Again

I spent Christmas Eve &amp; Christmas Day with a friend of mine. It was all good until she went in to check on her patients. Then came home with liquor and 3 of her female co workers. That was my cue to leave.</p>
<p>On my way home I got a text from another female friend, she wished me Merry Christmas. Then went into that she misses me and that she was sorry she let me get away. It was what she wanted from me..something I couldn't give her. Marriage.</p>
<p>All she does is work, 2 jobs and spends little time at home between jobs. She met me, like what she was feeling being with me and wanted it for the rest of her life. I'm not for marriage...only if you were to have my child, yes then. But she wasn't capable of having children, she's 60 years old. You couldn't tell by looking at her, her and her body. She looks much younger.</p>
<p>Again she went into wanting me to move closer to her, finding a job out there near where she lives. I looked, applied and even had some calls. But I wasn't really all that into moving where she lives, you need a car. Plus, she works 2 jobs, what time will we spend together, it woluld be the same time if I stayed where I was at and come to her. She didn't understand this, so she broke it off with me. But she did something with that call yesterday.

It's like this. If you break off things; seeing me, its okay, I understand. I don't dislike you or anything, who knows, you might find time again for me to be in your life. But what she did...with this call to me, she kicked up the feelings I really had for her. Finds out I still do. I mean sex is a wonderful experience, it feels good. No one person is the same. What she did also was in the phone call said..no it want a call, it was texting. She said that it was me who broke things off, it was me who said I wasn't ready for a relationship. I wasn't ready for marriage is what I said.

Ut those feelings...the sex...nothing like I ever experienced with a woman. Maybe it was the 3 weeks she made me wait. Maybe it was during those 3 weeks, we slept in the same bed, no clothes, and just touched each other. I think that that what it was.

I'm reaching out to her again, this week. I have to.