See....This is Why I....

...dislike dating. And it isn't even a so-called date, we are suppose to be just friends. But it's mostly my fault also. I had a 2 hr phone chat with her, found out quite a bit about her.

First, she is spoiled and she wants her way ALL the time. She has been on the face of the earth longer than me...which means nothing. 2nd, she has learned nothing of her last past relationship. I saw this because when you text me at 2am telling me you're having a nervous breakdown, and I text you back words of support... Don't tell me in a text that sometimes you just want some one to listen & NOT give advice. What kind of shit is that to say. 20 minutes into our convo yesterday, I've come to the conclusion that she will get everything she deserves if she is still seeing this guy. Not hating or anything...but in fact.. fuck this.

Was suppose to meet her for the movies & lunch, I'm going home. Called her 3 times went straight to voice mail. One last time, she don't answer going home.

Easter...

I am trying to understand this whole biblical thing that relates to Easter...and its hard, even confusing. And don't tell me that I need to go to church today because I did early this morning. I took a shower at 4am and I spoke with God. ...and when He answered me, He told me all kinds of things that I should deal with today. In fact, He told me just how to go about doing them too. But I have to first see what the person I am going to meet today, see how her attitude is FIRST.

I truly believe that we as people are placed on this planet for a reason. Some of us have the same reason and some are here for all other reasons. But I am not talking about that, I'm talking of something completely different. People come into our lives for a reason also. One of my rules are that if we meet at any time in my life and we hold a decent conversation, we exchange contact information. Doesn't me we have to stay in touch, but at least 3 times a year is good. In between those times we can go about our daily living, but when you think about me, or I think about you, reaching out, is what is next.

People nowadays are so concerned about what a person can do for you, how can they make your life much easier, how can you benefit from them. I think that is bullshit. Women are always saying that a guy doesn't have this, he doesn't have that. Well what do you have, not that I am concerned about it either. We are all given the opportunity to make something of our self and sometimes it takes the help of others to give us a kick start. But if you're waiting for Ms Right or Mr Right to come along, you are just wasting your time. No one is going to treat you better than you can treat yourself. I am not looking for her, and she shouldn't be out there looking for me. Things happen for a reason, which we have NO control over.

It bothers me to hear anyone, but mostly women say that when a man has nothing, why would they want to be with them, cause if she needed finical help, she couldn't and can't go to him. I say, why would you. You got yourself into that situation, you get yourself out. Or, a man isn't a real man if he can't take care of me and my problems. Again, those are YOUR problems, your issues. Over the years, I have had plenty of conversations with women, I ask questions, I get answers. I found out a couple of things.

Some women don't want a man that can think...no, they don't want a man who can see through the BULLSHIT. BS like, a woman who depends on what her horoscope says for the day. A woman who is first to say what she has, her own home, car and money. hey that you and I am not you. Hell ALL the people in the world ARE NOT YOU, surprise. A woman who lies about her age. I know you say, what woman doesn't. But about your age? Come on that pathetic. Life is like an investment, you invest early, live your life trying to stay alive to reap in the rewards in the years that you can retire and take it easy. I said YEARS. WOMAN, are you staying around for the long run? Or, are you jsut hitting, get what you can and the run, no dash off.

People, people come into your life for a reason. Find out for real why.

FUCK !!

Just found out, after ALL these years I've been riding Metro North heading up to White Plains, NY.... I have been paying Peak Fares, instead of Off Peak Fares. So, do you think I deserve a refund? Hell, Peak Fares are $11.75 one way.

...you can't handle thr truth !!

Listen, I'm not perfect and I certainly don't try to be.I have quite a few faults about me, one is my teeth. I don't harbor on it much, but its one thing I wish I could change about me. I don't want a lot of money, I don't need a good paying job, I want to have nice teeth. The out come of my teeth are and is my fault. I own up to that, as with much of everything I do, I own up to it. Be it good or bad and I did it, I will own up to it. Simple like that. If something goes wrong and I played a major role in it, 'I did it". What? You can't kill me over it, it isn't THAT deep...or is it?

