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What?!! Have I grown feelings as I got older? No I don't think so.

To me sex is just sex. I don't consider or relate Love with Sex. That's why I can't see holding off from having sex until you're married. That makes no sense to me. There's another thing too...

Because I have sex with her, doesn't mean I want to be in a relationship with her. Take this woman now that I'm talking to, not fir a relationship, but to just for sex. 

From what I've been told, she is a Racist. To me I don't see it, nor feel it. I just all of a sudden started talking with her in a min verbal way. It's the kind of way Grown Folks do. Then one day she took out her notebook while we were talking, wrote something in it and teared it out and handed it to me. She said text me any and all the time. So I did.

Things started getting hit and heavy on her part sexual wise. But she told me that it's been o long since she was or has been held in a mans5 arms that she wants to feel that again. Though she has never been with a Black man before, she said she is up for it. But there is an issue on my part with her, she is loud.

Okay loud isn't the word, she is Country Loud..Hee Haw Loud...Backwoods of Tennessee Type of Loud. Her voice annoys the fuck out of me. I'm quite sure somewhere on this plane t my voice does too..but damn, sometimes I wish she would shut the fuck up. I'm sorry, bit it's true. Then there's..The PDA.

I don't like drawing attention to myself here, and that's kind of hard not to do. I really try to blend in, but that ain't happening. So, if I'm sitting at a wooden table outside all alone with others around me..and she comes walking along and 'bee hives' straight to where I'm sitting, people notice. Already certain people have asked me what is going on between the two of us. I tell them nothing is going on other than talking. One person who is my age, a woman gave me that look of I KNOW what talking is IS, don't play that shit with me.

I'm too damn old to be running to a hotel/motel with a 38 year old too regardless of color. If it were left up to me, I would take her in the woods at night. In fact, I may try to do that. I mean it's different and she will remember that and me fir the rest of her life.