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I was asked how come I download instead of just streaming. Well...

Though I have an internet wifi connection at home, lately I come to realize that I can't depend on it always being on. It goes out for a day or two. I paid my housemate $200, $20 a month for the rest of the year. We split the wifi bill 3 ways.

I rather download it and watch it when I want to. Of course I could still do that with streaming but I like having the movie file on hand. Right now I have about 61 days of movies and tv shows to watch. The only thing that can mess me up is the electrical grid going down forever.

I download, watch and then delete it and move on. I've watched ALL of The Jason Bourne series, James Bond and ALL episodes of the TV show Friends. I patted myself on the back for that one.

Then there are the movies that you would never hear anything about unless you read certain magazines. Those are movies that at some time or another slowly make their way to American movie theaters about 6 to 18 months later.

Then there are movies that I download that aren't out yet for at least 3 to 6 months. Like King Kong Vs Godzilla...I watched that back in late January...it had English subtitles but so what.

There's one movie that I want and I know it's out there on the net but.. The movie..Black Widow. I haven't seen a trailer or anything, I'm just dying to watch it for some strange reason.

NASA

So tom9, June 1st NASA is 'suppose' to make an announcement about UFO's and or Aliens. I was just wondering...

Are they going to tell us that Alien life does exist..DUH?! Or they have back engineered what we have been seeing all this time just to deceive us. Who knows, but I know one thing though.

If we as Humans were told that there isn't no such thing as God, people will lose their shit. For one, the Vatican will no longer exist. The Church as we know it will collapse. Think about it for a minute. There is no such thing as a God. WHAT?!! So what have we been praying to? Who the fuck knows, but God..no God. Carry on. Or...

There WAS life on Mars like in Earth but..shit got all fucked up and 'they' disappeared because they didn't or couldn't take care or looked out for the planet. That senerio won't happen for the simple fact that this planet Earth has destroyed itself a couple of times and it's still here.

I'm looking forward to what NASA has to say. But then again they might tell us something we already know.

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WTF? West Harlem? Is there a place called West Harlem? I'm only asking because I read that they are opening up a market..'Uptown Night Market' in West Harlem. Runs every second Thursday of each month starting July 8th  until November 11th. 138th Street & 12th Ave. Hmmm?

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Now we are engaged in a great civil war, testing whether that nation, or any nation so conceived and so dedicated, can long endure. We are met on a great battle-field of that war. We have come to dedicate a portion of that field, as a final resting place for those who here gave their lives that that nation might live. It is altogether fitting and proper that we should do this.

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Just now got around to watching Elon Musk host Saturday Night Live... And I thought I was weird.

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 I know it's not all women who are like this but..

How come some women expect a man to keep them entertained? Not only that, the woman wants a man to be consistent at all times.  One woman told me that I would have to text her throughout the day, talk with her on the phone and have plans made for going out. I told her that I wasn't doing all of that, all I want to do is have sex with you...and then we see where it goes.

What I really think the issue is that some women have been used by some men so many times, that now they are placing demands on men. I try and tell these women that they don't want their man all up under them all the time. I tell the ones with children... You making on these demands on me and maybe other men...how come you didn't do that with your children's fathers? But I see why after spending an hour with these women, I really see why.

These are the same women who sit around with other women drinking and playing Spades talking shit. I was asked who are my friends and do I hang out with them. I hang out with no one, I don't hang out. I go some where with a purpose...do what I have to do and I'm out. I don't waste what little time I have doing nothing. And, if I'm going to do nothing..I do it alone.

Its not that I don't trust my friends, I don't trust what they do when I'm not around them...so I don't go around them. If they want to meet up somewhere, I pick the place. One guy said he wanted to meet up and talk about the old times and to come to the old neighborhood. I said for what, I don't know anyone around there anymore and I don't want to always be on my guard for the stupid ones. I told him to meet me at a spot on 42nd Street, IN the train station and he tells me he doesn't go 'down there'. Well, I guess I won't see your ass then, end of story.

I was suppose to pick up a mountain bike out on Long Island today. An organization gives bike to Veterans. But I didn't feel like trudging on the LIRR and then on the subway with a bike in this gloomy ass weather, so I called them and told them next Friday I will be there to pick it up.

I don't mind the rain but when it's cold/chilly AND raining...keep my ass home.

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 I made lunch for her and afterwards she tells me when I went home, in a text... 'That lunch was so damn good, got me all wet and shit. I almost came out of my panties just for you. Are you Gay? ' I responded...'Lunch was on me, you should know what to do next...invite me over for dinner.' I haven't heard anything back from her yet. Only goes to show you.

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 For the record... YOU can pay $29.95 for a BASIC hamburger if you want to. But don't expect me to BUY one for you. Have you lost ALL parts of your fucking mind?!! IF I pay that much for a burger, it better come with a lap dance AND a hand job, fuck that. Then you tell me I don't know what 'Fine' eating is. WTF?!! It's a damn hamburger. I bet your parents also paid for a Pet Rock for you when you were young. 

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 I don't know why he moved to West Virginia. The minimum wage there is $8.75 an hour. I know work is work but... You're from NYC Homes and working in Food Service here is completely different.  But he went down there for the White women. I told him...don't let those White women get you run out of town, you have to run FAR to get back here to NYC. As long as he is happy.

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 I am part of the Study of Oxford-AstraZeneca, my second injection was back in January. I was told that they needed my permission to release my findings so that they could go 'Unblinded', report their finding to The FDA. I agreed.

Since they are going Unblinded, I can now get one of the three vaccines that are out there. Even though during The Study the vaccine I got IS the vaccine, it just hasn't been approved yet for 'Human Consumption' I guess.  I went two blocks from where I live to get the Moderna Vaccine.

I went at 9am and was told to come back at 11:30 because they had to give it some time to unthaw. What, it freezes? Came back and filled out some paperwork and was asked did I have Health Insurance. I told them yes, I am a Veteran and I get it through the Veterans Administration. Here is where I LOSE my shit.

The woman behind the counter is of Indian decent, I can tell by the way she TRIED to talk down to me. She said that she didn't know what the VA 'mess' is all about...in her nasty ass tone of voice, so I schooled her. I told her...

