One of Things About Working in a Large City

..sooner or later, you will catch a cold.

Some people don't care. They use mass public transportation as their...bathroom, livingroom and bedroom. I'm not talking about the homeless, they don't have any choice of the matter. Talking about people who have a place to live and can and SHOULD do all of the above in the privacy of where they live. I mean, that's what you pay rent for.

The other day, I stood up to get off the train at the next stop. Woman, lady...really a piece of shit, just out right sneezed right in my face. Oh she said excuse me and sorry, but damn. Did nt you feel the sneeze coming on? People just don't care. It rare that I catch a cold or get sick, but this cold I have...its a MONSTER !!

This station cleaner, a female, she has the greatest looking ass in her work pants. She knows it too. Complimented her on ti too, said that you. Speaking of...instead of meeting my future wife face to face, I took to using Skype. I figure it like this, if you don't know how to use Skype, not gonna waste my time.

Taking a trip in December to the top part of NY state, Rochester, NY. Never been there. I have a couple of friends who live in and around the area. Not staying with any of them, getting a hotel room, but let them know where I'm staying. Since I don't own my own transportation, theywill have to come to me. I'm only going to be there for 4 days and probably spend most of my time in my room. Except, one woman I met online says she wants tospend some time with me to get to know me better. We have been on Skype a couple of times. And each time she wears less and less clothing which suits me fine. Widowed, 4 grown children, pretty face and seems like she is fun to be around.

I'm not a dog, but I bark a lot.

I Have Omitted Two Word From My Vocabluary, I Wish I Could...

,,,do away with some other things too. But be patient with me, God isn't finish with me yet.

The two words, 'hate' & 'nigger'. Hate is such a strong word and I have found out that I really don't hate anything. Its more or less a 'dislike', so that what I exchange the word for. Think about it. When you 'hate' something, along with the word 'dislike', it changes your whole way of thinking, the way you see a thing and even a person. True people hate other people for a number of reasons. The main reason is because of their skin color. So, when I say I 'dislike' people that 'hate' people because of their skin color, people look at me strangely. I don't care, that how I am, that's how I will live my life.

The word 'nigger' is something to itself entirely different. There is too much of a nasty background even to use it in a friendly term as I see people do today. And, its not just use to a certain 'type' of people any more. Everyone can use it. Its like its universal, but only here in America that that is being done. In the Hip Hop Community it's widely used, 'Whats up my niggar'. People have even changed the lettering, replacing it with an 'az' at the end if the 'nigg', but we all know its still the same word, just a different spelling. I cringe when I hear the word, the term. Some people really don't know the history about the word, the blood spilled because of that word.

TBC

WTF, Crazy Ass Times...Gets Worse Before It Gets Better

...I was doing it all wrong, my bad.

Crazy ass times we are living in. If its not for school kids destroying the..hell, you can't go to school any more. Well, grade school that is. Kids are shooting in schoolslike its part of the learning process. See, shit like that won't or hasn't happened, not that I know of in NYC's schools. Reason why? Kid pulls out a gun, if not the teacher, other kids would pull out too.

That's new and different. She told me that she doesn't understand why I am single and why I want to be with her. Also, how come I don't have any children, am I that selfish? Asked her can I just come out and be straight up with her. I like the whole process of having sex. Why would I want to mess it up with having children. Picture what your life would be like if you had no children, it was just you. You would be able to come and go and do as you pleased. Only worry about one mouth to feed. Don't have to stay up late at night wondering where and what your child is getting into. If you get bored with where you're living, you could just up and go, only to worry about yourself. She still doesn't understand. Broke it sown further for her. What is it you want from me then? Her, the standard, I can take care of myself and my own kids. True that, sois it just only about the sex then? And if so, when and what timeh will you have. I just wanted to meet you and see what would happen. Four kids...what time do you really have for yourself? Kids drive you crazy, you say you just go into your room and close the door. As long as they aren't fighting, its all good. So, are you looking for a sex partner, is that part of your life missing? See, I come straight out and ask these questions. I won't know unless you ask. My life is an open book. What you want to know, all you have to do is ask.

