This Year, In a Short Assed Review

2011...ah, it was a great year. Well, every year is great as long as you gewt to see it to the end. Beibg that its very close to the end, allow me to express some concerns.

First off, I still think that all employers, reguardless who they are, stiff, no fuck tha shit out of their employees. I understand you're in business to make money, but us workers, who are on the front lines making you that money, we do know what we are talkibg about when we do our jobs for you. Relax, you can't take all the credit.

As for 'some' of my Afro American sisters...easy up on us Brothers sometimes. We aren't out here to hurt you, well at least I'm not. You havge to come clean with what's in your heart and what's on your mind. If ya just seeing us cause you want to supplement your income with ours, you have to bring more to the table than just sex. Can't figure that one out huh ? Later I will explain.

To all you hood ass, no manners carrying, pants hangibg off ya ass wearing, loud as a tractor trailer air horn talking... you all, yes I said it, you all need to open your fuckin' eyes. Jail is a ruff ass place to be, but DEATH is FINAL !! You think you hard? Wish I could show you what hard is..no I tell what hard is. Join the Army and fight for your freedom, your family and those so called friends you do stick ups with...that's hard!!

There's more, but why bother...right ?

I Wasnt Surprised at All

She rquested to be myh friend and it started off at just that. Told me thru emails that hse doesn't have a mna and isn't married or anything. I commented on her pictures that she has, I admit, they are nice. I didn't say anything wrong or nasty...she did though.

It started with that she would be in my area after Christmas and before New Years. She wanted to see me, I told her that if I had the time I would. Said she staying at a certain hotel and wanted to go to Times Square to see the ball drop. I'm not into that. She thwn asked for my number so that she can send me some pictures, gave it to her. Asked for my email, gave her that too.

Today she texted me, I answered back and then, I could tell it was a guy, talkibg about he is her man and stuff, that he was gonna slpit her head open. This was all in a text message. She sent a text and said that that was her cousin, but I knew better. Then I received a call.

Some cocuntry ass...some guy talkibg about he gonna get me. I let him talk, say his do, and then I hung up. She deleted her profile and everything. WOW !!

My take on the whole matter. She was cheating on him, not physically mind you, but it would've got to that evevtually. She was bored with him and she figure that the inyernet was the easiest way to flirt, test her skills out to see if she still had them; without doibg anything any harm to her man. But he found out and caught her. He probably went thru her cell phone, on her computer, the whole nine. I could hear him yelling at her now. Ithis a waste of time dude, she readibg to leave you, but she likes the support you're givibg her. Or it could be that she is tired of him and his cheating ways.

Its always the cousin. LMMFAO !!!

This is an electric bike that the place I work at uses for deliveries, this thing is fast. Every morning I ride it around the block to get use to riding it. Its been 2 months now, and I'm still not use to it.

I Don't Know Why I....

You know how sometimes you just get so freakin frustrated with people, that you just wanna say fuck it? Well I'm having not a moment, but a whole week like that.

Don't ask me my opinon on somethibg if you're just doing it cause its politcally correct. Ask me cause you really want to know. People are placed as managers to manage other people, employees. But what happens if the manager can't even manage himself? I know of ways to get people to do whatever I want them to do, its no trick, believe me. All I say is why do I need you to do this task, when I'm doing it myself? Then they get to poppin. Like I said, what if its your manager. Here this person is controlling the way I'm suppose to work..well at least what he thinks that works. And he spends less time trying to listen to some input, me, cause I'm out there on the front lines.

What it boils down to is that some people come into money, and or have saved their money and open a business within the food service indudtry, and they take on a person as a manger who has no experince, no knowledge of what a customer wants. All they do it for is for the money, the title of manager. Thatj shit pisses me off.

So where is he getting the food for the new items, not a ditributor, from his old job!! Helpibg them make money. Over the years I aquired contacts who will give me decent below cost on items. But, I'm not willing to share that with anyone just yet. I'm not talkikbg about the drivers of the truck, talking reginal supervisors and the such. They just don't know.

I don't know for the matter.
MichaelChappell

I Know What I Want...Out of Life That Is.

Most people early on in their life's, start off not knowing what they want. I didn't have that problem. I told myself at the age of 17 that I was going to do whatever I wanted to do, reguardless of what some people may say. This was including family.

I admit, some of the choices, decisions I made were some bad mistakes. They were MY mistakes, no one else's. I lived with them and moved on. If you suggest I do something I willh take a look at what it is, and if its not to my liking I will say something. Please don't try and run my life, tell me how to do things cause your way may not suit me.

As for an relationship, with the oppisite sex.... I'm not living my life thru you and you shouldn't do the same thru me. If you do, you'll find that I will tell you...  Well let just say I will be totally honest with you. You can't change me, what I do, my way of getting things done has worked well for me most of the time. At the times when it doesn't, I guess I have to learn. If you style is laid back, taking your time, I will get there when I get there, the chances of us having any type of relationship is voided.

People, not all of them, but some depend on me. Like those I work FOR. They trust me with their keys to their business and access to their money. So, what comes first in my life is my job. If they depend on me to be where I'm suppose to be at at a certain time, I will be there. Cause you want me to call in or wonder why I have to leave so early, its because I have a job that PAYS me to be there. Cause you're off on weekends and I work weekends have nothing to do with I don't want to be with you. Cause I make it my business to be at work at least and hour before I start...its what I do. Shit happens along the way, trains just stop running, people get sick on them.

Some people dolnt have their priorities straight, well I do. You're not wanting to be with a man who can't. Support himself..are you? Cause if you do, I'm not that man. Stop tryibg to live your life thru me. Stop trying to change me.

MichaelChappell

....and The Shit Starts.

I use to say that all I have to offer a woman is dick and bubble gum, and I just ran out off bubble gum. I told myself that I have to stop saying that no matter how true it may be. So any and the relationship I'm in now, I explained that even though my job is important to me, its not as important as you are. She said she understand.

I have little over a month at this job, and its new location, Times Square. I make fresh Italian Paninis, not the pressed ones, those are American styled. Its a slicing machine, toaster casher register, evrything you may need. So thwe owner and manager wants to hire new people. The business is taking off here in Times Square. Peopel show up for interview. They are hired but don't show up the next day. I can understand that cause they have sent out countless resumes, the options are open. I have done the same thing many of times. So the business has to keep moving forward and those here, me included, we are back to workibg 10, 12 hour days.

My present girlfriend doeant understand this. Its text saying, well hang with you friend at work then. Its not hanging even though it may seem like it is, its not. Times Square is a tourist area, and part of my job is to be friendly. I'm not faking it either. So she thinks that I'm hanging. I told her that. Here is the deal. I work and I work hard. Being that I had rooms to go home to, I would work hard, rest up for the next day. To go and see the woman I was/am dealing with, on my 'friday' I would leave from work and go to her house. But that's not how it is with this woman.

She doesn't have a place of her own, she pays rent at a friends 3 bedroom apartment. Thing is, the husband don't want her to have her boyfriend spendibkg the night there. I'm not going to get off from work, travel uptown to where she is staying at just to hang in front of the building, that's not me. To tell you the truth, I enjoy sleeping with her, having sex with her. Being that she hasn't been in a realtionship in 7 years, she has fallen hard for me. I don't know.

