Some Thoughts

I just finished reading this book by Daniel H. Wilson, Roboapalasype. It had me thinking about a lot of shit through out the whole book. Thoughts on how almost everything we depend on today has a computer chip embedded in it. So what happens when a computer designed by man, gets tired, and decides to learn. Not only learn, but gets all those computer chips world wide into thinking how 'he' does. Some scary shit, really think about that.

I can't begin on how to feel what it feels like to lose some one because of death. To me death is a release, a time to let go and move on. Moving on to what, I don't know. But, it has to be better than the world we live in now. I'm not saying that I can't wait to die, but I am not afraidof death. But for those who have faced death of a loved one, all I can say is that that person is in a much better place. But what becomes of that perosn who is still walking around, say the oppiste sex, a female. If their relationship was of marriage... I don't know what to really say. It isn't easy to just 'move on', because that person played a major role in their life. But we do have to move on though. I don't know of any standard waiting period, but... for a female it may be difficult to do so. Okay it has been 3 years since her husband has died. She told me not to say things she wants to hear, but things she needd to hear. So I did. Made her cry too. Didn't mean to, but I don't hold back when I speak and a person gives me the freedom to do so. She isn't ready for a relationship, all she needs is a warm body, some one she can trust. Some one she can at least start over, if not with, but from. No one on the face of this planet is our 'dream person', we find fault in everything. No matter what it is. She is driving down to the city to see me, and to talk with me in person.

Told a co worker that she reminded me of Laura Croft. Not in face, but the way she was dressed. She was surprised that I said that. Even though she didn't express it verbally, it showed on her face. She's a quiet person, but for that split second when I looked at her, that's who she reminded me of.

I have to find me a hoodie, something not too stylish, warm and comfortable. That and a pair of snearkers for the winter and a pair of boots. I keep putting it off, don't know why either. Not lazy, but buying something and once you take the tags off, its final. Just don't want to make a bad decision.