'I take it that you were not BORN in this country, you immigrated here. Apparently where you are from and live at the conditions there were not to you liking and always had your eyes on America, your dreams were to live here and prosper. A Veteran is a person who risks his or her life TO DEFEND this country in times of need. The Holiday that is coming on Monday is dedicated to those who GAVE their LIVES fighting for THIS country. The SAME country you got permission to come to so that your life could AND CAN be MUCH better from where you came from. So...'that mess' you say you know nothing about...well, you're looking at THAT mess that allowed you to set up and run your business and make ALL this money, so you should be thanking me and others who severed and fought for this country. YOU'RE WELCOME!!'

There were two other customers standing behind me and they both said thank you for your service.

With all this Asian Hate going around...you may wonder why it's happening. I KNOW why. See, out of eye and ear shot no one sees how nasty some of them can be. But when a person has enough of being looked down upon by someone who wasn't even born in this country..well, some people snapped. I would never turn to violence because of a way a person treats me or what they say to me. I would and will come right THE FUCK BACK AT YOU WITH FACTS!! Put you in your motherfucking place and tell you about your motherfucking self and where you came from. Another thing...

With all these mass shootings and killings... Again, crazy people do NOT kill themselves. They are crazy and will kill others but not themselves. Besides, it takes a strong willed person to kill themselves and crazy people aren't strong willed. We all know right from wrong and you know when the system is treating someone wrong. That same system, which ARE people don't give a fuck about the people working under them. The same people who are paying money so that their stock prices go up and the Board Members make millions. But those Board Members will leave it to you to put out what they say goes.. And who do you think those shooters take it out on? Thats right, the ones who were told to state what the rules are. I think people are keeping quiet about what really happened, what really went on with these mass shootings. It gets lost in all the confusion because lives are lost but... But if you really dig deep you'll find the answers to why that person(s) did all that shooting and killing. For now, it's because they SNAPPED and couldn't take any more of the bullshit handed down to them.

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I figured out what happened to 7 large bath towels...

I went to the laundromat about two weeks ago to wash them. I had to go to the bathroom, but the bathroom was out of order. So, I ran home to use my own and..SPACED THE FUCK OUT!! It happens, but not often.  Forgot all about them in the wash/

Yesterday I washed clothes and the attendant, a cute Mexican woman who I have a thing for told me I left them here in the machine and she had no way of contacting me. Gave me my towels and her telephone number. 

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 It's a damn shame that a person has to keep their head on swivel when riding NYC's subway. It's all bad that as a Black man I feel much safer when the train I am on is in a White part of the city. Though shit can still happen, more or less it doesn't. But when that train pulls South of 125th Street, I can somewhat breathe a sigh of relief. But when the train pulls North into 125th Street...it's a damn shame that I have to get into Combat Mode.

On the L train, one of those subway car dancers had the nerve to ask the White man sitting next to me for $5. And when the man pulled off his headphones and said no.. The subway dancer got angry. Dude, you REALLY need to take a look around in the car you are in. I counted 3 other Black people and not one of them, including me would have came to your defense if you were to have got ugly with that White man.

Speaking of Subway Car Dancers... Listen, I can understand that THAT is your hustle and shit but.. But some of ya'll, the ones I constantly see are so damn grimy and dirty. NO!! No, I am NOT getting you not one red cent out of my pocket. I'm on my feet 9, 10 hours a shift and you're running from car to car with a dirty ass baseball cap asking for money for something that The MTA does NOT want you doing.

A Couple of Points...Need (?) to Be Made

 IF as a young kid I acted up in public...and this was left up to my mother what 'acting up'was... If I acted up in public not only would I get a beat down right then and there, when she told my Aunt(s), I would also get a smack or two when she relayed the story to them. AND, I could and WOULD get a smack or two from my Aunt(s). 

Mothers, when you children bug the fuck out in public like ON the FUCKING TRAIN, that shit isn't cute. Control your beasts!! In your home, on your block..it;s okay I think but.. When you bring them out in public, we don't want to see the stupid shit they do and what they say. Also.. Your 16 year old son ISN'T a GROWN ass man. You should tell him this often. Because when he THINKS he's a grown man, and he does kid shit, a GROWN ass man will confront him and knock him the fuck out. You as the mother may think it's cute that he's stepping up as the father figure because his father stepped the fuck off but... When he THINKS he is defending your honor and takes the first swing at a grown man..well, it would be a pretty picture...for him. THEN you are the first one to scream he is only a kid.

Ladies... When a man invites you and ONLY you out to a place like an art opening... Don't invite your girlfriends who are like 15 years younger than you. ONE, they don't know how to act. Yes, you were embarrassed on how they act. And yes they have been this way all along. It just took you to see how they act around people who KNOW how to act. And, if they aren't of legal age to drink, WHY are they asking ME to buy either a bottle of liquor or a beer for them. On your block the corner bodega just let anyone buy beer, but MOST places will card you, so don't get upset and curse the store worker out.  I understand you being quiet on the ride home too. It took you to see who you really hang out with and what you and they do..it's NOT normal. Chalk it up as a growing experience.

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Today at work we had a 90 minute Zoom meeting on White Privilege which left me scratching my head.

They asked about what we earned and what we unearned. I said i unearned being born in The United States, aans I earned free . medical and burial courtesy of The United States Army. Then..shit got totally confusing for me.

White Privilege and White Supremacy..WTF? I wanted to tell at the gia t screen TV..'Why must I acknowledge this bullshit! Listen, if a White person tries and act superior to me, or ANY person,no matter what color..oh,they are in for a wild ride. I didn't understand why this what ought up,why are we talking about this? To me, it only goes to show what strongholds ' They' are supposedly have over you.

Another issue. I am NOT a person of color. I am Black. Oi see it as it is, for being politically correct about MY color.

All in all, I learned nothing from this So meeting.

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 Texas is doing the SMART thing... Allowing people to carry hand guns without a permit.

Allowing people to carry without a permit can work out two ways. One.. Some people will think twice about fucking with you not knowing you might be holding. On the other hand... Carrying with out a permit places more guns on the streets...which MIGHT cause a rise in crime. Some people might just think it will be easier to settle a beef if the beef no longer existed, hence shooting and killing them.

Well, lets see what happens in Texas with this one.

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 About 5, 6 years ago 1TB External Hard Drive cost about $99. Today... A 5TB External Hard Drive goes for the same $99. So I purchased 2. Freed up about 200GB of movies, tv shows, books and magazines. NO PORN...honest.

