I Am, Therefore I....

Its taken almost 53 years to get to the point that I am at now. I didn't do this all by myself, but I played a major part in it.

Friday after work, I headed out to Long Island. At almost this time last year I met her. The year went by, and she reachedout to me again. But this time she understood where I was coming from and she said she didn't understand why last year she didn't. I told her cause she had already in her head had made up how she wanted us to be and she didn't or wouldn't stand for less. I guess being lonely and having so much love to offer, changes your way of thinking.

She is till working 2 jobs, so I was left by myself I thought in her home...no. she said she wanted me to drive her to work, take the car and she would text me to come pick her up after work. So, what was I to do for 8 hours. I drove around and found a couple of places I could hang out.

I enjoy being some place I know nothing about and the people can tell that I wasn't from around there too. I feel comfortable going anywhere and everywhere. First stop was to get a haircut, found a Black barber shop, 7 chairs. I wanted the older guy with the yellow shirt on and tie to do my hair, but a Spanish guy motioned me to his chair. Quick cut. They all knew I wasn't from around here too, the way I dress. Black boots, jeans, NOT hanging off my ass, long underwear shirt on, distressed NY Yankees baseball cap on, grey hood and a $220 dollar Columbia Jacket on. The inside is all shiny, keeps 20% of body heat in and vents out mositure. Talk in the shop, about some guy locked up upstate, family, getting beat down about 'slot time', the phone. Funny thing is, its his 'homies' doing the beat down. Those aren't homies. My barber asked me what do I think, my answer would determine how they took me in, so...

Fuck it, stop using the phone, write letters instead. Ask for people to send you magazines, like the back issues here in the babrbershop. He stars getting 20 of those every week, people will repsect him knowing that people on the outside care about his mental state.hLike I said, fuck using a phone. They got 'mad' back issues of about 5, 6 different magazines in the barbershop, start sending those. Haircut over. Went to a karate school and watched them praticed, lunch, then back to her place and wait for her to call.