MichaelChappell

NYC Marathon...Like I'm Gonna Run Too

Today is the day whe thousands risk heart attacks, broken arms, legs or whatever you get when you beat your body down. I mean, what is it all for? Is it just to say that you've did it. Did want? Push your body to a limit as to where you almost died?  Some people say that they did it so that they csn prove that thewy have what it takes. What.. you have what it takes to be a crazy person. Listen, if you're not going to pay me, I'm not putting my body thru nothing like that.

Each day as I wake up, I find new things that causes me to shake my head in disbelief. I try to think back when I were of a certain age, and no matter what, I've come to know that half the madness that some young adults are doing, I NEVER... the thought of doing what they are doing, never ever crossed my mind.

I know what love is, its when you love youself before sanyone else. So why do some people risk their life and job over some one who could care2 less of you. I listen to my elders, sometimes not right away, but I did. Today nobody wants to listen. Guess things come full circle huh ?

How do you tell a woman that you have and been having great sex with, that that's all you want is just that, great sex with her. I drew the line when she told me that I was her husband. WTF?! I mean was the penis that good. She was fantastic herself, caught myself expressing myself like I have never before but.... I don't call her wifey, naw, I don't play make believe. Oh, its not like I don't like beibg with her. Its just the world that she is in.

Let's say you have 2 grown ass boys. 25 and 27 years old. The 27 yr old one is doing time, to be released in April, but is as of right now, spending his remaining time in The box. The 25 yr old one, got caught up with friends in a robbery. ' I was there, saw what they were doing, but I didn't do anything'. So he claims. You were there and gulity by assocation. Cause you were watching some one getting assulted. Doesn't matter, cause you did nothing to stop it from happening.

Have to do some work now, guess that is why they pay me...right ?

MichaelChappell

I Don't Know What's.....

I'm getting tired of all the..how can I put this..CRAP !!! From my experience people are not born with bad attitudes, they are created. We as human beings, we do not live on this planet alone. So how can you let some who is so messed up MAKE you feel and act that way too. So what you are saying is that people have THAT much control you? No one controls my feelings, I do that all on my own. Wait, people do create good feelings in me. But that's all they can do.

My job consists of working with the public, customer service, I make sandwiches, espressos, coffee what have you. I have to admit sometimes the occasional pain-in-the-butt rolls thru, but hey, its their problem not mine. And yes, sometimes they think that because they are spending their money they think they can control me, or I HAVE to give them what they ask for even if its not on the menu. I work FOR some one, and he defines what I sell to you, not YOU. I let them know this. See most of them don't or have never worked in this field, they have just been on the receiving end. And then there are some who have had their own business, went out of business and kind of jealous cause of my attitude towards them that is extremely friendly. But I can't please everyone and I tell them I work for some who has defined the rules to me. Most of the time they understand. Most of the time people tell me that they couldn't do what I do. I tell them you treat people like you want to be treated and if they don't, that's on them.

The item I make, I put out that I give to you is something that I take pride in making. Hey, you are putting what I make into your body. And what I make, I put a lot of pride and love into it so that you will enjoy it. That is my main ingredient, LOVE & PRIDE, and it shows. And how do I know you have enjoyed it? Oh, there are a number of ways. One, when its my day off, the next day I look at the numbers, money that was made on my day off. Two, its when you come back and tell me about what I made for you.

Starting a new job, I do a number of things. I look at what the numbers were before I came there. When you hire me, I don't discuss pay. I let you see what I produce, 2 weeks go by before I see my first paycheck. If I like it, I don't say anything. But if I'm not happy with it, I wait another week and I discuss with my employer what I can do for you and what I want to be paid. Its what I want AFTER taxes, my take home as I call it. I have been working with food for over 30 years in different establishments, I think I covered everything from fast food places to gourmet dining to working in mass production, like I've worked on a cruise ship, Norwegian Cruise Lines in Hawaii. I know what I want in an eating experience and its no different from what your average person wants too. Also what I do, I check out the people I am working with. They and sometimes myself, can be a-holes too, we all can be. But you have to recognize this when this is happening and STOP, say you're sorry and move on. But when  see that one or 2 people that I know they as employees have their shit together, I try to put myself right besides them and work as a team with them. Like right now, I'm trying to put together a team, but the Manager doesn't see things they way I see them. The owner does though.

I don't want to manage a place where I work at cause all you do is paperwork and discipline your workers. What type of product are you having them put out if you as a manager is always in their ass about something. After 2 times, they have to be cut loose right, but I can't and won't so that. I've been known to do others work so that they are able to still collect a paycheck.

All I'm saying is this...The next time you go out to eat, look at your server, look at the person who is making your food. Is he or she smiling? If not, question them and ask if they enjoy their job, are they having fun. Then tell them, if they are waiting on you table, making your food, tell them this. I know you are to wait or make my food, but could you please send or have some one in the kitchen that is having fun make my food please? Those exact words...and then tip them a dollar. believe me, that will change their whole attitude. saying that and a dollar changes everything.

MichaelChappell

Some zone Has The Right State of Mind

I like that OWS !!

MichaelChappell

Why ?

Me as a man, I try to live up to my word. If I say I'm going to do something, I try my best to keep my word. Sometimes my plans change, and I have to change sometimes with a quickness. I's not because I'm being selfish, it's because I just don't feel comfortable doing what I originally had plan. Does that make any sense? We as human beings, we can do that.

Then, sometimes as human beings, we put ourselves in situations when we know we are going to hurt our self and worse, others. I know of a situation like that.

Sje is a beautiful young woman, 22 years old. But her eyes are that of a woman that has seen a lot in her young life. Why is it that I always run across women with these problems. She meets a guy, a coworker, and she knows he is involved with some one who isn't in this country. Fast forward a year and a half, she open his email and reads it. He is leaving in December to go marry this woman, but he hasn't told her this. He told her that he is going back to his country. Oh yeah, he is 35 years old, but age has nothing to do with it.

Knowing what she knows, she feels like she has been used, and that he isn't being honest with her. But he has, he told her there was someone else, e just didn't tell her that he is going to marry this woman. To amke matters wore they are living together and here is where is gets shaky. The soon to be sister in law use to have the apartment that they are living in, she moved to Chicago, but she is coming in December to see him off. She had the apartment and because he is see her sister, rented, sub leased it to him. She is coming December to see him off for 4 days. He told her that she has to give up the bedroom cause by law its still her apartment and that she shouldn't have to sleep on the couch cause all the furniture is her by right. Blah, blah, blah. Here's what I told her.

Pack your clothes up and moved back to your mother's house by the 15th of November, and break off all ties, connection with this guy. I know it will hurt but just do it. He is being an asshole on not telling you the truth and he knows how you feel about him. It's not that he doesn't care, he is focus on starting his new life with this other woman and you knew about this from the beginning. He figured that you were cool with it, but you aren't and you're afraid to tell him. So I say, get out before he leaves.

I admit, as a man, us men can be stupid non caring assholes at times. People are like that no matter what.

It' Getting Colder

I can deal with almost anything nowadays, but what I have a real problem with is cold weather. Always have ad always will. As the weather turns colder and colder, I learnto deal with it, but first signs of it, drives me over the edge. What makes matters worse now, it's now I have to work outdoors.

