Impressions

It's funny...I laugh at it though. Some people may get the wrong impression of me, they refuse to ask. Ask what I am really about. Its simple, one word....FUN !! Some may say how can a almost 53 year old man even have that word in his vocabulary. To me its the most important word in the human language. Others may say the word responsibility is more important, I don't think so. After responsibility...FUN !! Nope, fun first then responsibility.

My concept is that life, everyday life isn't all that complicated. Its like this, you live..then you die. All that space, and all that time between the two...that's what is important. Are you that type of person who wants to leave their mark on the world? It has already happened, it was when you applied for your Social Security Card, thats your mark, it's all tied backed to you.

Impressions. All the confusion I have already worked out in my head, and I know what I have to do..need to do. I will do them when I see fit too. I'm not letting anyone dictate what I have, want nor need to do. I say this because...like I said some have the wrong impression of me, about me. I could care less, you, they... don't feed, clothe or house me. I'm not angry at anyone. Some are taking the time to learn what I am about. They are getting off that treadmill and are forced to ask those questions. You know the questions. The ones that as a person you have always wanted to ask, but were afraid to.It took her 5 minutes to make up her mind and I knew something was up when she was standing there waiting. Normally she is gone when I leave. All she said was walk with me home.

Even though there are hundreds of people standing around like little robots...you may think they aren't listening to your conversation, but if you are like me, you could care less. When she ask those questions and I gave my answers, I looked up and around to see the expressions on those faces that were listening. Blank stares, but the eyes don't lie. She came out and told me that for the 27 years she has been working there, she lead people to believe that she was married. She isn't. I asked, so why mislead people into believing so, she said she didn't know. An hour and a half traveling to her home...all along she saying she has never did anything like this before, invited a man into her house. I whispered in her ear that she should take advantage of me, use me as she feels fit. Silence

Snow storm, and I ave to get home to my mother, so I can't spend the night. Its in the eyes again. I made a call to moms, let her know everything is okay and I will be home late. Was asked why I don't have a girlfriend for the millionth time...cause I just don't, that's all. People want you to take the first step, turn on the faucet, let things flow, but they won't start until you start first. I explained all this in a matter of seconds, don't turn on the faucet unless, you have something to catch all of it in, and that you do know when to turn it off. Was told that she doesn't even know if there is anything in the faucet...there was.

Will see on Monday...the attitude...her actions toward me.