In that line of thinking, I know I can be an asshole. Rephrase that, a 'complete' asshole. It doesn't happen that much or even all the time, but I have been know to be assholish. Spell check wanted to change that word to 'abolish', go figure. I subscribe online to The Huntington something something, which they, the company owns AOL, it comes in my email, about 5 or 6 of them. If the headlines grab my eye, I read or save it for later on. Notice lately... a lot of women are having issues with men. Not only is it in writing, but some of the women that I come across are having problems with their ex's. You know what I say? Why did you answer the phone? What did you think had or has changed with him since you broke up with him? I know just what it is too. Its that chemical that get releases in the female brain.

So she is having a GREAT week. getting things accomplished at home AND at work, but work seems to be more work, so she puts more energy into work. She goes home late, after 7pm. is she trying to do away with her personal life and places more emphasis on work than her personal life? Guess so, cause it seems to be working, she has found a balance. But I detect something in her voice when we conversate over the phone. She doesn't let me get a word in edgewise. I know the feeling cause I too do the same thing, and I know what it comes from. It comes from having a lot to say and no one to say it to. her phone rings, and she answers, why, I don't really know. But we as humans tend to do things and see things completely different. Its like this for example. Chocolate taste good and you eat and eat, but you don't see the weight you gain from it. So, with her, everything is going okay, the phone rings and she feels that she is strong enough to deal with any bullshit he throws at her...she's not.

I wake up to a text, '...I just got off the phone with my ex, what does he want to continue to hurt me so bad. Why are people mean?' I say to myself, people will do only what you allow them to do to you. You answered the phone. I'm suppose to spend Sunday, which I just remembered is Easter, suppose to go to the movies. If she decides she is emotionally strong enough to see me, I don't want to go to the movies. We are going to have a long talk.

Sometimes a Title is Hard To Come Up With

Since T-Mobile is, and I wasn't aware of this, since they are trying to merge with MetroPCS, it seems T-Mobile is changing their whole structure. Next month new phones inluding the Iphone 5. Big deal right? Hell no. See TheT disappoint me when they discontinued carrying the SideKick. The only way was to get their data plan which I felt cost Gazillions of dollars. I was likingthe 1 dollar a day all access. I purchased an Iphone...now don't get excited, its a 3gs. Got it for 100 dollars and it was unlocked. What I wanted to do was jail break it. Only got it to use as another mp3 player and to install Cydia for the apps to use at home or on any free wifi. But I splurged. The T now doesn't hold you to a contract, so I went with the 2 dollar a data access plan. If I don't turn the phone on, I won't be charged. Sweet right? Let's see.

2 dollars a day times 30 comes to 60 fucking dollars a month. And what makes it so bad.. you turn the phone on, any app that talks with the internet...you get charged the 2 dollars. Since the phone isn't my primary, I won't be turning it on every freakin' day. Well at least I will 'try' NOT to.

I feel everyone should have the right to express themselves when ever they and how ever they seem fit. Freedom of Speech, right? Well no. Twitter. So far 4 people according to the newspapers have lost their jobs of expressing their views thru Twitter. I use Twitter, not as much as I like to, cause like here, I get tired of saying the same shit over & over again. But Twitter... I feel we as a people, we as a person, me as me, I should be able to say what I want to say within reason. Now I have to add worrying about if an employee decides cause she or he has it in for me, google my name, see what comes up, and decide to report me to our employer just to earn some Brownie Points. Listen, I'm not even gonna worry about that shit.

When a woman who KNOWS that you smoke cigarettes tell you prior to meeting up again with you, not to smoke a cigarette within a hour of the meeting, what does that tell you. I tell you what it means. It means either you're gonna fuck my brains out and the smell you can't deal with, or... You just don't like the smell of cigarettes. Already established that...that she wants to be spoiled. And, likes being in my company. Did I mention that she also said and asked why do guys lie about what they can do in bed. I figured out what the issue is with her. My opinion, she wants her back dugged da fuck out. She wants to feel it in her stomach. She said everything other than asking me how big I am, which I don't freakin' know, I'm not worried about my length as much as she is. We are going to the movies this Sunday. She told me to promise to be good. I told her I will be soooo good, it will be bad.

Questions...Concerning...Google

It just came to me. With Google doing so much and everything they do is incorporated into ONE, that's right ONE log in password and email address...how secure is/are thweir servers?

