes, I wanted more than just holding her to sleep, but she calls the shots. She told me I should've went for it and that its been such a long time since she has been with a man, that she didn't know who was to make the first or next move. Told her its too late for that now, my next visit..now we both will know.

In the car, we both were silent. It wasn't that we didn't know what to say, it was both a missed opportunity on both our parts. It was that we both were in waters when anything, everything could happen, but nothing did because we were respecting each others space. But we BOTH wanted our space invaded, but both wasn't going to make the first move. Before I closed the door, she said she hoped this wasn't the last time she saw me, that she wanted to see a lot more of me in the future. Told her that could happen, so 2 weeks from now, its a weekend.