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 https://youtu.be/rgYJjCgZoJA

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Meagen Fox & Machine Gun Kelly? Yeah THAT Meagen Fox from the Transformers. Go figure.

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 I dislike being like this... I usually SAY what's on my mind to people, especially women. I don't be disrespectful..no, nothing like that. I just tell them what I see in them...me & you..together.

All of a sudden the world NOW and JUST SEEING that people, ALL people have feelings. In the pass some people just didn't give a fuck about how the other person felt and feels. NOW, out of the blue..'WAIT, people DO have feelings!!' 

I care about how I come across to people, but I'm not changing because what comes out of my mouth hurts YOUR FUCKING FEELINGS!! But it's not about feelings, it's about people having THEIR OWN OPINIONS. Take for example... A woman will say she isn't into playing games, they all say this but.. But what is the game you're trying to play here? MY opinion does NOT matter to you but I'm suppose to care about yours and catering to them? NO!!

So...from now on I'm going to speak my mind, which I already do, and not worry about your feelings or your opinions.

 

NYC's Subways

To be honest, I was around during the 70's and I don't think the subways were as bad as they are today. Maybe because I was young back then and it didn't matter to me but today...it's like a War Zone riding the trains here.

I was in the first car, two Police Officers got on at the next stop, round one stop and got off. And wouldn't you know it as the train started pulling out of the station, in walks a guy, shirtless from the next car.

He begins to pull empty beer cans from his pockets and starts crushing them by stomping on them. About 6 cans, deep ass pockets. Then he demands that we, the passengers in this car PAY him 5 cents, 30 cents for the 6 cans he wants 5 cents for each can he is returning. He said he doesn't have the time to take them to a supermarket,he will begin to accept payment now. Someone in the car gave him a dollar and he got off the next stop.

At the station that I switch trains at, a man got smashed across his face. He got into an argument with another man and the other man..well, took things a bit further.

I'm.not going to agree with anyone while riding the trains. People have no respect for Human Life and will throw you infront of a moving train entering the station.

#NowPlaying...

'Boiler', By Limp Bizkit

Meanwhile in The News: New Coronavirus Lingers in Penis and Could Cause Impotence.

https://consumer.healthday.com/5-13-new-coronavirus-lingers-in-penis-could-help-cause-impotence-2652949719.html

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 Not for nothing...

Some women will question a man's sexuality, on him being Gay or not but... The MEN who are flamboyantly Gay...they say NOTHING NOT A WORD to them about their sexuality.

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 Yesterday as I stepped out the front doors of where I work, I press 'play' on my headphones and nothing happened. OH FUCK!!

I waited until I was in the train station, underground, to check out my Kindle to see what is what. When I looked at it, it told me to connect to a wireless network to BEGIN SETUP...DOUBLE, no...TRIPLE FUCKS!! So I rode the train listening to all the bullshit going on around me, not being able to block those Fuckers out.

All during my train ride, I'm trouble shooting what could be the problem and what I can do once I get in the house to connect to MY wireless network. It was the second thing I did once I got into my room, connect to my network. First thing was to take my shoes off, feet were BARKING, my 'dogs' were howling like a motherfucker.

Turns out... I accidentally hit something on my Kindle that wanted to connect Alexa to something or another. With a few taps I was back to my Home Screen... All music saved..all magazines saved and also all books saved.

Technology is a Bitch. Just when every thing seems to be working right and then...

#Niwplaying...

'Sweet Dreams', By Marilyn Manson

#Nowplaying...

'Away From Me', Puddle of Nudd

#Nowplaying...

'Hiw You Remind Me', By Nickelback

#Nowplaying...

'Toxicity', By System of a Down

#Nowplaying...

'Thiughtless', By KoRn

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I wonder why some people don't like the band 'Nickelback' Me for one, I like their music...but then again it doesn't take much to make me happy.

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I want to be able to do this on my computer first thing in the morning.

Donloa5 music fromma website and if the music isn't in mp3 format, convert it to it and then normalize, make all mp3 files the same volume. As of now I can't do this, it's one step at a time. But I'm sure my laptop can do it. I guess it's what you call Programming. I wonder though. All these steps I have to go thru, but it should be normal a simple thing to do in this day and age.

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I don't know how people do it's..but then again.. 

How can some people first thing in the morning smoke weed. I mean when I use to smoke, I would always go home a short time later to chill out. I can't see working or doing anything while high as duck. But no, people who smoke have no issues in doing so.

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I was offered and went to look at a room that's 15 minutes from where I work at. The price they are asking, two women is $285.00 a month. What they said is that it covers the basic staples for food in the house, anything else, they come out of their pockets for. The ONLY issue is... Both of them are Night Owls, go to bed at around 5, 6 am... Up at 6pm. Which means they might be a little too noisy for my taste, but they both said they are quiet. 

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...besides, they mother, his wife will get a large sum of his net worth and even part of his stocks.

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Bill Gates has 3 children... Neither one of them should EVER need to actually hold cash money in their hands for the rest of their lives. If they have children, Bill Gates should leave at least 10 to 20 million in his grandkids name. If he does before any of his kids have kids...oh well, they are shit out of luck.

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Her job didn't furlough her like it did half of it's work force, they kept her on as long as they could and then they fired her. This allowed her to collect unemployment, but..

But everyone else was too because of this Pandemic. To her it was all giggles and laughs back then when those checks rolled in. Then the Government extended unemployment benefits..more laughter. Then the shit hit the fan.

I get a call from her a little while ago wanting some information. It seems her job called her back to work 2 weeks ago and asked did she want her position back with a slight pay raise. She figured since these unemployment benefits are set until September, she told them no and that to give her until September and then she will come back. Well.. She told me her check did t get deposited into her account from unemployment...and wanted to know why it's not there.

I told her as far as I know three people contribute to unemployment. You,your job and the State...I could be wrong, but that's what I was told. Apparently your job got in touch with unemployment and told them you refuse to work. Since your job pays one third.. Unemployment cut you off. But hold on.

I don't know what the deal is because we are in a Pandemic. Differe t rules apply and I don't work for the people 2ho hand out unemployment money. 

I told her she should try and get her job back. First thing Monday morning go down to your Supervisor and ASK for your job back. If he says no, reapply and see what happens.

Zombies...