With China hacking into United States servers country wide, how easy would it be for some one to get into Google's servers. Today, NOTHING is secured. Google has a 2 tier sign in option, sends a text or phone call to your cell phone with a number you enter to cfontinue to sign in. I tried it for a day...why must I always go to my cell phone? That too isn't always that secured either. Bio metrics?

A thumb scanner, better yet a 2 finger scanner? I don't know, but now that I think about it... Everything we do daily depends on computers, banking be the far most thing. And you can't hide from itand say you want no parts of it. Just try to be safe.

I Think I Know What It Is.

Just now came to me. I thought it was all about fun, true it is most of the time. But what I need.... is a person who causes me to use my mind, my thinking process.

At work there iks only one person who does this and its The Head Chef. But at times...let's just say, he focuses on doing his job. With me I can work and hold a conversation at the same time. Like the Chef will go into talking with me about something and when I go to respond, he like...his eyes glaze over. Itshnot my responce, its his train of thought just drifts.

Okay, when a woman wants to be just friendsI can go along with that. But, if as friends, she wants to go another step ahead, does she tell you? Hell no she doesn't. She expects you to know. WTF? I was told I should know. Her words...you have my home number & cell phone. You know where I live & been there late at night...how come you don't pick up on the signs? Answer...because I am a man, not a woman. So I laid it out all on the table for her. Oh well, her move next.

An..An..Android !! Also Known as Google

I knew Google was a 'Power' to recon with when they came out with Gmail. Its unlimited storage on their email. For those who STILL are using ay other email clients....like Yahoo, STOP, get Gmail. Oh I have a yahoo email address, always had and always will. Its a throwaway email. Its used for only 3rdclient software that I test out and need a registration. Also, my Brackets for Marchh Madness & Fantasy Football is on their website. Just use Gmail, okay?

Here is the deal, gmail has google voice. Voice use to be called something elase before Google bought the software or the company. But Voice gives you a number that you can call from straight from the email. Now its complicated, there is also a program within the email where you can call & text too, but that's a diffewrent number aslo. So you can call from the email program straight from your laptop if your laptop has a mic, otherwise use a plug in headset.

Google also has Android, and Android is also powerful. Wait...POWERFUL !!. How powerful you may ask? First it was placed..hold up. Android starts with its operating system. Just like Windows and Mac, different versions. I think Androis is up to 4.w or 4.2, Ice Cream Sandwich or something. See, they, Google keep improving the OS, so within a years time, even 6 months sometimes, the OS upgrades. They started with Smartphones, then Tablets...and I just saw this morning at 4am, on the news, a Tablet that's as large as a small flatcreen TV, which runs dual Operating Systems, Windows 8 AND Android. AS A TABLET mind you.

Well my Tablet came in the mail yesterday and I put it thru its test. What I like about this Tablet? Here are the high points:

It handles a SD card AND a USB
You can Copy and paste
Plays all types of movie files RIGHT OUT THE BOX
AND, you can download to it.

I don't know if the latest Ipad can do that, can it?

Maybe This Is The Last of The Snow Season?

It snowed again last night. I have to say it looked great coming down. This morning, wasn't cold outside either. Weather is perfect so far. Short day at work, 5 hours. Funny though. I get the same amount of work done in 5 hours, like I do in 8. Note to self...slow down on those 5 hour days.

Looking at reviews of something you are going to buy is okay. But, after you click that 'submit' button, end all searching of that product. Because if you don't, 9 times out 10 you're going to come across more bad reviews than good. Then, like how I feel now, I say to myself I should have NOT purchased it. I should have done a better search of the item and really paid attention to those reviews. I purchased an Android Tablet, 10 inch for under $150. Gonna use it mostly to remote access my laptop at home while I'm on the go and installa shit load of games.