Oh, I'm preparing myself for it, buying cold weather clothing, but I'm still gonna be cold. I deal with this as best as I can. Layering up, not too much that I sweat, lookig into the latest in technology in keeping and staying warm. There is a big differece. Keeping warm is when you go from warm to cold and back to warm. Staying warm, warm to cold abd staying in the cold for hours at a time. Enough of thinking of being cold.

Me as a man, I always try and do the right thing for myself. I think of others too, but I come first. I want to be happy, do things and see people that make me happy. If I plan to do something for the future, I like to keep to those plans, unless something comes up better, least expensive...I change them. I can understand that we all like to do things our own way, I really do. But I'm not changing my plans cause you as a female think I should cause my plans don't nesh with yours. I don't do the 'standing in front of your building talking with you', or, ' let's get a hotel room'. Not when we both have places of our own. I don't understand how some people who have a lot for themselves going on, can a stoop to the level of.... being so Ghetto. That's what I call it, sorry. And, not some expensive hotel either, a place where all kinds of shit goes on it. I'm not cheap, thrifty, yes. Wanna do the hotel thing, at least let's travel out of state.

That's the reason why I went into another direction for my one day off. I went and saw my ex, haven't seen her in about a month. She is always happy to see me. We watch Parsnormal Activity 3 and Real Steal. I fell asleep on Real Steal, but. What I saw. Was really good.

News Flash..... I'm interested in this other young lady. She seems interested too. Its more of, ' I'm going to have an extra bedroom in about 2 months, wanna move in' type thing. I will see.

Metro North, White Plains to Grand Central, Grand Central Shuttle to Times Square, then work for 8 to 9 hours. I Love New York City !!!

MichaelChappelli

I'm Not Set in My Ways, But....

Honestly, I like, no I love women. All colors, shapes...whatever. When I meet one, and she catches my eye...It's not like I have to go up and say something to her, most of the time I don't. But there are times when a conversation is much needed. A time when and if this woman caught my eye, I have to find out more about her, I need more info. I admit, once the conversation starts, I don't know where its headed or when it will stop. That could and is a bad thing at times. I'm intrested in people, interested in life cause life is way too short.

I can't help that she is 22 years old, I had nothing to do with that. What I can and do have control over is what I care to share with her. What answers I give to her questions when she ask. She does ask plenty of questions too. Ones like...'when does a guy gets tired of making love to his woman', I told her, me, never. What my issue is that I can't get enough of the woman that I am dealing with and that's when I start distancing myself from her. I can't help that, cause if I don't get what I want, I tend to pull away.

So we are standing close to each other, and she is sending me pictures of herself every so often. I look at my phone and see its from her, and I ask her what she is doing.. " I have pictures of myself in different moods that I have taken with my digital camera, and your conversation is making me want to share them with you.' 7 pictures she sent me, all very pretty, shows her style. It's late, was suppose to be home from work 5 hours ago, but yesterday cause of the weather, was a very long day. So we say our goodbyes. I ask where she is headed? To the gym to work out. I walk to the train station, and I receive one last picture from her, it's of her in her work out uniform, along with a note. "Something to disturb your sleep by"

When I exit the train station at my final destination, there is a voice mail from her. She wanted to ask me back to her place, but she didn't know how to ask me, so I call her. I tell her just ask me next time. So, she ask over the phone, she lives in Brooklyn, I'm in The Bronx, and its 10:30pm. Tell her on Monday when I see her again. As I type this I received 3 text and 2 emails from her already, haven't open them, won't read them to Monday.

Now, as for my other friend(s). 'W' says she thinks that I'm seeing some one else. I ask her, oh, you're not dating any one else besides me. She says, 'no, I'm only fucking you'. See, thats the problem. I don't know whats up with the way dating, hooking up or whatever you want to call in today, I don't know what direction t's heading into. I mean, if you know what you want, why can't you say it and never settle for less. If a woman wants a man to take care of her, so that she doesn't have to work, she should just come right out and say it, This way it gives the man a decision if he wants to be in something like that. But that doesn't happen. A woman isn't just going to come out and say something like that. And, if she does, she doesn't even know how to word it nor say it properly without sounding dumb. And guys, don't think you don't have a say so in it either. Most of us if a woman just came out and said something like that to you, you just would get quiet and not say anything or you might say something stupid, and when you do either, she has you open. It's a game, and we need to stop playing games.

Ladies, if you see this guy every morning on your way to work, dressed nice smelling good, approach him, ask him what his status is. Guys, you see that woman every morning, ask her had she had her coffee/tea yet. Go out of your way, walk her to the front door of her job and the go about your business. Next day, be waiting there for her with breakfast, something small but nutritious.

Me I will tell you I'm interested in you from the beginning, I have no ties to anything or anyone but myself. I can come and go as 'I' choose, I do what 'I' want to do.

I Rather Stick To What I Know...

Listen, I am not the beautifulest rose in the dozen. I would consider myself that rose, whose stem is short, but its petals are still together, stills smells as sweet and look as pretty. I'm like a second hand car, it takes you from point A to point B, and it doesn't cost as much to own. You feel where I'm coming from? There is a point to all of this. That is if you care to know what I'm about.

I am a person who choose life, not life choosing me. I make my destiny. Sometimes things don't work out as I plan, but that's how life is sometimes. I have the ability to adjust to such changes and make it seem like it was something that I have planned. I don't like to slam doors, I will help them close quietly as to not to disturb others, But then again, sometimes you have to let doors slam, and move on.

When you meet me for the first time, you may no like what you see, I don't know, but then maybe you will. The impression you may get is of a person who is way out there, not firm grounding, oh, but there is. To look inside of my head at any given time of the day...lets say you will have a field day, wanting to ask questions of me. You will want to be around me all the time, constantly in my presence, go to sleep laying next to me, wake up when I wake up every morning at 3:30 just to be there to see my day start.

I can change your whole out look of life as you see it. You will want to do things that only you have dreamed of, have seen on TV, have heard others say and talk about, and even have read in books and magazines. We all can do what we want to do when we want to do it, but its all about planning. I say all of this cause that's who I am.

So, if you see me on the street, walk up to me and start a conversation about anything you want, anything that is on your mind. ...and we will take it from there.

MichaelChappell

So Why Do You Say You Want To Know The Truth

I have gave up on the dating game, I mean I did a long time ago. I'm just stating the fact now. Dating is a waste of time...and money, but nowadays it means a whole completely different thing.

For a woman to say that she is dating, it means to me that she is saying she is shopping around for a guy to be her man. There are a number of guys that I am dating/seeing, nothing permanent right now, but who knows. For guys, and I don't think guys ever use this term...guys, it a who completely different term. Wait, guys do you that term, only if they are an actor and they are in a movie or on a TV show.

Me, I'm not doing anything, but I do as much as I can, no what I mean. Right now there are 2 woman in my life who doesn't and on't know about each other. I can hear it now, 'you're nothing but a dog', no I'm not, and here is why.

Even though I am sleeping with 2, they both know from me, that I am who I say I am. They both want to spend a lot of time with me and around me, and I don't tell one that I can't come around because I'm with some one else, no its not like that. I try to spend as much time with myself, doing things for myself as much as I can, but... With working 8 to 12 hours a day, sleeping for at least 7 to 8 hrs a night, doesn't leave me much time for anything else. On my feet for 12 hours a day, its wear and tear on the body. And besides, my job consists of me now acting with the public. Oh, if you were and wanted to meet me, you would have to do so while I'm working. In fact, thats what I am going to do for now on.