 Scrolling thru my timeline of FB and I came across this...

https://blogs.cdc.gov/publichealthmatters/2011/05/preparedness-101-zombie-apocalypse/

It's on the CDC website, so is it real? Should we be concerned? I look at it like this.. The CDC KNOWS about something but can't really SAY anything about what they know. Okay, that's cool with me. So what they do, tongue in cheek wise is...they make a joke about it. The CDC can laugh all the fuck they want to. I believe that Zombies ARE real.

It's not like I go out at night or even during the day and search for them. It's really not that many of them around to tell you the truth. And like with anything else in life/death, they have learn to adapt to everyday living...well, here in NYC they have.

Take for instance the crime rate on NYC subway system.  I believe a little more than what those, they Powers That Be are NOT telling us. But then again I could be wrong.

Thought I would have a nice restful quiet day at home this evening but... One of my friends is leaving NYC for VA and he wants to get together to talk a bit before he leaves. I'm not trying to hear any bullshit from him. He could have just texted me, called me or even emailed me...but no, he wants to meet face to face. That means going outside when I don't REALLY have to. I'm going, but I'm giving him an hour tops.

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 I don't have any children, though I did want when I was younger.

I'm trying to understand why a woman will have a child, and then NOT want the father to be around. They breakup before the child is even born. I don;t care what he said, was suppose have done, cheated on you...whatever. THAT man NEEDS to be in your child's life. I think it's VERY unfair to the child. That child has no say so in being in this world. The TWO of you CREATED her/him, the TWO of you SHOULD and NEED to bring that child up.

I knew it was going to happen. Her daughter was 14 years old and she allowed her to dress that way, thinking that it's cute. 15, 16 years old and dating 22, 25 year old MEN...what did you THINK was going to happen. All along your daughter is still sleeping under your roof and saying that she is grown and she can make her own decisions. 17 years old and she became pregnant...and when you asked her who and where is the father, she actually told you that she didn't know...didn't know WHO the father was so... So you made up lies about this so called MAN. That he was a trouble maker (?), or, he is in jail, or that he is a bum and he has children all over the place. The lies you TELL US...KNOWING all along the REAL TRUTH!!

Ladies why do some of ya'll complain about men approaching you the right way and most times the wrong way when YOU chose to dress the way you do. Sure, you can dress any way you want to, it's your decision and choice but.. But when the pants you wear leaves VERY little to the imagination...and the blouse you wear does VERY little to cover up your breast...it's like advertising, putting the word out. Then complain that you wish these men would leave you alone. NO YOU DON'T!! You like the attention, or/and you like turning men away. It's one or the other.

I saw a Poll asking does Porn or Instagram make us men look/feel/act towards women differently. They wanted feedback. Porn is 'Fluffer', it's like Foreplay. Instagram is Soft Porn. Neither of the two makes me act differently towards women. Porn..is the same moves over and over, just the Players change. Instagram is soft porn that leads up to Fans Only Pages...which sometimes lead to Porn. I know a couple of women who have Only Fans pages and they told me to come and visit their sites. I said why? Am I going to actually sleep with you in the long run somewhere along the line? They told me no, you can see me naked. I told them, well there is FREE porn websites for that, no thanks. I told each and every one of them... Sooner or later you WILL be sleeping with some man for money, it's just that the right ones haven't offered you enough yet.

Gotta clear my hard drive... Have to watch tv shows and movies to free up some space or.. Or, I should go ahead and get 2 5TB external Hard Drives. Maybe next Saturday.

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On my train ride home... People are so damn quick to scoot away from you if you're standing to close to them. I will let you in on a little secret.

This virus and ALL it's mutations are AIR FUCKING BOURNE!! That's right, it travels on the air we breathe. For how long, that is to be determined. But I know one thing... 

Over the years Doctors have been prescribing all kinds of antibiotics, man made ones. When in reality, your body, if you take care of it, will fight off damn near anything. If you have been taking these antibiotics all your life, your body does t know how to fight ahit off. Plain and simple.

I don't even take aspirin..fuck that, Iet my body fight it off. To be totally honest, I probably had the virus and thought nothing of it. So what, I was sick, chills, sweats..just let my body do it's thing. So..some 50 cent blue mask is going to fight off this virus? I don't think so.

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...and I was just thinking about that too. Job posted a memo, White Privilege, a workshop. 

This is how I feel about the subject.. ' I'm privileged also', end of story. There are services offered to and for me that not just anyone can apply for or get. One like.. I can't remember when the last time I actually had to pay a cell phone bill. Because I make a certain amount of money, which WAS NONE, I applied for and got a free cell phone. But come my recertification I guess..but wait.. I think as long as I eec8 SNAP benefits, I'm good. Also I have wifi at home and at work. I have no issues using Google Talk either. I have a number for the longest time.

This White Privilege thingy doesn't bother me none. As far as I'm concerned my quality of life is okay. I eat and sleep with a roof over my head...for now that is. As soon as this eveiction thing is over with..I will  E along with MILLIONS without a home, but that doesn't bother me either. NYac does more and Will do more for the homeless with this Pandemic contining, so I just have to be patient.

There are other things that make me feel privileged, way too many to say, probably in the future I will.

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Wow!! Just found $75 in my wallet between debit and business cards. I wonder what it was placed there for. For real..was I suppose to do something with this money?

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I honestly wish I could fall in Love with a woman who has money or cam from money. Like, her parents are wealthy as duck, she doesn't have to work and all her parents wants her to be in Love with ME!!

I said this to a friend and she said that all i want is hrr money. I said no, I will be in Love with her...but it would be nice that she has/came from money as a bonus. All of us wish that at one time or another. It would be nice not to work anymore, worry about anything and travel the world. Even staying home would be nice with no traveling involved. It takes a lot to get up every damn day and earn a living. To just stay home and do nothing suits me fine...WITH MONEY.

Office Politics is a pain in the ass. When two females don't like each other in other departments and I have to work with both of them...my brain can only take so much from either one of them. One feels she is privileged and the other just..I don't know, just doesn't care one way or another. Of course with me being me, I say what I feel and I also listen. Both think that they are experts in what they do. Both just don't know that what they do, I can do it alao5 and probably much faster but I'm not trying to go that route any more.

