Since You've Been Gone..

I know right? This fucking guy, he post and then..WTF?!!

I kept telling myself in the part that having sex with a woman who is nearly half my age isn't it wasn't good for me. I had my health to think about..so I thought. Kept telling myself that and young woman would have far too much energy and would probably put me in the hospital. Or, that I wouldn't live up to her or even my own expectations. Cough, cough BULLSHIT. FELLAS, get yourself a nice young woman who hasn't been out there and who has a decent head in her shoulders. Yeah, some mornings after may be rough in you/me..but it's worth those sore and aching bones.

Some if the things that's been going on the past couple of days, maybe a week and a half.

Work..my job. I Love it! It's fast paced, always something to do and it's different every single day. But what throws me off is..the different 'things' and what people go thru when they are not at work but bring that shit to the job. Work is supposed to be to me..work is where you do what you do best and get paid for it. New hires, plenty of them too. Was thrown off by Management telling me to train someone. Haven't done that in years. Thankfully this person has experience and knew how to, but just needed about 45 minutes if knowing the product. Then was given a 16 year old who had more underlying issues that didn't come out during the interview. I almost lost my shit on them. More on that later.

I've been here at this shelter for a little over 90 days. Not getting restless or anything like that..but not feeling comfortable either. I'm allowed to take a shower after work though the dorms are closed. I have a friend who gives me her key to her place, a 20 minute walk away. I go there to relax when she isnt home. I thought I would cook more often there, but it's her place and I don't want to do that. The ONLY issue I'm having is that the supermarket is so far away. I'm tired and though it's walking distance, there are hills to climb. I shos say fight because they are steep as fuck. But I think I can set a routine that on my day off that I go shopping for real food. Have to wait and see.

Living here in this shelter has been something else. I try not to let anyone use.my cell phone. But this one guy left his in a car he was in and shit ent down hill from there. He accused me of something..then he accuse someone else if something..when it turned out it was HiM along.A 66 year old man, who is now not talking to me. Like I give a Fuck. His 'girlfriend' is a married woman who has already been sendi g me text trying to find him because he blocked her. He has lied on me to her about shit. But his girlfriend knows what the truth is and decided not to even get into it with him about his lying. The way I see it, she just uses him for his monthly check.

Made a promise to myself that every Sunday I will read this town's Sunday newspaper. So I'm off to go buy it..a 3 block walk away.