A female coworker of mine has my eye, she's young looks good and really has her act together. Its just that I have to wait a couple of months to see what she is going to do about a certain situation. She knows somewhat, the real important parts about me, and to me she is a great person from what I can see. She has let me borrowed her Ipad, which I was suppose to return yesterday, but she worked the other location.

Gotta go

I have a Samsung Intercept Smart phone. I wonder why they call it a smart phone, but... This phone. you can't buy in the stores any more. I went online, read reviews about it and saw that it will do what I need for it to do. Total cost for the phone, $99. I got the unlimited plan, Data, Talk and messaging. Total for all of this $60 a month. One thing the phone didn't come with a manual, so I downloaded one. Its 156 pages long, like where am I going to get that much ink and paper from...maybe the library.

The slide up keyboard is smaller than what I am use to like on the Sidekick. It reminds me when I try to key in an A, but it a S that comes up. The Samsung keyboard is wider. What I really like about it its powered by Andriod, Google. So all my email contacts were imported when I signed into Gmail account...cooler than a fuck.

It came with an electric plug to charge up, but no usb connection for a laptop. I guess I have to but one, no biggie. I'm learning more and more about this phone as I go along.

Actually, It's a Smartphone

Bought a new phone, Samsung Intercept. Have to get use to the keyboard, not like the Sidekick. Its okay, a lot of bells and whistles.

Testing it out

Well....I got my new phone 2day

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A number of things has happened that has called for me to think about some things differently. One, and th main one is that my mother who is 77 years old was diagnosed with Stage One Cancer. She lives alone, and is on oxygen constantly, walks around with a long line attached to her machine, and she has to carry a portable tank with her when she leaves the house. Since I have no girlfriend, nor children and I pay 600 a month for a room, I've decided along with her permission to move in with her. I sleep on the living room couch. I pay her for my stay here, but it isn't as much as I was paying for my room. I will be here for the winter months until it starts getting warmer. I do her clothes, the food shopping and anything she needs me to do on my day off and when I get off from work. Come the Spring, I will look for a room closer to her,

Something dofferent. I was told by the 21 year old pretty Mexican young lady that she has a prblem. She is living with her ex BF who is about to break things off with her in December, moving back to Spain. She hacked his email account and found out that her is getting married, already engaged now. he doesn't think she knows. They use to be a couple living together as one, but now they are room mates with benefits. She told me that she loves him very much. I told her to stop sleeping with him cause as the day gets closer and closer to him leaving , you're going to get madder and madder cause you know why and what he is leaving for. Its not going to be good, police might get involved, plus your older brothers too.

what she is also concerned about is that when he leaves, where is she going to find a room mate to cover half the rent which is 600 dollars. She can place an ad on Craigslist and have them come to her job and interview them on her break. Get a woman, or a decent working guy with a girlfriend. I told her I would take the place, but I'm at mom's for the Winter, plus she lives in Brooklyn, a Spanish neighborhood, I have no problem with that at all. If anything, I told her to ask her parents to cover half of the rent until she finds a roommate, better yet, let them do the interviewing, with her being the second and final interview for approval.

Things are getting rougher out there, bit with this Occupy of Wall Street, now is an opportunity for some to get their acts together. Most people thing and see what those folks are doing is a waste of time. This was coming, and now is a good time as any to start. Some may also think that this will eventually just all go away, it won't. People, company's are supplying goods and services for those who are willing to sacrifice their freedom on making a point for those who feel the same way, but who aren't up to the task of participating in the movement. This started in NYC, and is spreading soon worldwide.

I know longer have to be at work at 6:30am which to me was no problem. Manager wants me there at 7:30am now and I don't have to make sandwiches for the other location. They placed an electric slicer at the second local, so they will have to make their on sandwiches. I think I;m going to be at that location some times during these winter months...its an outdoor tent.

New Job, New Adventures

* I ordered a new phone, coming by mail, just one more day and it will be here. But til then, I have to actually sit at my lappie to make entries, oh well.

New job, new adventures. And, it seems that I am meeting the right people...females that is. Not dating them or anything, just friends for now, but they know whats on my mind. I'm not the one to bit or hold my tongue. I will tell you, if you're a female and of age, whats on my mind. So far it looks like I will have a nice winter. They know what they want and what they are looking for. mainly its a man that's going to be honest. I don't know what guys can't be honest and have to lie about themselves and the relationship status they are in. All the ladies what is the truth.

One wants me to take that 7 hour train ride. Another one who has a BF who is about to get married to another woman, wants me to help her forget about him. Still another wants some one, a man who is going to be there for her as in she doesn't want to spend most of the week nights alone. All, a beautiful woman inside and out. I told them I'm not married nor do I have kids, so whats up. I'm not into playing games, so be straight up with me and tell me what you want and we can go from there.

Thursday, October 12...2:53am

....thats my wake up an get at 'em time now. New job, new location and new time to wake up. Things have got worse for me, but there was a shining light at the end of the tunnel...family is everything !!

Since I was... I wasn't fired in April, I resigned, and this is my fourth job since then. Times are hard in my line of work, owners aren't making the money they are use to making, so I get cut loose and have to move on. This present job is off of Canal street, hence my early wake up time. From what the manager is telling me, I'm a great relief to him, now he is able to have a day off...this is coming after working for a while with out a day off. So far, and it hasn't been a week yet, things look good.

I have to get a cell phone with a decent plan that has everything, I've been out of the loop for a while. Gonna stop by the Sprint store after work, also... Since the weather i changing, already ordered my winter gear from LL Bean, coat, gloves, sweaters, boots and hat. Next week, gonna order my winter clothes and such.

As for the women in my life, there is still my ex, but she has to understand now. I only get one day off from work, Fridays, the day she has to work. And, my work days time starts at 6:30 am. There is no way I can be where she lives at and at work at 6:30am, but we will work something out. Another woman that I am seeing, she wants me as her 'husband', but I don't know about that. I told her what my living arrangements are now for the winter months, hope she understands. With her, she isn't the aggressive type like I am. And at times I hold back from her cause I know how she is. She told me how she is too. I spent a whole weekend with her and I had to tell her that sleeping in a bed with her makes me want to pounce on her, she says just do it then. Her body language says another thing though. Like some but now all women, she is a shame of her body, her stomach. No matter what I say, she covers it up. She admits its from the beer she drinks everyday, at least 2 22oz bottles. But I love her for who she is, not what she looks like.

I have to be careful of what I say, and how I think, it comes true sooner or later.

A Chilly, Lazy Saturday

I'm up in White Plains New York, at my ex gf house, chillin' with hr. I washed her clothes for her this afternoon, along with mine, which she paid for. Then we went walking outside for a few. She hands me forty dollars, she just picked it up off the ground, I saw her bend down and pick something up too. I went to give her half, and she said no, you take all of it. Who gives away money nowadays, huh, who ?

Like I said, thats if I haven't already, I work down in the Diamond Districk. If you don't know where that is in NYC, ya betta ask somebody. I have nothing to do with diamonds, nothing at all. I work at the ONLY eating establishment thats on this one block between 5th and 6th ave. I make some mean ass sandwiches, they're so good that I guarrentee that you will come back to my counter again. So, if ya in the area, stop by, I'll make you one and...you will have to pay for it.