I told both of them.. I'm at the end of my game, it's all downhill for me from here on out. I don't have nothing to prove to anyone, my resume speaks for myself. A job is work, with work you get paid, end of story. But when you can't get along with your coworkers that isn't a good look because we are a team. 

I saw this woman I know at 4:45 this morning standing outside the store and she asked me for a dollar. I gave her $10. You know she ran to the crack spot, but I knew she would do that.  It what threw me off was that she smelled like a wild animal. She a pretty young woman..well at least 2 months ago when I first saw her. I haven't seen her since that first time I saw her until this morning. The streets and drugs just drain your Soul. The Streets takes no prisoners and downt care what your age is. I can't feel sorry for her. She probably downt have a worry in the world except for where her next high is going to come from.

At 3pm today I am off for the next three days. I always tell myself I'm going to do something productive..and then I don't. I tell myself I also earned the right to do nothing at all. I don't have to go and visit friends or family.. I don't have to sweep and mop my room...which I did after about a month the other day. I'm a clean person so I out off cleaning for a s long as I can. I don't have to spend hours in my kitchen cooking..throw what ever I have either in the oven or the microwave, simple.

I just want this work day to be over with so I can do nothing.

'...Inside My Head...'

 Where I work at is a NICE part of Brooklyn. I was told that it's an area where no one works, they are all Trust Fund Babies', I say, oh really? It's where people walk their dogs and when they past by, I ask what kind of dog is that. Today I told a guy that I KNOW that his dog is 3/4's Wolf and he asked how did I know. I told him I've seen a wild Wolf no more than three car lengths away, from then on, I KNOW what a Wolf IS.

A Block away..a park. Basketball courts, handball court and Adult & Children's Jungle Jims. Two ice cream trucks...one playing 'The Entertainer' and the other..it seems like some sort of Southern Dixie song.

A quiet block where every person living there recycles..a collectors of cans, bottles jackpot.

45 minutes later, I get off the train in The Bronx and...it seems like I've transported to some Third World Country. Everyone is selling everything, all you have to do is look down.

One of my friends walked towards me with her mother and I didn't even see them coming. I have to seriously make note of THAT, it could've been very dangerous if it were anything ese.

I put my key in my door and I can relax, unwind, eat and then sleep. Sleep comes early, around 6:30pm.

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Dude told me that his girlfriend just texted him FROM jail..and that she said she need $200 to get bailed out. I started to say something but I'll let him learn this one on his own.

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I'm on that Blind Study for a vaccine, Oxford/Astra, took my second shot back in January. I received a vice.ail to call them. They want my permission to 'Unblind'. It seems the FDA is going to approve of their vaccine, not in an emergency use form just straight anyone can get it. This way giving permission to unblind will allow them to tell me if I got the vaccine or the placebo. I know I got the vaccine, I was told.

Also, there is a bonus involved. I LOVE bonuses!!

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A woman will come out and tell me that she is gay...but finds it offensive when I ask..you mean to tell me you never had a penis inside of you? I find that VERY offensive you telling me you're gay. But whatever.

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I've Sky Dived a couple of times, and people thought I was crazy. What I find crazy AND amazing is.. That people WILL FLY in a plane, and then Not learn how to jump/sky dive out of one. Also..

People who don't know how to swim, but will go on crusies. WTF?!!

Monday May 10th

Made plans.. cancelled plans because...I was just plain tired.

Yesterday I had the taste for some Cole slaw but I didn't want to make it. I took a chance and went.. First, u thought if tacos,walked by 3 places and then I looked acrossed the street.

This place has everything. I took my time and really looked at all the postings. I decided on...a two a two piece chicken and a large Cole slaw, but the guy behind the counter had other plans which he told me nothing about.

The large Cole slaw comes in a one cup container. I asked about the size and the price and told him I couldn't wait to see what a small looked liked. Probably 2 slices of carrot and a smear.of cabbage which brought laughs from the coustomers in the place.

Got home and opened my package and..it was three pieces of chicken. Wow! No one makes a mistake like this any more and I know why too. The Cole slaw was just around the corner from going bad,it had that taste which I didn't noticed until the second spoonful. That's the reason for the extra piece of chicken.

The woman who was with her daughter stopped me before I walked out and told me I should taste her home made Cole slaw which YOU KNOW I took that to a whole another level. Exchanged numbers and can't wait until I taste her..I mean her Cole slaw.

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 Going on 3 weeks since I haven't cleaned my room. I THINK about it and then I get tired as fuck. Self Cleaning Room is NEEDED.

WOW!!

 People don't understand when I tell them I don't hang out with anyone, I don't go out period.

For starters if I drank, why would I pay for an overpriced drink IN a bar.

Just found out one of my my best friends is all fucked up. I mean drugs. Listen, you do what you want and that doesn't change our friendship but.. If you're running off with 'packages', not bundles...and you expect me to hang out with you...bullets don't have any names written on them. With your luck, they would miss you and hit me.

Then he tells me that he wants to stop by for a few hours. FUCK NO!! My place isn't going to be your hideaway.

Don't Cry, Dry Your Eyes

 Ladies... If your Man/Husband or the guy you're just fucking makes you cry more than he makes you cum...fuck you still with him for.

My next door neighbor..not the guy, he's an asshole, an Uber Asshole. His wife. I THOUGHT she was his wife. She's about 5'6" tall, blonde hair, but dark roots... About 40 years old and she's Spanish...from Spain. Welllll...I went for a walk and came back home and saw her crying while on the phone. She waved at me. I mouthed, I will come back outside and I wanted to talk to her. All in all, she's a Beauty..to me.

I asked her why she was crying and she said 'him'.I told her I didn't want to hear what he did, I just want to talk with her.

Some guys can be real assholes ALL the time.

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Those stretch pants/yoga pants... They now come in textured styles. I saw this woman with a pair of orange ones on with some sort of raised diamond design on them. I want to reach out and touch something for real.

We Met Only ONCE!!

 I answered an ad online. I went the next day at 2pm. I was only asked one question...was I ready to work.

She gave me an address and told me it was a new supermarket and I was to help 'set' the store. I was asked did I know what that meant, of course I didn't, so she told me. She also told me that she can tell by my eyes that I was a fast learner. By the way she said, my name is Donna and take my cell number down, put it in your phone now. I did and it was the smartest move I have ever made.

