Fabio Said it Right.

Fabio Said it Right.. 'When you truly Love someone, you Love them forever.'

He said this in a recent interview. He was referring the woman who got away. She wanted to settle down, but he said he was too wild back then to do so. Now after all these years he regrets letting her slip through his hands, got away. I feel the same way also.

I'm not going to mention her name, but Thai woman was and still is my True Love. But I fucked up. No matter how I try to sugar coat it, it was ALL MY fault. I know it was my fault because when I sometimes speak of her not only to others but to myself, I feel like kicking my own ass if that was possible.

I have always said and believe that for me and others that you only have one true Love. Most people will disagree with me, but I stand my grounds on this one. I believe it only happens at a certain age, in your early 20's, no olser than 25, 26 year of age. My friends who I've seen over the years have said to me they thought that the two of us were going to get married. I think my life wouldn't be what it is today, I wouldn't have gone through a bunch of bullshit shit if only I acted right. It's my fault and I always told myself it was.

Last year we 'sort of' connected online. She gave me her number and told me to call. To be honest, I thought there was hope if getting back together. I thought that because she said to call her, I didn't. Reason why...I was the one who fucked up US. I didn't think that I could... I just didn't think I could get over me messing the relationship up the way I did. I thought that I would be always trying to ask for her forgiveness and it would seem like I would be too..I don't know the would for it other than too needy. So, I didn't call, didn't stay in touch and thought just let her move on and away. I don't regret that decision I made and maybe it was and is for the best for me really. But if she was to reach out to me this day, I wouldn't turn her away. I would explain why I thought and think the way that I do and did.

Maybe there is still hope for me, for us. I don't know, things happen when you don't expect them to happen. Powers that be control fate..and sometimes you have to let those Powers be in control of things.