If You Don't Know About The 5 Second Rule....

...you better ask some one in Food Service then. But just in case you don't know... If you drop something on the floor, you have 5 seconds from the time you dropped it til the time you pick it up in order for it to still be good. Don't ask me how this rule started cause I don't know, it has been handed down and pass along. Yesterday, coworker asked me to make him a sandwich I did, and he wanted it pressed, hot. I did that, but when transferring it to the counter it fell, and he saw it fall. He said pick it up and hand it to him, he lives in The South Bronx with Rats and Roaches and the floor here are cleaner then his floors at home. That's another reason why I get on my coworkers case if they spit on the floor or even in the garbage cans.


This Police Officer that rape this women the other night here in New York City. His father says that his sson would never do anything like that, but.. It was said that in 2010, Officer Michael Pena had a case against him that was settled by the City of New York for the tune of 25 Thousand dollars. He was said because of a "vicious body cavity search that went beyond all possible bounds of decency" You know what that tells me? That he, Officer Pena is a Fucked up Twisted Motherfucker. BEYOND ALL POSSIBLE BOUNDS OF DECENCY ? Come on, wake da fuck up and smell the coffee.

This woman on the train on my way home from work did everything that she could do in order for me to look at her and even ask her her name. I saw the signs, playing with the watch, messing with her hair, hands to the face. Want to impress me, step your game up and approach me., now that would get my attention.

Pretty blue eyed, blonde hair Russian girl, yes, 20 years old, a co worker, works right close to me. She leaving next month to go back to Russia and back to school. I told her how pretty her eyes are and she said there are many like her in Russia, that she isn't special. I told her that may be true, but one of them is standing right in front of me and looking me straight in the eyes. I saw that she got wet right then and there on the spot. She does have a nice ass, a ass like a sister in fact. Gonna speak with her before the day is over.

Thursday, Agust 25th, 5:09am

I can't and I don't understand some people. I mean I don't try to understand people at all. There are only a handful of people that I really do care about, the rest can kiss my ass..and family is included in this too. But for the most, I don't understand people, and I give up on trying to. Take work for an example, just think about this for a minute.

For the most,you spend about 40 to 50 hours with the people you work with every week. And, work isn't the only thing you do with them. Some times you go and hang out, go to events. Sometimes you go out and get fucked up, drinking, drugging. Then there are times when you go out with the opposite sex, and now even the same sex, to get your groove on, nothing wrong with that. But ask yourself, what about that new person that just came on your team, that who is now a teammate of yours, huh, what about them?

Do you bring that new person into your new circle, or do you keep them on the outside and treat them like they are new. If you know what I know, you would make that person feel like part of your work family. Yesterday, I told them at work that being that this is my second week and I will be getting paid, that I am coming up short on train fare, could some one please lend me a dollar. I heard I don't have a dollar, to I don't come out of the house with money. Then one guy had the nerve to say that is he the only one that has money so close to payday? But do you think he offered, after I asked to borrow a dollar? Hell no. But here is what happened.

Customer who had came in at lunch time and I made her sandwiches for her, wanted 2 to take home for dinner. I had already clocked out, and I told her I did, but I also told her that I had no problem making them for her. I went behind the counter and she changed her order to 5 sandwiches. The guy that was working the stationed told me that he would handle it, and the woman said no he wasn't she wanted me to do it. After I finished, she gave me a 50 dollar tip.

I went and washed my hands and told everyone that would listen, what just happened and you should have seen the look on their faces. What I plan on doing later on this morning is taking 30 dollars and buying some Dunkin Dounuts for my co workers, to show that I appreciate working with them.

New.....

Some people, mostly females, they have been hurt throughout their lives. When all they want is to be loved and cared for by any one, but mainly they want a realtionship with a man. Don't you females tell me that bullshit, I don't need no man either. Cause you know that just what you want. Well, I know what I want too, and its not to be tied down in a relationship, so to speak. I will come over when you want me to, but I want to have the means to say, no, I'm staying home, or that I'm going to stay at a friends house this weekend. If you don't understand that and this, there is nothing in the world that can make you understand.

We all have lives to lives, with things to do, and some of those things I like to do by myself. Things like just spending time with people I want to spend time with. This woman that I'm seeing now, she falls somewhat into some of these categories. I have to explain things to her later on though.

...Don't Push M Cause I'm Close To The Edge, I'm About To Lose My Edge...

I'm not a violent person by nature, it takes a lot..no, let me stop right there. I have a temper and its on a short ass fuse. I feel and I believe that a pesron should always respect themselves, and then others will respect you. Sometimes it doesn't work out like that, take yesterday.

Eddie is co concerned that cause he is training me, that he is going to get fired, cause 6 weeks ago he did the same thing. He was trained, and they fired the person that trained him. Danny, the guy that makes the salads, whom is 22 years old, AND this is his first job, I feel that he was riding the same yellow school bus when he was a kid, but I digress. Danny is a slow thinking. He thinks that he know a lot about shit, but he doesn't know anything. He asked me to borrow my marker, while I was walking pass him, in joking I said no, I was carrying dirty dishes to the kitchen, so I didn't stop. When I came back, I asked him did he still need it, he went off on me. Like I said I have a temper, so I have to admit, I said some things to him, and I didn't hold back either. Eddie was standing right there too when Danny called me a snitch. Yep, he called me a snitch.

This is coming at me when I've only been at the job for 4 days now. I started to smack the shit out of him just out of just being on the street. See, he knows nothing about what it means when you call some one a snitch. But I found out what the problem is, and now I'm looking at the two of them in a completely different way.

One, Eddie is worried about being fired. If you're doing your job, why worry about being fired? Eddie, is just a dumb punk stupid ass kid. Both of them are punks really. They talk shit about the owner and the managers, but when management approaches them, they know that they are placing fear in their hearts, they have no respect for them. So I look at the 2 of them as spinless fucking worms, no backbone at all.

I'm off the weekends so when I come back on Monday, I won;t say shit to neither of them, but I will work with 'em thugh.

Wednesday, August 17th....

Tomorrow, will be the 18th of August and back in 1977, I gradutaed from Basic Training at Ft Sill Oklahoma. Why I remember this date so well is...it was the day after Elvis Prestly died. At the airport I had picked up a Times magazine, and his picture was on the front cover. Over the years, I mentioned to people this fact, and most say the same thing...DAMN, you're old.

Having a job is a good thing, and for the last 3 to 4 months, I have been having a hard time keeping a job. I mean it takes me about 3 weeks to find a job, but I always get one. Like this one I'm presently doing. I work in the Food Service Industry, I'm a cook...well really, I can do anything that's in a restaurant, in a kitchen, or even behind the counter. Thats includes manning the cash register, but I don't like handling money and THEN working with food, that shits nasty. But not at this job, I'm strictly behind the counter making sandwiches. I enjoy doing what I do, but I have major complaints and its not with customers...its coworkers.

Why is it that every time when I start a new job, people of Latin decent, and I don't mean Pueto Ricans, they ask me where I'm from. I know what the deal is though. Most employers only hire people who are in this country illegally, so when they see me, the think one or two things. I'm from Africa, or I'm from a Latin Country. This shit also drives me bonkers. There are some other things that are going on at work too.