I worked for this supermarket chain for over 15 years off and on. After 3 years, I saw that I was never going to be a Deli Manager, I quit but.. I stayed in touch with Donna and she would email me temp work, work for about a month or two. I was working in a restaurant, 12 hour days, 6 days a week. She would email me and just say..go do you thing for me please. 

I was out of work for 14 months, I thought about calling her looking for work but.. it has been well over 7 years..no, about 15 years since I called her or she got in touch with me. About 8 months ago she emailed me to see how I'm holding up, if I was still alive. She said that it's dead for jobs across the board but hang in there. I replied, I'm well and I will.

Now here in NYC they can't find people to fill positions in Food Service. Who wants to work when they can get a unemployment check and do nothing.

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Whenever I hear 'Swingtown', by Steve Miller Band...reminds me of Basic Training at Ft. Sill, Oklahoma.

When She Bats Her Eyes at You.

...she might be trying to get something stuck in her eye because those BIG ass false eyelashes are a collector of just about anything floating around In the air. 

They should do a study and see if those fake eye lashes collect any of the COVID-19. If it does, I bet plenty of women will still wear them.

Ladies you DO know that applying false eye lashes are sending a signal to us men, right? You may just think it enhances your beauty, true it may but.. To me it sends a signal that you're 'out there's. Though I won't act on it unless you as a woman show me a sign that you're interested.

Some women fake eyelashes are so heavy they can barely keep their eyes open, have that sleepy look. I wonder if this was what they were going for.

For the record...Any woman over the age of 55 should NOT apply fake eyelashes.

New York's Back Baby!!

I want to start of saying that all those people 2ho left NYC for safer, greener pastures...eat shit and die. Just kidding, I understand.

I understand that you thought New York was dead and stinking. That no way can we come back from such horror. People abandoning ship left and right. Jobs..what fucking jobs right? And crime..these fuckers are losing their minds. But there is one thing that New York has that MODT major cities don't have.

New York City has the LARGEST LEGAL GANG THERE IS!! New York City's Finest...The MOTHERFUCKIN' POLICE BABY!! Watch what might just happen over the next couple of months. For one thing that Anti Crime Unit that was taken off the streets..it's coming back and they aren't taking any prisoners. Though there will be some people who will continue to defy one if the BIGGEST gangs in America, NYPD...and lose.

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 Excuse me Microsoft... If YOU NO LONGER will support Windows 7...no security updates or anything, how come you STILL want to monitor what I do on a Windows 7 machine. I don't think so. And... I will only have Windows 10 on ONE machine and that's a NEW laptop.

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Are we to see more drunks since NYC is going to extend businesses hours of operation...like in bars and restaurants?

Already people are having a hard time getting out of bed in the morning. Throw in that most are being told to return back to work at the office or lose your job.

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A post on FB has me all fucked up. This woman is stating that she wants people to stay away from her first Grandchild that was born just yesterday. Saying..that people are all up in her 'Granny Child' face with COVID-19 still going around killing people. Then someone let a comment. A comment that I was thinking about all along too.

'YOUR daughter JUST NOW turned 17 years old, she looks like a child in the picture. But you aren't EVEN questioning the MAN, who is 40  years old who got her pregnant at 16 years old, no...you aren't even questioning NONE of that. But you're so quick to want to have another title besides 'Mother', you want 'Grandmother'. Then after a while, when all the thrill has worn off.. After for the 3rd straight month of this child waking the while entire house up at 2, 3am every morning crying... This is after your daughter feels it's time that she wants to go and hang out and EXPECTS you to do the babysitting... This is when you tell your daughter that she 'has to do something'...that old you can come back to visit, but you can't live here. Or... You know that with you being young with a new baby...all types of 'free shit' is open for you. Just tell them I threw you out.'

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 It was just another day after work... Walking home, I couldn't wait until I stripped naked and jumped in the shower and...

I walked thru the front door and noticed that it was quieter than it usually was and is. Being that there are 2 EXTRA bodies living in a space designed for only 3. All 5 of them are Muslim and with it being Ramadan...which I know nothing about..

So they Fast from sun up to sun down. My first question was..what time does the sun go down. One thing I noticed. Okay, they can't eat during and while the sun is up, right? So why are they staying up all damn night eating? I think it's cheating your God with you staying up instead of sleeping, but staying up to eat because you can't eat while the sun is up. Just my opinion.

What fucks me all up though is that those two extra bodies living in this apartment are leaving after the holidays, Ramadan. So they came here to my place where I live..throwing water ALL OVER THE FUCKING BATHROOM!!! Then my Housemate asks me..'Am I going to clean the bathroom?' Let me think abo...NO!! Let your guest clean it.

This morning when I woke up at 2:58am...yep, they are up eating, getting their eat on. Everyone wants to say they are sorry to me knowing I wake up early, leave the house early and come home early TO FUCKING SLEEP!! I tell them don't worry about it but when this religious thingy is over for ya'll, I sure will be glad for this household to go back to normal.

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About a week ago.. I was told that they type of woman that I am suited for is a young woman. I asked what age and they said 25 to 33years old. I said that's a VERY young woman. This person said something that surprised me,she said..' Well maybe she can learn from you, like you be her guide through what's left of your life.' 

At first I thought that was a mean and harsh thing to say to me. I'm old but not THAT old. After a while it sunk in, she was right. I could be that guide, though she would have to be a very special young woman. Not special to me, I'm beyond all of that. She has to be able to deal with situations as they come..be able to put up with talking behind her back, people lying to her face. Stuff like that.

Maybe I will have this special woman just pop into my life one day. I had one like that..and then FB came about.

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I'm hoping to see this Summer at Orchid Beach... A woman twerking while doing a hand stand WITah her head buried in the sand. I could ONLY wish.

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I LOVE Mondays. I feel that everyone should work on Monday. You may ask, what are so great about Mondays, glad you ask. 

Mondays are the first day of the week. People who count Sunday as the first day of the week..should be taken out back and.. 

There are people out here who wait for Monday to launch all types of things. Most import8..FREE Giveaways. If it's free and it's on a Monday, I will find it. I got a free,no shopping and handling charges either..a free XM Player WITH a coupon for speakers at 60% off, which cost me $25...in a Monday. So there, that's my reason for Loving Mondays.

If I had to choose between sex and Mondays and not having both, like sex on a Monday.. Still I would pick Mondays. 

