Saturday, 7:46am

 You can do almost any and everything you want to do...the only thing is you have to be qualified to do so.

I over heard a conversation yesterday. This guy, 42 years old was on the phone with from what I can tell a woman. The woman, again from what I can tell cares a great deal about him. His conversation was along the lines of him feeling sorry for himself. That he didn't know getting and staying clean was and is so damn hard to do. He mentioned that he lost everything, then went to a 30 day Rehab and got clean and then ventured out into the world. He had no place to go, so he went into a Shelter. Once in the Shelter he had to live among people who in his eyes he was better than. To me, he had the 'Whoa Is Me' bullshit. I sat there listening and saying to myself, this motherfucker. The woman on the other end of the phone just doesn't know what this fucker is really doing. Like it's none of my business but...

I'm not the one who will put people's business all out there on the street. I shake my head and say to myself that this man hasn't change anything about himself on his so called way to recovery. But, who am I to say anything my damn self. I mean I do what I have to do. If you would have seen my actions 10, 20 years ago, you would say to yourself why. But I had to find that out for myself. I didn't use anyone to my advantage because I could never see myself doing that. But people, this guy, he plays on people's feelings. I guess people get what they have e coming to them in the long run.

What really trips me out here is the young adults. I listen to people older than me. I wanted better things for myself. You couldn't say that someone wants something better for me than I would because I wanted only those things I KNEW  and KNOW I was and are able to obtain. But these guys here... They are severely broken mentally, but then again they aren't. The too are playing on people's sympathy. All they do is play video games on the TV almost all day long, or have their heads bent down playing video games on their cell phones.

They aren't up on current events, nor do they want to be either. They haven't taken the vaccination because they really believe that the Government has placed a chip inside of the medicine. That the people that are dying...they aren't really dying, the Government wants you to believe just what they are telling you. I asked how would you know when you don't even watch the news or read any news feed online. I told them that they aren't even old enough to believe anything just yet. 

I  know what I'm doing from here on out... Fuck them, let them die. Now when I get to the point of saying that, that means I care less than a fuck about your young foolish ass.