But there is always some hidden agenda some where along the line. Most of the time some women don't even know what they want. Its like pulling teeth, its a process. Me, I will pull teeth, using no novocaine. Sometimes I can be a little too straight forward. Hell, life is too freaking short.

The Girl With The (a) Pearl Earring

It was a major motion picture..its actually a painting. Hasn't been in New York City in 29 years...and its back!! Its at my work place. Google it. Expecting HUGE crowds today and all the way up to January 19th 20114. Painting worth I think 53 MILLION dollars. I asked can I take a picture besides it..NO !! But they let the press in and they took pictures. Its a once in a life time thing for me.

Went on a 'meet' yesterday after work. Some one I met online. I know I said I would stop doing this, but I had to see her in person. 47 years oldand from her pictures a looker too. Listen, I know time hasn't been great to some of us, even me included, but... There should bean online law saying that pictures posted should be within the last 90 days. I understand that we all want to show and post what we looked like back then, but...  She looked nothing like her pictures. Don't get me wrong, still VERY much interested in seeing what happens with us. Has 4 kids,youngest 6, oldest 26 and all girls. I know that's kind of hard on the nerves and all. Later I'm going to text her and ask her out to dinner, movies or something. To be honest, from what I saw of her, I want to see her not completely nude, but with just her under garments on.

Just ask Boar's Head driver did he have any extra hats. He gave me the one off his head. Way to go Boar's Head !!

Some Times You Have To Feel The Situation Out.

So, this woman, who is my age want s to get to know me better. And she figures, what better place than going to church, which she does every Sunday. I told her, that that isn't the best place because you will find out just how the people in your churchh really are. I know this from past times when a 'date' was church on Sunday.

Being that this was the first time I was going to her church, I told her that I would meet her there and that she can approach me after the service. But, keep an eye and an ear open to what you hear and see. I was approached by quite a few people before the service started. The basic, my name and what I do for a living. Then it got really weird. Some people approached me and told me that they have seen me somewhere before, but can't place where. I told them that if over the years you ate in a resturant down in Manhattan, rode the 5 train, or even rode the Bronx 28 or 38 bus and even Westchester Conty's 60 bus...you probably have seen me.

7 females said that to any of those places I mentioned that they have and have been to. Then it got even weirder. Some of them gave me their phone numbers and email adresses. Of course it was along the line of if I wanted more knowledge of study from the Bible. After the service, my lady friend approached me outside the church.

She was shocked and amazed by all the women that came up to me and wanted to know what we were talking about. Nothing really, but they were setting me up for 'away' from the church. Then she started telling me the dirt on the ones that approached me. Here I thought she was a God fearing woman and that type of 'stuff', God frowns down upon a person if they choosed to do things like that. Told her that shit like that goes on all the time in the church, you just have to be open to it and see it when it happens. Most, pay no attention because they are in the hous of The Lord.

She claims she isn't like that, but then again, here she was talking crap about people. I told her that God comes to people in all types of ways. That she sees God different from the way everyone else does. All people are like this. That people go to church for all different kinds of reasons. Some go cause they have. No other place to go or be. That they feel relaxed and comfortable there. Then there are thouse that go for a totally different reason...to meet people, to hook up with people. She didn't believe me.

See, we went back to her place and I could tell by her moves and her speak, that she had other plans with me, but she held back. I told her at her door, that she should've went with what she had planned with me. That it was her just being herself and that now she is phony in my eyes from here on out. She asked me to give her a 2nd chance. Told her to call or text me when she feels ready.

All men want really from women is that theybe theirselves. Some have a hard ass time doing this. Is it maybe from their past that they were hurt? Or, could it be that they don't want men to know the 'real' them. Sooner or later the real you comes out. Why lie to yourself? The only person you're fooling is yourself. I'm me 24 hours a day, even when I am sleeping. But those hours when I am not sleeping are my best.