I saw a post on my Time Line on Facebook. It was by some famous NY DJ. Title I think is called Bad Bitches. What he expressed, I feel excatly how he feels. Why do women say its all about 'gettin that money', or expressing what they have. Their own car, home and of course, their own money. I'm talking about the ones on online newtwork social sites and dating sites. True, you may have all of that, but what you don't have is love. ...a man to call your own. Is it because you're running your ass up in a club? This DJ mentioned, fake hair, fake nails and fake eyes. Everything about that women that she claims she has her own, isn't even her own. Why aren't they content enough to look in the mirror and deal with what God gave them. You could blame it on those Black magazines too. Women in those magazsines were not BORN like that, they made themselves up to look like what's on those pages. Do they think that that's what men want. Do they theink that that's what expected of them to make in in the business world. I can understand that you have to market yourself, but... its bad when you spend all that money on so called improving yourself for your workplace, but afterwork,you can't even affors to come home to a decent meal. Not every woman is like this, I understand, but some are.

I made it official. 2 of the t4 owmen that I'm seeing are cut off. Not looking back on them and working on numer 3 now. I mean its been fun over the months & years, but you're  not moving up. Its like you're just standing there stuck. I want to go out and do things, but the 3 of 'youse', just want to stay home and watch TV, eat and do nothing else. I 52, and will be 53 next month, but 'youse' act like you're older than me. Time for me to move on. Speaking of....

I read online and in a magazsine this thing about aging. I don't know what I am doing, but from where I look, its doing well for me. Except for. About 15 grey hairs, I'm aging well. My weight is where I want it to be now. For the longest I stayed at 148, but went up to 152, 153 if I ate too much over the weekend. Now, I weigh between 162 & 165, depends on what day of the week it is. I try not to eat out in public, like eating on the run. But if I do, its either coffee and a pastry tops. I wait until I get home and eat. Workdays, 1 meal a day, weekends, I eat ALL day long. Sleep has a lot to do with it also. In bed by 8, 9pm, depends on what time I have to be at work too. Sex plays a big part in it also. You MUST have a sexual sex life too. It helps ths body. Don't understand why some people mostly women just stop having sex too. Has nothing to do with the change of life. Its all that junk you put in you body. It gets fat and then you don't want to expose yourself to anyone but yourself. More later.

It's Been Bought To My Attention That...

See, I think I know what my problem is when it comes to dating or even having a girlfriend. The ones I wat to be with and want a lasting relationship with, don't know how to manage their time. I've spoke with them. Its that they keep the same pattern, doing the same thing week in week out. I really think they are afraid of change, but they want something different.

Take Evelyn for example. She lives. A good 2 hrs from where I live by public transportation. I have no problem going to her home. I did on our fiirst meet face to face. Nice home..nice everything. But to keep up with what she is doing to maintain her style of living, she has to work 6 days a week. That one day off is take care of personal business. I told her, she has no time for me. I said if you just want a sexual relationship, I can give you that, but that becomes boring to me after a while, I want to show you off in public. She said no one ever told her that. Her too, a man fucked up her life at one time or another and now she is so use to doing for herself that the only thing missing is sex and she wants sex. But she has no time for that. I'm gonna try and give her want she wants for a month or two though.

Music & Some Other Sh.. Stuff

Maybe its just me, but isn't it hard to come by good music. If there was no such thing as downloading music...guess the world would be a lot different. To me the only good music coming out today are 2 hr DJ sets of either Dance, Trance or and Breakbeat. I'm exploring though. Since I work withand around all types of people from different countries, I've taken to asking them what they like. Most of the names they are mentioning, I can't even pronounce more less write it out..neither can they. Found out about some female DJ from Russia, Lady Waks. She is playing live insome radio station. She talented, only thing is that she cuts in and speaks in her language, which I don't understand, but she has a good ear.

Let me say this, and again this is my opinon. Some women, not all, have the intelligence of a broken door knob. So, we establish some sort of connection online, traded emails first. Then wanted to take it further, exchanged phone numbers. I sent her a text, when it raining and cold out, told her that this was the type of weather for being indoors, relaxing, getting to know each other. No pressure for sex, wasn't even on my mind, just talking. Next text hse ask what would we be doing? I said cooking a meal together at her place, leaving the cooking up to me, she could relax, and do the dishes, but I 1would, cause I'm use to cleanig as I cook. Next text...she just blew me out of thye water.

