Now I Know

Now I know what I want. It came to me as I was smoking a cigarette...a moment of clarity. WOW !! I know just who I am, this is amazing. It breaks it...I broke it down to this. I am a companion. Well what the fuck is that? Its like this, this is how I see myself.

I like beautiful women, the beauty in a woman; I judge, is not by only her looks. In fact looks doesn't even come into play. If the woman has herself together and is managing her everyday life with little to no problems hassles, she is perfect. If she wants a man in her life, but not all up under her...even better. If she wants to explore her sexual side of herself and have no problem; but is timid at first, even more better. But I will not be kept as a kept man. Not unless there are some ground rules.

One, I have to work, keep a job. If you want me to stay at home and take care of things, we have to establish what those things are. I'm not your maid, I won't cook and clean. Like you come home from work on your day off and you say, what? You were off and you didn't do this or you didn't so that'. 'How come you didn't do this or you didn't do that'. No, I won't be that person for you. You make a mess, you clean it up.

Two, you should already feel atractive about yourself, and you don't need me telling you. Not to say when you walk across the room if front of me..I will commnet and even slide up next to you and whisper all kinds of things in your ear.

Three, when I'm introduced, if that should happen to come up or be. Feel free to say and tell your friends, family just who I am. Your friend, your special friend, my companion..whatever. but feel comfortable in doing so. If they should ask for further information, that's up to you. They will come and ask me just who I am, depends on who is asking, I will answer accordily.

Four, I am in your life to bring or enhance what's already inside of you that is dying to come to the surface. You say, you already know who you are? True that. But others see you in a whole different light. I won't nick pick about what you do, cause what you do for you seems to be working out alright.

Five, you have kids, children or young adults..its okay. I& know they will look at me in a strange way, like who is this person with my mom. You don't have to explain anythibg to them, but you will. But don't distract away from how happy you are when we are together.

Six, please feel free to come and go, do whatever you want. Like I said, I am your companion.

I say all of this cause I met a woman who said in more or less words,h that she wants to do things and go places with me. She wasn't trying to, but she told me what all she has, a Time Share, nice home..already seen her nice car and was in it too. Told her no I don't drive, know how to, but I don't own that piece of paper anymore. Why waste my money every so oftwn for a piece of paper when I don't own a piece. Of metal that goes hand in hand with it. She says, well I hope you don't expect me to drive us everywhere. See ?

That's what I am, a companion. I'm no man whore, male slut. I am your friend who si sleeping with you, who enhances. Your happiness, who makes you smile on th inside.