Have You Ever Had...

Have you ever had so much to say, and very little time to say it in? I know it sounds cliche... Welcome to my world.

I start putting together a post early in the morning only to find out that I save it as a draft...and 9, 10 hours later I just get around to it. Well NOT any fucking more will I do this.

Okay, it may sound 'Basic' and I'm sure it has probably been done far too many times before. But I haven't heard of a Male doing it.

I... How do I put this so that it doesn't sound cheap, creepy as fuck and even desperate. You know how a young woman offers up her Womanhood for the very first time.. How about an Experience Male, me...offer up HIS 'Its Been A VERY LONG TIME. Yep. Let's say since...well around the middle of August of LAST YEAR!

I stopped doing the 'One on One's thingy about 37 days ago, and believe me last night...I almost gave in, but I didn't. I drank some water of all things and it helped.

I have three women I am going to approach. First one.. A White Woman who is also a Veteran Marine who is a little out there. I had a conversation with her that was borderlines scary but turned me on and she opened up to me. Then someone came along and broke the mood. But that look in her eye said get back at me in the future. I don't know her age, but I will say around 30 or so.

Number two...Don't know her age either, but seems under 25 years old, I have to ask her today. She is in a relationship, has a small child but she asked me the questions a man would ask a woman and that tells me she is interested in me.

Number three...She is also interested in me, told another person who came and told me. The issue is...she is engaged to get married. When she told me this I told her not to do it, don't get married. Told her to see as much as she can of this world we live in. Go places, do things..see how other people live their lives. Set an age..like 5, 6 years from now to get married AFTER she does some traveling and experiencing.

It's not like I will be some kind of Hirney Dog, and Creepy Old Man... Of course I could just go and PAY a woman, who will accept my money, but I don't think that will fit my passion. I think it will be too much pressure for me to 'perdorm' so to speak. I want that real passion, that real desire coming from her.

There is a Number four. First time meeting her was an experience, underlined anger coming from her in which I didn't realize until a couple of days later what THAT was all about until I asked someone about her. THEN I out two and two together, I smiled to myself about it too.

So there. Does it sound cheesey to you what I want to do? Your input is valued. Won't say I'll take your advice if you say...'No, find you someone your age and have a relationship.'  And if you're one of those people who would give me that advice... I would say to you.... '...my waaaay (Frank Sinatra Voice)