The guy who is training me, he's a nice guy and all, but he is VERY stressed out from this job, or the job that he has to do. He tells me that I will see, that they are going to try and work me like a Mexican. I don't mind the hustle and bustle of the job, it makes the time go by very quickly, next thing I know, its time to clock out. But this guy, he is afraid that after Tuesday, he will not be working there any more, because I'm his replacement. I tried talking with him, tell him that the only thing that he has control over is his actions, and stop letting people control his actions. But he won't take my advice, so I wash my hands of it.

Thursday, July 21st, 7:06am

I haven't seen her in almost 4 months, but have been in touch with her thru the phone and emails. Today she says she doesn't even want to hear any bullshit, I better be at her house when she gets off from work. Oh, it takes me 3 and a half hours to get to her house upstate, NY...worth the trip though. Been sending me texts all night long while I'm working what she wants to do to me, how can I make her want me so bad, why am I doing this to her. This is strange talk coming from her cause she doesn't talk like this.

I called her at 4am this morning, her first words were are you downstairs? No, still in the city. "Please come and see me", she says. I told her I will be there. I let her go back to sleep. She sends me a text that she loves me, and can't wait til she sees me.

I met her while she still lives in the city, she was moving the next day, so I went all out. I talk shit, yes its true, but I back it up. Afterwards, she gave me the address where she lives upstate, told me to come up there in 2 weeks, don't call, just come. I did, and have been, but work, then lost of a job, threw me all off. I got somewhat depressed, not like me to be without a job. She wants me to quit working and live with her, she says she can support me, and I can open my own computer repair in the basement of her house. I thought about it, but how long will it take that she gets tired of seeing my face I ask myself.

For real though, I can't wait til I see her also.

Wednesday, July 20th

Just a few things beforew I forget about them, they are all worth mentioning. One...

Corner of 8th Ave & 14th Street, Black woman, well to do, good looking, yelling at a driver in his car making a right hand turn while talking on his cell phone. Lady, that's an everyday occurrence in the city, you're the one who is out of place yelling at a car. I laughed and she asked me what I was laughing at and I told her. She said, 'yeah you're right, I did look stupid yelling like that.'

Yesterday, last night a co worker told me something that a lady friend of mine told me a week ago. They both said they are throwing a party for the son's who are just getting out of jail. Am I missing something here? Is being released from jail something to celebrate about now? How come I didn't get the memo. My co worker got upset with me when I shared my views on what he said. I asked was his son going to be on parole, he said yes. I said fuck a party, go job hunting with him and THEN celebrate when he finds a job in under 90 days upon his release from prison. Now that something to celebrate about. AND, to stay in his shit about keeping this job too. Stay deeper in his shit about him seeing is P.O. and be home by 9pm NO MATTER WHAT. Of course that's just me.

Like my first girlfriend we went out to dinner, she beautiful, but there is a problem. We want to see more of each other but our hours are totally opposite one another. Plus her son is staying at her place while she is staying at some one else's place, she says that she doesn't want her son to have a key while she is there. She told me that she is getting her keys back and that she knows that she will have to clean up the place cause he has had people staying in there while she has been gone. She wants things to work out between her and I, its been 4 years since she has been in a relationship.

I understand what she is feeling, but she has to understand one thing too. maybe relationships aren't suppose to what it's suppose to be for certain people. Like me, I want one, but I just don't have the time, I work 57 to 65 hours a week. I don't want to go out, visit friends, family, parties...NOTHING!! I deal with people all day trying to please them. I LOVE my job, but I LOVE MY ME TIME also.

So she tells me she is aiming to please me, I will see. I'm not hard to please, doesn't take much either...a good meal thats all.

I Like This Thing Called Dating

Last night, my very first girlfriend took me to dinner at BBQ's, the one located on 72nd street. First time I ever been in BBQ's too. I had my mind set on a burger from jump street. Its a nice place, but I see it as an upscale McDonald's with ample seating.

At first I was nervous cause I didn't know what to talk about. But things just came as natural as anything else I have been doing. She had on glasses and I asked her to remove them. This was the young girl that was my first girlfriend...now grown. I see it in her eyes, the youth of yesteryear, and all the memories came rushing back. I was taken back to those memories, of times where there were no worries. Times of going to school, summer day camps, loose cigarettes for 3 cents. We caught up on family and asking each other questions of where is so and so.

As with any family, we all have problems, especially there were some in mine, but I never knew what her background was, is on her family. Last night she told me and I was surprised. What you don't know when you're young, you never ask cause at that time it was all about fun and good times. Present day, now, know I understand what was what and why people acted in the way that they did.

After dinner, we went by her place of employment since it was right in the area. Was introduced to her co workers..hey I'm the guy that she grew up with as kids. I'm the guy that she has taken out to dinner. I guess they, her coworkers approve of me. From there, it was time to take her home, the train ride. You can't hold a conversation on a NYC train, too noise, and you have to speak louder, and then people will hear your convo, so every now and then I would say something. Something to let her know that I was interested in her. What I really wanted was to hold her in my arms.

Once at her place, she introduced me to her family, I was captivated by the VERY large screen tv in the living room. Nat Geo, a show on hippopotamus was on, it was like there were actually right there in the living room, I watched tv. She wanted to go to the store, we both went and then it was time for me to leave.

I went to kiss her on her cheek, and she turned her lips toward mine. Again, I was taken back to childhood memories, I wanted to make love to her right then and there. I left, for my long train ride back to Queens.

July 13th

Times are surely getting rough, hard and peopel are at their breaking points. At work, one of my co workers, whom I'm sure doesn't have a green card told me that his cousin and brother are coming to work here. He then went on to tell the manager in front of me that with just him and his brother, he can get rid of 3 people. I waited until the manager had left the front and spoke to him about what he said.

I told him that what he said was wrong, and that if his brother comes here to work and I lose my job, I'm calling INS AND ICE. They both are Mexican. I believe that every one has the right to work, but if you are breaking the law...thats a different story. How dare he tell the manager something like that.

Already employers are trying to find ways to cut payroll, but you have the nerve to tell him something like that....Bastard !!

Tuesday, July 12

I started a new job right, so, I'm the new guy. Its not I 'know' how to make pizza, cause I don't. But what I do know is that that pizza oven is one hot muthafucker. I have the stripes, burns to prove it. I always wanted to know how to make real pizza, like out of a pizza shop, so know I am getting my chance. I like it so far, but I'm in the phase of just watching which is fine with me. I'm gonna give it another week before I actually put my hands on some dough. People are very strange when it comes to their pizza. 2 pizza makers, one day and one night, both their pies will taste completely different. so my job is to handle the counter, answer the phone, make sandwiches and salads and ring up customers.

The people I work with are beautiful, meaning they are good looking. I'm not talking about the guys, the females. I have already gave one who I have eyes on a nickname, 'Punk Fairy'. She cracked up when she heard this. I told her she is a Fairy who lost her wings last night partying too hard. She can't remember where, or who house she crashed in last night.

So, one of my childhood girlfriends is taking me out to dinner, this week, Thursday. Since all we have been doing is emailing each other, she has stated in her email that I am already hers. She hasn't even met me face to face yet, but she wants me. I told her that I am a slim guy, on the skinny side. She says that I might not want to be with her cause she has put on some weight. I don't care about how you look, it's how you treat me in the long run.