I knew it was good when the first sentence was...'FIRST of all, I'm rude as hell'. Her words. Went on to say, that a first time greet & meet was and should be in a public place and who was I to say that I AM cooking in in kitchen, EVEN invited into her home, AND why should she be doing the dishes? See, I think either she woke up on the wrong side of the bed, or had a very bad work day and or, just fucking NUTZ !! I do know first time meeting some one online in person is somewhere public. This woman is 54 years old and she has some issues that are deep. That's how you weed out the crazies. On to the next one I say.

Don't you dislike when you're at work and a co workerwho has been there many years before you...and they don't carry their share of the work load. Seven and a half hour day..they do about one hours of work. Yeah I work with 2 people like that. But yesterday, I pulled both of them together and laid down the law. Do your do or get the fuck out of this kitchen. I'm last hired in this kitchen, but that doesn't mean I do all the2 grunt work, work that you're suppose to do. They both blew jup on me which was okay cause The Sous Chef was nodding his head in agreement. Chef comes out his office, heard what I was saying, then went back inside. Afterwards, asked me how it go. Told him I think I struck their nerves, which I think is a good thing. So today, I expect one of them to call in sick. Oh well.

I'm Just Trying To Figure Things Out

In Brooklyn, NY a 16 year old was shot and killed by NYC's NYPD. This 16 year old was know as a Blood Gang member, and Police say he pulled a gun out on them. So, they shot and killed him. My feelings on the whole matter is this....

I could care less that he was shot and killed for one reason only... He was KNOWN as a GANG MEMBER!! On the news for the last couple of days, in Brooklyn thathave been protests, marches to the Police Station. Notice I didn't say peaceful marches. Groups of THUGSvwent into a local store chain and trashed the place. Plus, caught on camera, betting up on a customer. But no, the community says he was a good kid and he didn't have a gun a witness who say the whole thing. He probably did have a gun and or, the Police 'thought' and had every reason to believe he DID have a gun.

Okay, so if the Police made a terrible mistake and shot him and killed him, it was just that, a mistake. But I don't think they did it on purpose. Listen, he was a gang member and the gangs out there in Brooklyn are heartless and cold blooded. 16 year olds in these gangs are trying to make a word for themselves and thinkh because they are 16, nothing can happen to them. They also think that going to jail for you gang, your gang family is like a medal of honor. If shot by rival gang members and live to tell the tale about it, they walk around with a cane, like its a good thing, showing off. 'Yeah I got shot, butIm gonna get them back, watch'.

I ask, where are the parents in all of this. If I were a parent, I could put up with a lot my 16 year old son can and will do, but... Being in a gang while living in my house, I'm not having that. I would do everything I could do. When I can't do any more, kicking his ass out. But first I will call the Police on him to have him escorted out of the home. These parents who allow for the children and young adults to live under their roofs should also do jail time. But what you get...is these same parents who say on camera in protest, that their son was a good kid, he went to school, people in the community, so will and some won't, will speak up for and against the kid. Oh, they won't speak against the kid in public, just behind closed doors and only to a seleted few and NEVER on camera.

What I don't understand is this. If these kids, grown men AND women want to defend something that really isn't theirs, they should join the Armed Forces and be placed in a combat field where they will get a chance to shoot all the bullets they want to. But what you hear from them when appraoched about joining, they aren't going to die for nothing. Well theyh are doing that right now for nothing and for free.

Online Shopping

You knew something was up when... The powers that Be, kept raising the prices of stamps. It use to be before you knew excatly when something was coming in the mail by your regular Post Office. Times have changed, let me explain further.

Okay, I'm no Rocket Scientist, but I do know what I know. I do know that it was a matter of time before The Post Office as we all know it will fail to exsist. DHL, Fed Express and UPS will take over...eventually. some how they have, UPS being one of them.

Ordering anything online, you, I always waited for that Brown Truck to show up. We made arrangements to try and be they, better yet, the driver would drop the package off with a next door neighbor. I order a lot online and I see this...this change is happening. Okay, you get a UPS Tracking number, track the package online. Lately what has been happening for me, UPS has been handing the package off to The Post Office for delivery. That's okay if you item is being sent shipping charges free, but if you're paying for UPS, I want my package delivered BY UPS.

