Yeah Yeah, I know

...I haven't posted something in a while. Its not like I didn't wanted to, it 1was just...shit still stays the same.
I've come to the conclusion..really, a realization, that I am forever to stay... One, single. Two, without children. And three, always won't, and can't understand what goes on in a woman's head.
Being single has its good and bad times. Bad times..staying constantly being horny all the time. For those times I do have sex, which are rare, the woman, she must think I'm a Porn Star or something. The good times are just doing and going wherever I wanth to go. On occassions, I would just pick any cafe downtown in Manhattan, armed with $25 to spend on buying food there. Its a trade for using the internet doing nothing. I can't download what I want...no not porn..well sometimes. I m talking about movies & music. It seems some cafes put blocks on torrent websites. I have a MiFi device, my own internet, but why waste my data plan. I sit there, newspapers, magazines ebook reader...and just chill with headphones on. Mostly people watching..female watching.
Its easy to strike up convo, always soe female is hagving a problem with her laptop. Its not like that's what I look for, its what I went to school for and enjoy doing. Helping, repairing laptops...I like that shit. Females say their looking for their 'special' type of man, well I'm looking for that 'special' type of woman. Not old, yet not young. Can hold a conversation where no topic is off limits. Funny, but serious. Doesn't have to make me work for her affection. There are some out there and met them, but they're like 4 leaf clovers, you have to look really hard.
Found one, Spanish. No longer married and looking but afraid to start over. 41 years old. Sat and talk for 4 hours, went to movies, walked her home and she cooked dinner. She invited me back to her apartment the next day. Said she had to tell me something. Her ex husband lives with her. He has a girlfriend, so its cool between her & I, he wants to meet me. He did, came and left. One bedroom apartment, so I asked where does he sleeps. IN the SAME BED as HER!!!!!!!!! I had to ask her were they having sex, she CLAIMS no, but you should see her face and body. Told her within 5 minutes its been nice.
I'm not stupid. I may look it, that's a different story. I guess if she would have just came right out with her living and sleeping arrangements, I guess I would've had a different reaction.