My work days are 10 -12 hours long

A Plast From The Past

When Facebook first came out, I joined. My account just sat there, I did nothing. Fast forward a couple of years, and my family joined. One day I was with them, and they told me was I a part of it, told them yes. I have to watch what I say and what I place on it cause their eyes are watching. Then the strangest thing started happening, old girlfriends from my teenage years, old Army buddies and basically any female who was involved with me, started getting in touch with me. This one young lady, when I was 14 years old, that lived in the floor below me in my apartment build reached out to me earlier this week.

You know how it first starts...'is this the blah, blah blah, from blah, blah, if so contact me'. Well for the last 3 days we have been emailing each other. She is 47 years old, 2 grown kids with grand kids. But what she just came out and said, makes me want to meet up with her. She told me that she has been thinking of me every now and then. Mostly when her relationships start going into the dumps, she wish she could find me. Now she has.

She's in the same field as I am, food service. She wants to do dinner and drinks. I told her, hold on to your money, where I work, I eat and drink for free. The day we are to meet, she was suppose to do a double, but she said, and this is her saying it, she would love to do me instead. I have yet to talk to her on the phone, I'm not a phone person and I told her this, but will call her today at 5:30pm. I'm looking forward to see her.

Wow, I Didn't Know That....

...there is an Apple Store right next to the place where I work at. I hope my pay is decent, this way I can go right next door and buy me an ipod.

Tryin' to Remmebr Just what Day of The Week Is, IS HARD !!

First off. After a hard 30 days, I have found a job, and this one is dealing with food. meaning... that I do get to take some food home at the end of the night, well MORNING. More about the morning business later.

The Manager that hired me, we played email tag for a couple of days after I replied to his post on Craigslist. He wanted to meet me on the 4th of July, but I wasn't doing that one. I mean I wasn't doing anything, but when some one calls and wants to meet you at the job, they more or less want you to start working right then and there. I had other commitments anyway. So, after one interview that i had scheduled, I went and met him at the job, Gaslight Pizzeria. And I was right, cause right after my interview, he told me to come back later that night to start working.

I heard about the Meatpacking District, and I thought it was opposite South Street Seaport, my bad, I was wrong. This place is a NUTHOUSE at night, but by 5am, everyone is off the streets and home already. Which brings to mind. How are these people partying and drinking to 4, 5 am? Do they have jobs to go to? I think its people visiting from other places, states and countries.

I know nothing about making pizza other than popping it in a microwave oven and hitting a few button...but. But I am willing to learn and they are willing to show me.

I'm tired, went to work last night at2pm, start at 4pm. Got off at 5am and was home by 6am. Took a shower and slept for 3 and a half hours. Going back to Zzzzzzzzz.......

Sunday, July 3rd

Soooo, my brother is having a cook out at his home, upstate, NY. What tripped me out was that he told everyone to bring a plate. Fist of all, you called around saying that you were having the cook out, and now you want people to bring food? Well, little brother, I can't afford to bring any food, but I will sure bring myself.

I just seen some pictures of Amber Rose, of herself naked, sent to Nicki Mi.. well whatever, boyfriend. I have to hand it to her though. She has a tight, smooth hairless body. Nothing that she is ashamed of either. What gets me, its all these females that are talking shit about her. So what, she is what she is no matter what she is. She KNOWS who she is and is comfortable with it so why get your panties all in a bunch over what SHE chooses to do with her OWN body.

As for Bishop Long. The only place that you will hear anything on this guy is online. I read that he settle his case before court hearing for about 25 million dollars to the four guys that he supposedly had sex with. I know I'm not the prettiest flower in the garden, but.. wait, let me rephrase that. I know I'm not all that handsome and shit, but this guy... This is to his wife. You are a stupid bitch, and I don't mean that in a bad way either.

See, you got use to the lifestyle, the props that goes with being the happily married wife of a money earning man of God. The best tables in restaurants..in Atlanta that is. But I don't care what you say. No amount of money could make me look the other way if I were a female and my husband was FUCKING other men. Nope, no way. I would have got out of that marraige a long time ago.

Gonna post some pictures of this cookout later on.

This was taken in 1980, Ft. Dix, NJ Truck Driver School

This was taken in I think 1978, while I was in The Army, stationed in West Germany.

Memorial Day

My ex asked me why am I working on this holiday. I asked her, why didn't
she serve her country since she lives in it. She gave me a dumb ass look
too.

I work cause I have a fucking' job. I work cause that's what you're
suppose to do...work !!. People call in 'grinding', fuck that, its work.
Young people call it grinding cause they know no better.

What else bothers me how these 'project' looking light skinned women,
cause they look different, they think they are different. Alway wanna be
up in the club. You're ass need to be up in a book or two reading.

And, I've noticed a lot of young to older adults that are drinking more
and more. First of all sweetheart, I can tell if you're a heavy
drinker,I can smell it coming out of your pores. Your skin complexion,
yeah that changes also. I don't know where you get off thinking that
shit is cute thinking you're grown, cause your ass is drunk all the
time. That's why you do go to the club, just for free drinks.
--michaelchappell

Knew Something Was Wrong

So my housemates left for DR late last night. I go to work, left at 4am.
I get home and my room door is broken, room is a mess. I g and search
thru the house, 2 tv's messing and a dvr, plus my housemates 2 laptops.
I carried mine withe this morning. Called the police and filed a report.
The front door isn't broken into, so some one had the keys. I text her,
but she hasn't answered yet. Gonna call in a few. $60 and 2 weekly metro
cards missing from my room. MAN !!
--michaelchappell

I Don't Know Sometimes

I have 3 active phone numbers, 2 cell and one home phone number which is
magicjack. All have voice mail. So please explain to me that why people
don't know how to use voicemail.

If I don't answer the phone, leave a message. Not a message to call you
back, but a message with what you have to say cause I do check my
voicemail. I won't call back if you leave a message to call you back.
Not unless your family.

First, my supervisor called me, and told me to call him back. I didn't
understand what he was saying, so I didn't call back cause he didn't
leave a message other than to call him back. So I go into work on
Sunday, which I wasn't suppose to do. Not my fault, should've left a
message saying not to come in. So, I stayed at work for 2 hours, and
then was told not to work, I'm off today. Oh well.

When I call some one and it goes to voicemail, I leave a message like
normal people do.
--michaelchappell

FAIRWAY NEW STORE!!! PRODUCE, DELI, CHEESE, OVERNIGHT CLERKS

http://newyork.craigslist.org/mnh/fbh/2403519863.html
--michaelchappell

About Tom..

Tom is a 25 year old White coworker, who lives in Washington Heights. He
shares a 2 bedroom apartment, the apt goes for 920. Wow, wish I could
find something like that.

Tom is on some shit. Shit, meaning he believes that the government has
too much say so in people's everyday life. He also believes that the
'working class', should, no, NEEDS to take over the government as we
know it. So I asked him, who would then be in charge? He says we all
will. I find that a little too bit hard to believe. Everyone would want
to be in charge, everyone would want the perks that comes with being in
charge. I told him this, but he won't and doesn't believe me.

