Stuck

I don't know what it is, but it feels like that I am just stuck. Its like the movie GroundHog's Day. The same shit over and over. I know what I need to do too.

I thought this over and the firwst thing I have to do is changed the way I dress. Yep, I dress for riding public transportation cause the trains and buses are filthy. I mean that they are so nasty that at times after I get off a train or bus, I have this constant smell of shit in my nose. It has become personal cause I think if I smell it, others smell it too. I think that I probably sat in some shit, so when I get to where I'm going I run to the bathroom and check myself ALL over. Doesn't happen that often to warrant a slight case of OCD...yet.

Some people LIKE the idea of being in a relationship for the simple matter of... just 'knowing' that some one wants them. I was told from a female that no man has ever left her, that she always break up with them first. So, I told her it was over. She got this look on her face that was priceless. I was joking either, told her I was tired of her shit and that the only reason YOU thought we were in a relationship was cause you have this 'thing' about only having sex with your BF, so I went along with what 'YOU' wanted. Me, hell, I would agree with anything you said to get to have sex with you. She said fine, its over. Next breath, 'no, I'm not going anywhere, you arw stuck with me until I say its over'. Now that's some funny shit, but I know I have been known to say some off the wall shit when I'm told something I wasn't prepared for. Like..' would & will sleep with you, but I have herpes, but no recent out breaks'. My response..'Great, and afterwards you can go suck an aids infected dick and I can suck an aids infected pussy. Come onl ets go!!'. She then told me I was a sick puppy.

There is this woman at work, I just found out her name, not gonna mention it, safer that way. Well, she isn't a Black Woman, she is White. Pretty face by my standards...wait, question. How come White Guys, when I asked them what they think of that White Woman, they always give a fucked up response? Is it because at that moment in his mind she was all perfect for him, but now when I notice her, she is used material, chum..not so good looking now. Happens a lot. Well anyway, this woman, perfect from head to toe. Turn her around and.. HER ASS, PERFECT!! No, no, you don't seem to understand. She has an ass that's not too big, nor too small. Her ass is an ass that you picture what type of panties, boy shorts and yoga pants in. You picture what it looks like with a towel wrapped around it after she leaves the shower. What it looks like when she lays on her stomach in your bed or on a beach where there is no one around. I think she has been working on it all winter, cause she broke it out yesterday in the nicest palin pants I ever seen worn on a woman. Her ass is so perfect that Black Woman get upset when the approach her from behind, get angry and haven't even seen her face yet. AND...she know what she has and is working with, cauwe the woman behind her saw me looking at her, and for reason I don't understand, she decided to bend over at the waist to pick something up off the floor that wasn't even there. This woman has a pretty face, but no body. Just observations. I can't wait until it gets REALLY warm.