ENJOY YOUR MONDAY PEOPLE!!😛

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So NYC might be going back to 24 hour Subway services? With services being cut off at 2am, it's sort of taking overtime away from quite a bit restaurant workers. Some guy on the news this morning said he wants it back at 24 hours because the Homeless need to use the bathrooms. I hope he didn't mean ON the trains. But this IS New York City, who knows.

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...but I don't have any children!!!🤪 But I still want some of that money that Uncle Joe continues to just give away. 

The President is that drunk of an Uncle that every time his check comes in, he gives away more than he saves or spends.

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I keep seeing this... '

Priyanka Chopra Went Braless Under Her Unbuttoned Blazer at the 2021 BAFTAs

Okay,I want to see the pictures. This woman is finer than frog hair. I don't know why she got married and WHY she married him of all people.

Newsflash: Not Everyone Has to Like Your Damn Ass

I learned at a very young age that not everyone is going to like me. I also was told that I shouldn't go out of the way to people who don't like me, to try and make them like me. Moms said just be yourself and if they don't like you..'Fuck em''. 

Today it's like..'If you don't try and make me happy,make me feel good about myself..you are the one who is doing something wrong.'

If someone doesn't like you,say a shop owner, store owner. Why would you even waste your time filming or even going back and fourth with them about them being wrong not liking you. Just don't go into their store any more, simple.

Then you have people who want others to like them and will do anyt5 for their approval. I mean these people wi go against every they believe in just in order for people to like them.

Then...there are Social Media Likes. Young lady...I'm quite sure you're a great person, may be even shy but.. You snapping and then posting all those pictures with your ass on a your bathroom sink...Though great to look at, but what is it you really want, searching for. Then when you meet one of your 'Likes' and he comes at you strong, there is no one to blame but yourself.

I don't care if a person dislikes me. All I want to know is why, but they don't have to tell me, but I will still ask them just the same. I just want to know.

Room Temperature Bologna

(From Sunday Morning) At 8:58am, I started eating my lunch which is room temperature bologna. Taste pretty awesome if you ask me. All that's missing is some sand. Sand WTF?

Close your eyes and think back when you were a little kid, Summer time. Did you go to the beach? Smell the sand and water...feel the warmth of the sun on your face?

I remember when I was 10, 11 years old, Summer Day Camp and they took us to Coney Island. We would freeze out soda cans at night, in the morning wrapped them in news paper and then foil and...bologna sandwiches. There is something about a bologna sandwich that's been sitting in the sun for a couple of hours. That first bite is sort of crunchy because there is sand in everything. I would blow through two sandwiches like it was the last food on earth. Soda had melted but still ice cold.

A couple of months ago I wanted a bologna sandwich but not just any sandwich. The one I wanted to piece together had to have the right ingredients... Mustard, mayo, sweet pickles and a not to spicy bologna. Some people would go with Boars Head but not me. I knew which choice of bologna I wanted and I went after it. Went into Manhattan to the deli but it was closed because of the lock down but the sign said it will re open in the middle of May. So, I have to wait a couple of more weeks.

So what I ate this morning would have to do but in doing so I thought of what I will be eating shortly. Co workers asked how could I eat something like that so early in the morning. Not early, I was up and I get up at 3am every morning so it's lunch time for me really. But I'm going to stick to a strict diet.. When I'm working, one meal when I get home from work. When I'm not working..no less than 2 meals a day and one of my days off have to be a breakfast involved.

I guess my weight has topped off...182 pounds. 

Sometimes The Dark is Better Than The Light?

 I walk past this restaurant at least once a day, that is a fact. But on Sunday evenings, at 5pm there seems to be a lot, quite a bit of activity going on. Soooo, I checked it out.

As I walked into the place I noticed that it got extremely dark. So dark I paused so my eyes could adjust to what was going on around me. Two BEAUTY women walked up to me and asked 'Hooka?' I said no because and I told them I never tried it before. One of them said well it's free if it's your first time. NOTHING is FREE. Apparently the set up was already set up and ready to go, they directed me to a corner table. From what I can tell is that all this shit is about is smoking...JUST smoking but.. It depends on who you are smoking with.

These two women..if it wasn't for what little clothing they DID have on, they would be considered to be naked. A lot of crossing of the legs, touching of the breast and hair. Conversation was...so what do you do for a living, married, kids and where do you live. After  minutes I told them that I've had enough and i got up to leave. Outside, one of them approached me. Now this IS the same woman that I was seated with inside but something about her was different... HA!! We were in the LIGHT and I got to see every inch of her. Yes it's true, darkness HIDES EVERYTHING.

Now I know what that place is about. Men just go and smoke with what they thing are the prettiest woman on the planet...until you go outside and into the light and see what really is going on. Fellas be careful. Because they might not be women at all. Throw in a bottle of liquor and you might just be talking to a man that's dressed up like a woman. And their time for talking to you is free from what I gather too.

Read This..It Might Already Be Too Late

https://weatherboy.com/solar-wind-traveling-1118468-mph-due-to-hit-earth-sunday/

It Is Now 2:57am....

 At 1:27am my housemate decides he wants to go into the kitchen and cook up a storm...he can't cook. Burning shit, yeah THAT he can do but anything else, nope he isn't good at it.

So, when I come out of my room in nothing but a towel, he questions me on why I don't have a bathrobe on. Me KNOWING ME...I started ti 'Transform' on his as and become a 'Decepticon'..but no, I became calm and said.. 'Listen, you're banging pots and pans AND talking on your phone thru the speaker LIKE you're the only one living in here. And then you want to question why I don't have a bathrobe on? Shut the fuck up!!' ...and I walked to the bathroom to take my shower.

See... People just don't give a fuck about others and all they are worried about, and look out for is themselves. I might do the same thing also but... I take into consideration on how the other person may or may not feel. 

I came out of the shower and he is still in the kitchen so... I questioned him about the other three people living in his room AND sleeping in his bed. Four of them, all males are sleeping in the same bed. I questioned him about this because on Saturday he had the nerve to ask me who turn was it to clean the bathroom. I told him I would clean it. I should have kept my mouth shut because I'll BE DAMNED if I'm going to clean a bathroom that 3 others from the outside are using.

I also told him that his 'guest' need to be a little more quiet AND to clean up behind their nasty asses. Yep, I said it like that. I don't know what Tribe they came from in Africa but here in The USA we use garbage can/plastic bags for trash and anything that falls on the floor..well, we pick it up. These motherfuckers are filthy!! But they are happier than a Faggot in Boys Town to be in America.

