One Thing I Never Did Was...

...ever felt sorry for myself. I really thought about this. I did the best I could from memory, thinking back...way back. And I can honestly say, I never felt sorry for myself.

The reason why I never did was because out if all the situation that didn't go my way, or didn't go as planned.. It all fell on me. It was my decision, my choice to make and sometimes, not all the time, it was a bad decision. When people tell me about the things their about to do, I place myself in their shoes in my head. 

I would think about what I know of that person, and figure out in my head what I would do. These people tell me what they are about to do and the issue with that is that they are going by what someone else in a better situation would do. They figure well if they can do, so can I. No you can't.

Like there are two young women I know who are opposite sides of a coin so to speak. One thinks she is 'all of that's in a sense that she's putting herself out there in a way...that isn't right for a mother of two young children. I question her because I know somewhat of what she is doing and trying to do. The way she is going about it is all wrong. She has someone else handling it for her and what she does, she has to pay him because of..well, he knows how to do what she wants to do. But he is going about it all wrong also, he doesn't know shit. I tried to explain it to her, but she didn't listen. Asked me what do I know about things like shes doing, so I told her. She wants me to 'handle' her, but I old her straight up I don't have the time for the bullshit.

This other woman.. Well she is on the ladder if bigger and better things but.. Being that she is 19 years old, not father figure and not so sure if herself.. she is going to waste away, fall into the cracks of life. I had a long talk with her with her mother present. Told her what moves she should make on her career. She does t know that what she is doing now is the first step of getting to something much bigger. Because at such a young age she has been given the opportunity to lead instead of following someone. But all she seems is a name brand and the small space she is in..and thinks it will lead to nowhere. I told her people who have made it big come from small towns such as yours. Just be patient, that's all it takes.

Gotta go. I'm getting some much needed sleep tonight this time for sure.