Read in the newspaper that some guy out at JFK airport has beeb stealing packages that were shipped by air. They arrested him, went to his house and found a electronic store there. Flat screens, computers & laptops, cameras...all type of stuff. He begged notto be arrested, he said he has children to support. I say FUCK HIM!!  I have been waiting for a package, a tracking number since last month on the 26th.

Since when did UPS start delivering medications. Your doctor calls you about medications he want you to have, next day, ding dong, UPS has you signing for it.

Stephanie was hurt in the past just recently about 3 months ago. Some guy she met online, took her for quite a bit of money after he moved in with her. So she is weary of online dating, but we went out. I heard the old 'Im looking for my soulmate' routine. I went with it, so we are friends. She channels her heartbreak into her work. Always busy at work and resting up on weekends. Mind you, I can deal with the 'F' word, being just friends, but she knows I want to get with her on a sexual level, but sex to her is Love. But she loves it, or having it. She questions me on how come guys say they can satify a woman and they don't or can't. Is this a sign that I should just... No actual words coming out of mouth. But in emails and text, she is always asking me this question. One, I'm not gonna give you an answer over the phone so you can get off on on the other end of the telephone line. Two, if you want to find out about me, just seth something up with me. I have no patience of shit like this. She text me yesterday saying she didn't know I was interested in her. I sent back a straight to the point email. Ahavent hears naything yet.

A person can search his or her entire life and never find what they are looking for. I am that person.

Disturbing news. A friend of mine just text me and told me that she is going back to where she came from, Chicago. She left there in 1996. Oh, she doesn't live here in the 5 boroughs, she lives out on Long Island. She has 2 jobs, one she is about to be cut loose from...I think. So she won't be able to afford where she is living at on one paycheck. I called her and told her over the phone what the deal was, but first I asked did she want to hear my opinion. She said yes.

She has 2 grown children living with her, a man, 25 years old and a woman, 33 I think. He works, she doesn't. It was her choice to live out there on Long Island, when living here in the city would have been a better option. But she I think is afraid of big city living. Rents are affordable, compared to what she is paying for a one bedroom now, $1,400 a month...and that's in a house, where the owners are living too. For the price she is paying, she could move into a Bronx CoOp and pay just under $1,000 a month, and that's with gas and electric included. More jobs, public transportation close by, and food cost extremely will be within her budget. her son could sell one of the 2 cars he has, and the daughter could look for a job too. But no, she wants me to help her out, which I refused to do for reasons I don't even have to explain.

Don't threaten me with you deciding to just pick up and head back to Chicago...JUST GO. What makes you think I am obligated to take care of you and yours. Don't take my advice, well leave then. You choosed to be living where you are living. And what makes you think moving to Chicago will be any better. People freezing to death in the winter and death by heat exhaustion in the summer. Not much of a choice if you ask me. But if that's what you feel you have to do, do it.

It, It, It's...

...I figuring it out more and more each day. That is what women want in a man, in their men. Sorry, Icant give them any of that, I'm no robot. Not saying that men that do ar2e robots, but.... Hell, half the time I don't know what I'm going to do until the last possible moment. Don't know why it works out that way, but it suits me just fine.

Strange text conversation yesterday. It went from, can't wait to. See you again, to, will you look after my kids when I'm gone, dead. Hold da fuck up, what are you saying? What's going on.  Find out its nothing life threatening, but she thinks so. Where she lives at, the home owners are taking advantage of her with the rent, so she feels lost. People feel like being homeless is the end of the world, its not. Its a time for regrouping. Its a time to say to yourself, never again will I fall victim to another person's greediness. Moving on.

Woke up this morning, 2am or so, checked email and found a coworker as me to friend her. My rulez...if I have your cell phone number, that means I can text you or even call you, right? Friending you on FB...its like your being nosey. NOT to mention...I didn't give you info on finding me. So either you have the hots for me, she is a female, you could have done that by text. Anyway my FB page is 'vanilla' in a way. I barely write anything, I just post videos and webpages I like. So be it. Again moving on.