I scrolled thru my timeline on FB and... 

There is one woman..no two women on my timeline that BOTH know I want to get with them..and I think they feel the same..at least that is what they have told me. Oh well...FB is FB.

I have a lot more to say but this early in the morning the words in my head are all scrambled like eggs. Later.

Life is Really a Beach

Last Summer I went to the beach two whole times, and that wasn't because if the Pandemic. I just didn't want to go by myself.

I met a young woman,50 years old and we went twice. I would have went more times but every time she came over to meet up with me to go...somehow someway her clothes would just fall right off of her and she ended up staying the rest of the morning, afternoon and we'll into the evening in my bad. Did I complain? Not one bit.

This year I'm looking for and working in right now a Beach Buddy. No sex until after we leave the beach. I don't plan on staying no more than 3 maybe 4 hours once a week,most likely on a Friday. I have 4 possibles but it will take some doing to get either of them to go. Right now all they are concerned about is losing weight,getting in shape for the Summer. I have heard this all before and I would tell them why even worry about it. Enjoy the body you have,it's yours. But they all seek attention and won't admit to seeing all those women on IG with those tight bodies. They willnver learn.

Instagram...

 For the record..I LOVE looking at the women on my timeline that I KNOW I have NO changes of EVER meeting. With that being said...

Ladies... Is there a man out there who actually asks you to do a handstand and to twerk at the same time or.. Or, did you just said ok, record me doing this. Although it looks tempting, sexy, exotic and freaky as fuck while you're doing it..you DO KNOW men are asking themselves is she really getting down like that. Hell, sometimes it's like pulling teeth when I ask her to let me hit it from the rear. MOST times it's her who is quick to get on her hands and knees but.. Doing a handstand? Is that how you like it?

Another pose... Her sitting there in a bikini, legs all gapped the fuck open... And then get upset when a man post something that isn't to your liking and you block them. It's not ME with my legs open like that but keep on posting and I WILL keep on watching.

Then it's the women in real life, if and when you actually get a chance to meet them. I found out that their online postings aren't them in REAL LIFE. Now all of a sudden you want me to respect you when in FACT your picture postings reflect that you don't even respect your own damn self.

Another thing...and this is what I've come to understand about what I see. Though you have a pretty face, a banging body...but you don't look like you can REALLY take a GOOD fucking. Yeah, you claim it's tight, but I don't want to hear any crying, complaining because YOU can't take no dick. You shouldn't advertise if you can't provide.

Why?

How come people feel that they are that damn important and always say..'I will let you know'...and don't. But expect you to just drop what the fuck you're doing right then and there to cater to them.

This woman's Birthday is today and she could've let me know LAST week if and when I asked did she want me to come by. But NOOO..I'll let you know, and she didn't. So today she says in a text, 'Youve could've taken me out to dinner.' Yes I could have if you would have let me know ahead of time so I could put in for the day off. Now she acts like it's my fault that I can't take her to dinner. She want to go to Red Lobster. Who in the FUCK STILL GOES TO Red Lobster. Is that even seafood anymore? I don't think so.

I Can See The Future..Well,Sort Of.

Everyone has their own opinion about just about everything. And I have my opinion about everything also. Where to start.

Elon Musk..he might be out Present Day Mad Genius for real. Thisan buds rockets, test rockets. He built a rocket that can hold 100 people and shave enough storage/space for.. I say for traveling to another planet and set shit up. 

Though he says he is going to the Moon first... He might just change his mind and say..'Fuck it, let's go to Mars.' I mean who is going to stop him. They have already said that there is oxygen on Mars which we can use to build rocket fuel. But what has me thinking is...

Going to Mars means there will have to be a new Adam and Eve. Not only that, but will the same rules of.. EVERYTHING be the same on Mars as on Earth? Let's talk about God. Will we leave God to be just to be worship only on Earth? 

I'm also thinking about...who will claim Mars as theirs. There's already some.sort of written agreed, some rule/law staying that not one country or any country can claim a.planet...ho2 about two, three counties claiming Mars. The United States, China and India.

Some Times People Are Just Happy For You

Yep, that's right. Sometimes people are just so damn happy for you. In fact they are more happier than you are.

Over the last 15 months with me being out of work, that didn't stop me from getting out 3, 4 times a day just to take a walk and get fresh air. I started having a Walking Buddy, her and her best friend. This walking buddy took to really liking me because me being ME. Everyday I would compliment her on her shape, her wiggle when she walks. I would walk behind her and..in a nice way state what I saw. This she took a liking to and made a move on me. Her friend got green with envey because she is much younger than her..but I could tell by her conversation she carrie quite of bit if bullshit with her. Now that I'm back to working, I only see her on my days off in the morning, our walks.

Though she is happier than me that I am back to working, she is sort of sad that she doesn't get to see me as often as we use to, as often as she likes to. I stopped by her place after work on my walk home, but she is always babysitting and me with kids that aren't under some sort of control makes me want to bounce them off the walls. I've td her this. But she feels it's her duty to help bring up her Grandkids while the mother, her daughter is out washing her ass around town I guess.

Another friend is a Spanish woman at the laundromat. Before my housemate placed wifi in our apartment I would go 3 times a day to the laundromat and use their free wifi with my phone. This woman took a liking to me also,but she barely knew English but she tried and I understood her. She asked me to her place for dinner, I asked is she married. She said yes, but he won't be at home. She wanted more than sharing a meal with me and she made that known. She asked how come I don't come around to where she works at and I told her I started back working. She was so happy for me that she started crying and kissing me all over my face. Gave me her number and email address and told me to never stop being her friend.

Yesterday I went to wash clothes and she was there. She was all over me and the other woman she works with gave me the Evil Eye and then told me that I do KNOW that she is married and that I shouldn't lead her on. I explained it to her it's what's she wants and I'm happy with any arrangements that she has.

There are people who want you to do good, be good and make a way for yourself and are happy that good things happen for you. Then there are people who just like and love seeing you down and out, not doing too good for yourself and want you to stay that way so that they feel better about themselves. I see this everyday and I don't understand it. It's like people who pull out their cellphones when ever there is a tradgey going on. Instead of recording, help the person first.