I Know I Say Some Things That...

I can say some things that can have a person, male or female look at me strangly. You think I really give a flying Fuck? Nope, I don't. I don't and you don't live your life for others to like you. But if you're one of those that do, you're wasting your life. Up to a certain point, you live your life for the children you have; up to a certain point. But its okay if you extended that period also. This is coming from a man with no children.

So, when do you start having fun? Better yet, did your fun endibg days end when you became an adult. An adult who has responsibilites. Car payments, student loans, mortages..you know adult things. Add long your children that you have to look after, care for. To top it all off, you might be a single parent; which you enjoy, but its hard at times cause the father isn't in the picture. Or, he can and is in the picture, but let's face it, he can and IS an asshole. You're doing it all by yourself, the fun days are over. NO THE FUCK THEY AREN'T !!.

PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT !!! These are my opinions. We as human beings are strange. Shit I do, wierds people out I'm sure, but the things I see people do amazes me. Give me, give me, give me. Do for me cause if you want to be with me...that's what I need and want you to do. What ever happen to doing something cause it feels go to do, cause its fun. Like I said and willa always say, could care less what people say or think of me. I do what makes me happy. I feel that's what's stopping people from really being themselves. For example, do you really think a person wants to hear what you DON'T want? Speak on what you not want, but what you like. Again, not everyone is gonna like what you like..then move on.

I have 3 female friends. Lisa, whom I've know for like almost 15 years is a homebody. We use to be a couple and lived together as well. She found out that breaking up with me was best for her....which was okay with me. Funny thing is that we are still in contact with each other every day. I spend sometimes 3 weekends a month at her house. She found out that we can't be a couple, but I enjoy your company AND, sex is great with you for some strange ass reason.

Kim, I met Kim while I was in a Shelter. She stopped me on the street and started kicking it with me. Told me what she wanted, said I was lucky, she picked me. Some one to come over and scratch that itchevery so often. I can't spend no more that 2 hours with her, cause her voice drive me bonkers. But like she said, I was lucky, has a body and a butt you wouldn't believe. I actually feel honred to be in her presence. Sometimes when we set a 'meeting' up she changes at the last minute, cause work, overtime comes first before busting a big as nut for herself. Understanable.

Wanda. I knew Wanda when I was 14 years old. She had a crush on me. Fast forward many years, she reaches out thru facebook. We meet again, 2 days later we are like rabbits. She likes our meet ups, ask if I'm seeing anyone. ' say am I 'exclusive'? No, I am not, she doesn't ask any more questions. 2 grown children, one just got of out of prison, the other, younger 25, hard headed ass young man. Since they live under her roof now, she is worried about how they see her. She hasn't been with any man since their fathers, which she broke up with 15h years ago. She likes the hell out of my body, her words. How I look still the same after all these years, but I don't look like I'm over 50. Left up to her, she would fuck my brains out 24/7, her words. That's what happens when you don't have any penis for 'uber' years. Problem is, I state again, she cares about how her grown as kids see her; which I told her that they don't really care, as long as you're happy. I know this cause the oldest told me right out of the blue this. 'Hey old man, mom duke really likes you and she is happy as fuck, good looking out.' I tell her the kids are alright, do you, but she can't.

3 women, all different senerios. Meet number 4 2 weeks ago. Another process to go through, another 'grilling' to let her know it is all that deep, just do what makes you happy, not what you 'think' people expect of you. Like I said we will see. Again. Oh, she said last night and I quote...'I have to get something straight with you'. You know what that means and what her next sentence will be, right ?