Some Thoughts

I just finished reading this book by Daniel H. Wilson, Roboapalasype. It had me thinking about a lot of shit through out the whole book. Thoughts on how almost everything we depend on today has a computer chip embedded in it. So what happens when a computer designed by man, gets tired, and decides to learn. Not only learn, but gets all those computer chips world wide into thinking how 'he' does. Some scary shit, really think about that.

I can't begin on how to feel what it feels like to lose some one because of death. To me death is a release, a time to let go and move on. Moving on to what, I don't know. But, it has to be better than the world we live in now. I'm not saying that I can't wait to die, but I am not afraidof death. But for those who have faced death of a loved one, all I can say is that that person is in a much better place. But what becomes of that perosn who is still walking around, say the oppiste sex, a female. If their relationship was of marriage... I don't know what to really say. It isn't easy to just 'move on', because that person played a major role in their life. But we do have to move on though. I don't know of any standard waiting period, but... for a female it may be difficult to do so. Okay it has been 3 years since her husband has died. She told me not to say things she wants to hear, but things she needd to hear. So I did. Made her cry too. Didn't mean to, but I don't hold back when I speak and a person gives me the freedom to do so. She isn't ready for a relationship, all she needs is a warm body, some one she can trust. Some one she can at least start over, if not with, but from. No one on the face of this planet is our 'dream person', we find fault in everything. No matter what it is. She is driving down to the city to see me, and to talk with me in person.

Told a co worker that she reminded me of Laura Croft. Not in face, but the way she was dressed. She was surprised that I said that. Even though she didn't express it verbally, it showed on her face. She's a quiet person, but for that split second when I looked at her, that's who she reminded me of.

I have to find me a hoodie, something not too stylish, warm and comfortable. That and a pair of snearkers for the winter and a pair of boots. I keep putting it off, don't know why either. Not lazy, but buying something and once you take the tags off, its final. Just don't want to make a bad decision.

Whats Your Excuse?

That's what I saw on the news early this morning. A woman who to me seems like she had back to back children, 3, but...

...looked GREAT as all hell!! So, that's what I'm asking of some women, what is your excuse?

I know it can be hard, bringing up children. But where along the line, some of you decided just to give up with looking good for...who ever if not your own self. I have heard..there is no time to excersise, you just don't know how it is. Well, there are a lot of women who do know how it is and that hasn't stopped them from looking good for themselves, if not for the men or that future man to be in their life.

Hey, its not only women, some of us men too. Me for example. I fall in that...I'm 'skinny-fat'. I'm slim, but I have a stomach. I do know what I have to do to get rid of it too, cut of sugar. But sugar is SO good!! It use to be salt that I was madly in love with. Has to cut back on it cauwe of issues with 'maybe' blood pressure. Now, I'm working on sugar.

I was asked out on a date. Couldn't believe it when she asked me too. A light 'pre dinner' she called it. She wanted to know more about me in a different setting. Ended up talking for 3 hours and about 4 bathroom breaks. Coffee and ice tea. Walked her home so to speak. She says she wants to see more of me and cook a home dinner for me.

..Waiting on The 3rd Chanced Meeting

I met her in Piney Point Maryland, Seamanship School when I worked for Norwegian Cruise Lines. I went outside to smoke a cigarette, but didn't have a match. Walked up to her and introduced myself. She was from New York City, I knew the area. She knew my cousin. Pulled out her cell phone and called him and put me on the phone with him.

The training we went through at this school was for all positions on a cruise ship. I was an Assistant Cook and she was a Cabin Stewardess. The rules were...well basically, you weren't allowed to get shit faced drunk. You could sleep in any room and with anyone you wanted to. The rooms were male, male, female, female. But if the occupants didn't mind you sleeping over, no biggie. We talk a couple of times and she always hanged out in my room with me and my roommates. One of my roommates got about 3 half gallons of liquor in the mail one day, the party was on.

She got so drunk that I helped her back to her room and we became really good friends after that. She thanked me for not taking advantage of her, even though she wanted to get with me, but not like in the state she was. We left Piney Point for Hawaii, both being assigned to a different ship and I never saw her again...not until...