Let's set the record straight...computers. they are so easy to understand. That is if you take the time to figure them out, take the time to go to school and learn about them. Or even take half an hour each day for a month and read about them. I'm talking going to the library and ASK the people that work there. I went to school, paid a good price for it too. But I was tired of paying someone to fix my system and getting the impression that I was a dumb fuck. Schooling...case solved. So now you bought an over priced system and you did something wrong. So you say 'it' not doing what you want it to do. 1, its not going to do anythibg on its own unless you do or in a way TELL it to do something. 2, since you don't know what tha fuck you're doing (poor, poor computer), its just gonna stop doing whatever you attempted to twll it to do and crash. More than likely you fucked something up, told it to do something like go wash the kitchen dishes or do the laundry. Nope, computers can't...wait they can, my bad. Anyways...I'm your Knight in shinning armor. I can help you, but there is a price. Nice body, pretty smile and pretty face, we can work something out. Bad attitude, pay me in cash. That's how life is.

One more day...the weekend. I want to do her, I mean do something.

Speaking of Zombies

I don't know what my fixation is with Vampires & Zombies. I guess its the who idea that the both just don't give a flying fuck about anything. Well they do care about some things. 1, Vampires, about blood. 2, Zombies about eating flesh. I thought it was brains, but I guess they have envolved.
If I was a Vampire, there are certain people I would difinitly turn...all females, no males.

PSA

I know I repeat myself. Its not for others, its for me. And sometimes I continue to make the same mistakes over & over. Please, please be patient with me, God isn't finish with me yet.

This morning, while standing on the platform, I noticed something about myself. A woman was walking down the stairs toward me. Pretty face, long hair and about the same age as I am. As she walked past, I noticed her butt, yeah I am man and human. She turnes around and looked me in the face. Asked did I like what I see. Told her yes and got her name and number. I will call her this afternoon. While riding the train, too many people & people be all up in ya face, so a conversation would be stressful for the both of us. Only proves one thing for me though.

It proves that one she is single and takes very good care of herself. Isn't afraid to meet new people, comfortable with who she is. I don't know if she goes online, but from those few seconds, I can guess she doesn't...but maybe she does. It also proves she hasnothing to hide, which brings me to my other point.

From my experiences with women, most having something to hide. Its either their daily life; how they live or living. Or, their body. Let's start with how they are living. Most people, not only women, lie to hide something. Either its feelings or something else, I can't call it. When meeting women online I had stated I go by my first impression and that's their picture. Most women take those 'mirror' pictures, I dislike those, but I look. Most take pictures of their butts or turned 3/4's in the picture so that you see the butt & breast. Look further into the profile and they state they aren't into 'booty calls', its all about them and they want some one to start taking care of them. I guess they have a hard time doing it for themselves. I can't see me taking care of a woman other than she being my wife. And besides, wha do they have to bring to the table?

I treat people in general the way I want to be treated, and I know I can't get that from everyone at all times. It would be nice, ut it doesn't happen like that in real life. People will do shit on the sneak tip, act one way with you and another way with other people. I've seen it s many times in the work place. Me, I treat ALL people the same, no matter what your status is in the compnay. I won't disrespect you if you don't disrespect me. And playing word games, I rankright up there with the best of them. Like at work, the powers that be seems they are having a hard time saying good morning to me when I say it first. I feel this way, reguardless of what happened on your commute to work, leave that shit at home or in your car. I didn't do anything to you, so don't take your madness out on me.

Not to mention coworkers who are the same level as you as in job structure & status, they act one way with you, but when they get around 'the man', they are totally different. You know what I say in the work place now, I can't wait for the zombies to come cause they ARE coming. And when they come, we will see what's what and who is who.

A Good Weekend...

Since I had to take The Long Island Railroad to get to where I had to get to, leaving the same way, I've notice some things. Neighborhoods.

I can see the difference where Queens turns into Long Island. There are a number of differences, one being the obvious, the homes. Mainly its the backyards that come into vision. Mind you, the homes in Queens aren't shabby at all, but you can tell a lot about the people who live in these homes, by their backyards.

Long Island backyards, they seem part of the house, where as Queens backyards, the owners seem to not really carevabout them. Its like they are being used just for storage of all types of things. Long Island backyards...clean, neat, like you can eat of the grounds. Nothing stored, everything in its place.

Another thing, are the streets. Long Island, clean, I mean REALLY clean. Queens, they belong to the city, let the city clean them up. I guess home owners have different views on appearances when it comes to their homes. Pride, its all about pride.