5 years later I'm working in Queens, in a Supermarket, behind the counter as a Deli Clerk and she walks in. Looking like something out of the pages of a clamor magazine. The only issue after she screamed and was happy to see me was that she was with her boyfriend. We caught up with what we were doing, and she had to leave. We exchanged numbers, and every so often she would walk by my house when I was living in Queens. She made it her thing to do that she told me cause she really liked something about me, but she didn't know what it was.

A little while ago she reached out to me through Facebook. She is lonely, tired of dealing with men who have no jobs and are living off of her. She wants to get together next week, and see what happens between us on a different level.

I'm Beginning to Understand Now

This is how I think it is.

For some strange reason, I find myself talking with some women who...have NO intentions of becoming emotionally involved not only with me, but with any man who has a BRAIN.

Okay, stop me if I'm wromg, but... whyis it the first thing or the first sign that women put out there, that they have not intentions of sleeping..fucking, having sex with ANY man for the rest of their lives. Oh, hey ladies, you wanna know why us older guys date and have younger women as our girlfriends and even as a wife? Gonna tell you.

This isn't just coming off the top of my head either. Its from experience. Seems that these single parent women with 3 kids from different fathers..no 'sperm donors', are just after one thing. MONEY!! No some women can say, 'its not like that', but it is. They can also say,' it isn't about sex all the time' too. Well, what OTHER fuckin' hreason does a human being has to live for then? Tell me, please tell me.

Okay, the woemn who find it very hard to be emtionally attached..they are the ones who are scarred. It isn't me either. I was told by a woman who is engaged that if she wasn't she would for sure hook up with me, but hse got a good man right now, and she isn't going to mess that up. But she hooked me up with a friend, who turned out after we got together, saw dollar signs in her eyes. I went back to the engaged woman and told her. She told me that she spoke with her and told her not to fuck up a good thing with me. Too late. Now she is so sick, her body, something medical, she reaches out to me crying. I have no love for her. And I told her straight up about trying to be 'that' type of woman. God don't like ugly.

There are some women, my age who don't have children, no man and are doing well for themselves. All they have been doing all this while, is taken care of themselves, but lack that man who will understand them. Well, I tried to, a lot of them, I tried to. They get so use to doing and being by themselves, that they don't know how to act around men who they claim, 'they want it to work' between us. I know you do, so do something different. Stop being judgemental about everything you have no control over. Its..'' don't do this, I don't do that, I don't eat this, or I don't go here or there'.

Well, I'm just getting tired of this whole dating thing. Where are the 'real' women at? The ones that just take a man for who he is.

Some of My Thoughts

Another person goes crazy...in Washington, DC.

Why is it that when a person goes off on the 'deep end', its like a shock to some people. There is no one to blame except for the person buggin' tha fuck out, they are to blame. But certain rules in and of society are to blame too.

One thing about me, I'm the same way no matter what. Even in any place I may be working. I joke, play around, tell jokes and play music, my kind of music if its allowed. When ever I clock in, you're gonna get the same me no matter what happens. And, if I am having ANY type of problems or issues that gather away from work, I don't hold that shit in AT work. I talk about it with any one who is willing to hear. I mean, I work with my co workers 5 days a week 8 hours a day, and I want them to KNOW about me up to a certain point. My emotional well being is what they SHOULD care about.

In most work places they have a counselor you can go and talk to about shit that you're going through. But...that's their job and I believe they hate that shit too. Listening to other people's issues. They don't give their personal thoughts on your issues, they give a 'text book' answer casue some one along the way SAID this is how people are suppose to act and behave. Anything other than the way 'the book' says...well you have issues problems and this is the way you're suppose to act. Also...

We as people hold too much shit in. We as humans need to let of steam and have people listen, not HEAR what we are saying. BIG difference between the two. The person who comes to work, neatly dress, speaks properly...then we they go home, they are complete slobs. Spend all their money on looking good at work, giving that impression. In fact, some times they don't even have food at home to eat, rent is way over due and about to become homeless. At the end of their ropes and they just fuckin' snap!! Thenh you hear about neighbors saying this and that. Never expecting that they would do something like this. Its sad.

Those FOOLS on those motorcycles.... the guy that in the hospital...that what you get for hanging with your homeboys 'acting' like you're in a MC Club. Bad Boys, the 1%ers, yeah right. He got what he deserved. 20 to 30 bikes stopped on a highway and had that guy boxed in. Imagin if you were in that position, in that car with you husband or wife AND child, what would you have done? I would've done what the driver did, ran their asses over and got the fuck out of there. Its like you're getting jump by a crowd of people. All you have to do is just get one of them. Bite his ass in his face and his screams would alert the others that you mean business, get them the fuck off of me. All it takes is getting one of the pack down and in your grasp, just one of them.

I Just LOVE New York City...and, All You Need to Do Is Wait.

I got off from work at my mormal time, 2pm. I work on 70th Street, between 5th Ave & Madison Ave. After I crossed Madison Ave, half way up the block was a crowd.

This crowdwas in front of The Explorers Club. Regular people and photgraphers. I know...photographers, they are normal people too, right? Inside this club, Sandra Bullock & George Clooney. I have yet to see either of them in person, so I hung out for a while to take their pictures.

There were others in Hollywood Business, but, I just didn't know who some most of them were. That show, The Big C. The guy that plays the husband he came out. Stopped, had his picture taken and then just walked up the block. Like, this guy is a great actor on that show, funny. But I didn't move fast enough to get his picture. After about 45 minutes, Ms. Bullock came out. Short, very thein looking, but cute. If she needed a place to crash for the night, I wouldn't turn her away.

George Clooney then came out half an hour later. NOW I see what all the hub bub is about with this guy. Not for nothing...this guy is FUCKING GOOD LOOKING!! He is James Bond 007 good looking. I'm not into guys but, I do see why women go crazy over him. I will post the pictures I took later when I get home.

My Netbook, for the last 6 months or so has been sick. I wanted a movie so bad that I downloaded from a site that I never been to before. After the download, I click to watch it and it wipe out my wireless adaptors. Did everything I could think of to get them back. My 2nd laptopis a Chromebook, but since its a Chrome OS, no software for what I want to do on it. Yesterday all that changed.

I spoke with Tech Support at work, and I asked could I bring it in to him again. He asked did I have the installion Restore CD, no, its a Netbook, no CD/DVD drive. He said its probably sitting on the hard drive. BINGO. Googled, restore options and procceded. Restored it to out of the box state. Of course I had backed up everything to an external hard drive. Put back all my folders, installed the basic programs that I needed. Also installed Teamviewer, so I can remote access while at work. Back in business now.

What Happens When Your Government Is Closed For Business.

...you continue to pay your taxes, nothing changes. Saw on news that its costing 300 Million a day.

Its funny though...those in Washington are continuing to get a paycheck...while 800K are told, sorry no work today. I had a chance, once I left the military to work for the government, but... Too many rules restrictions, and I wanted to do what I wanted to do. I kind of feel sorry for those 800K though. They thought of job secruity, never having to worry about being out of a job. Guess all of that has changed. Neither sides of this 'cluster fuck' will be willing to give in. We just have to wait and see.

Also what's so funny...some people don't even know what this is all about. I express my views to those who don't know. I also tell them, that since you vote and pay taxes, you should be more aware of whatsgoing on. ObamaCare...its crazy and both scary at the same time too.

I lostmy wallet on the streets of Manhattan on Monday..at 6 o'clock in the morning. For some strange reason, I knew it would be returned and it was. Minus the $110, but both unsed weekly Metro Cards we still in it. At $30 each, $60, that's what was going to hurt me. So, that day my brother called me while at work saying some guy found it. I called this guy and he said he would drop it off at his job. All I had with cash on me was one dollar, so I walked from 70th Street to 36th Street.got to his job, and the people there knew nothing of it, they were real nasty too. Probably too me as a tourist and tried to blow me off. Spoke with the guy on the phone who found it. Yesterday we met up and he returned it. My rule of thumb. You return any lost property of mines within a giving time period, 24 hours, I give you something. Well he blew that. Both Metro Cards, unsed, were still in my wallet. So know I have 4 cards.