Tom also believes that like in other countries, how the people took over
the government, he believes that that too can happen here. I don't think
so Tom. He has even went as far as giving me this newspaper..heis part
of a group called The Militant. I have to give him a dollar next week
for it, but I'm going to read it from cover to cover. I will take notes
andI will blog about it.
--michaelchappell

Thursday, May 26th..4:25am

Will someone please explain to me, how you place someone in charge and
they don't speak English. Had meeting yesterday and the Supervisor, who
doesn't speak English told me that when he isn't here, this other person
who ALSO doesn't speak English, is in charge. The meeting was in the
break room, so other English speaking people who walked by, say him
speaking Spanish to our group. They asked me did I know what was being
said, and I didn't. They all laughed at me, I laughed also. At this job,
I am the minority.
--michaelchappell

Judgement Day, May 21, 2011

I mention this now, cause I'm sitting on the F train and right straight
across from one of those ads this guy spent his life says on. In the old
days on the train, I would have just said excuse me, and pulled the
placard right off the side of the train. New trains, you can't do that
anymore. Those ads are collectors items now I bet.

Like I said,I was looking forward to Judgement Day, in a way. I see it
like this, it was either or. Either I was gonna be one of those people
that actually got to stand right beside God, or, I was going to Hell. No
more bills, sickness, worries, crime. Or,be in constant pain all the
time, heat, gloom, fire and darkness.

But it does look like these are the beginning of the end of all days
though. Look at the mid west. Isn't that called the Bible Belt? With the
weather acting like it is, its scary out there.
--michaelchappell

Monday, May 23rd...4:40am

There are 2 bars across the 2 way street where I live. I left the house
at 4:30am and outside it was like it was the middle of the day.But, I
noticed something. Even though there were a lot of Spanish speaking men,
there were more Spanish speaking women too. Most of the men were drunk,
and none of the women were. Another thing, there was 2 to 3 women
talking to each man. That lead me to believe this... there is a lot of
whoring going on at this time ofthe morning.

I see it like this. Times are hard even if you are of illegaly
documented alien. The males aren't finding as much employment as before,
so its the women that have to pick up the slack. I looked at the womens
I walked by, pretty, nice bodies and all. They didn't even pay me any
attention as I walked by though. Next early Monday morning I'm going to
say something to a few of them and see what happens.
--michaelchappell

Sunday, May 22nd, 3:49pm....

Like clock out time WAS suppose to be at 2pm. But they said I had to
break down my boxes and put them outside. That's...100 cases of apples,
18 cases of celery, 5 bags of carrots and...11 cases of beets to break
down, tie up and put out.

They think I'm playing with this staying past my posted time to work.
I'm NOT !! I don't care. Put it on paper if you want me to stay later,
besides.. There was only 4 of us and we propped for the night people and
the day people for tomorrow. Shit is mad. Then the Supervisor comes in
the back door to make sure everything was done.

2 guys cut up 149 cases of pineapples that were already peeled from
yesterday, my day off. Then they had to do 50 cases of lemons, peel
them. They got some help at 1pm, the Supervisor came in and helped them
with the lemons. The other guy, which is a female, she did 30 cases of
kale, 15 small boxes of mint and 15 cases of cucumbers. All in all, I
had the hardest job, but to me it was easy.

I enjoy doing this job cause no one talks to me, they don't speak
English that well, so I'm focus n what I'm doing. There is about 5 black
guys working in shipping, they started off where I'm working at. I was
told they couldn't handle the volume, so they moved them to shipping.
Strange thing is, they were 3 white guys doing a job that 5 black guys
do now. The white guys are their supervisor. I pointed that out to
them,and they gave me this dumb ass look. Only goes to prove...

Being that the Managers are off cause its Sunday, the guys in shipping
were taking mad ass breaks, going outside in back t smoke cigarettes.
While they pass thru, they holla at me. FUCKERS !!
--michaelchappell

I Know This Woman, Who Is a Whore, and...

I know this woman who is a whore. I mean she looks VERY well.Nice
clothes,smells and looks good. Every now and then I run into her, we
chat. One day I ask her when can I get a taste, not a fuck, but to make
love to her. She said she would like that.

So we made arrangements at her place. She called me over one night. She
says to me, lets see what you got, so we get to getting it on. I was
enjoying myself and her and it looked like she was enjoying it also. 3
days go by and one of her girlfriends called me. She said you and her
got together right, She wants to know when am I gonna pay her. WTF ? I
was suppose to pay? I mean if I had said I was, I would've right on the
spot. I explained to her girlfriend what the deal was. Next day,
girlfriend calls me and wants to hookup with me, no problem. I ask is
she gonna pay me, cause I'm not paying for her. She says she wants to
take a test drive.

We hookup and now she is all over me claiming me as her man, something
that I'm not going for. Sex with her was great, but not as great as with
her friend. The first woman called me last night, telling me of the
mixed up that she thought was suppose to be, could I come over. I went
and we hooked up again.this time I made sure what was what. She tells me
that she has saved quite a bit of money and she is ready to settle down,
find a job and shit. I tell her that's good, but not with me, I could be
her friend. But she wants more than that. Can't give her anything more
than just friends.
--michaelchappell

Sunday, May 22nd.The Day After

For some reason,I was hoping this rapture thingy was really gonna
happen. I was hoping that all the pain and shit was gonna end and then
some of us could move on to bigger and better things. But as you can
see, it didn't happen. Bummer.

You would figure that there would be more people in the streets yelling
how the end of times is among us. That didn't happen either. Feel kind
of sorry for the guy who spent 140K on billboards and advertising. Him
spending all that money, his life savings..bet he wish it was to happen
though.
--michaelchappell

May 19th..Continued

Was approach at work by HR department spokesperson. It seems that the
people there are using others people's social security numbers. They cut
loose 20 hard ass working people, oh well. Then I was told that Starting
Monday, the job will be closed for 7 days for painting.

The Hr person then came back and asked me did I know anyone who would
want to work in a deli for a friend of hers. I said I will, but it has o
be after 3pm. So, on Monday I start working at a deli for 7 hrs a day,
6b days a week. SWEET !!
--michaelchappell

Thursday, May 19th

You know....sometimes I try to help people out who are not capable of
doing for themselves sometimes. I mean, they want to..lets say work, but
don't have the resources. To me doing a job search for some one else is
nothing. Set up an email account that I have access to, copy,paste,
send. All that person has to do is write out their job history, simple.
Well not all the time it is.

Its like pulling teeth trying to get them to write it out. And finally
when I do get it, they call over and over asking how come they haven't
got any calls. But when they get an email, I call them and tell them to
call that number to set up an interview, they give me a sob story. All
kinds of excuses. I was told that I should charge a dollar a day, min, 5
days. I should, but that 5 dollars is transportation money and I can't
seem to do it.

I have this one person, his resume looks impressive, but he wants to add
and take away something. Told him to open Word, select/highlight it,
copy and paste it in note
pad and email it to me. It was as though I was speaking Russian to him.
Wants me to call him to walk him through it. Told him go to the library
and ask them to do it for you, or ask them to scan and then email it to
me. That messed his head all up, thought I heard it explode.
--michaelchappell

The Work Force

I finally figure this work shit out...well sort of. But before I get
into that, it, that's if I get around to talking about it. I want to
talk about something else.

Remember in public shool, Junior High School and High School, how you
always had an English Class. How you 'had' to pass hat class, or you
would get left back, held back a grade. English class at that time was
one of the hardest classes for me to pass. I enjoyed threading part
greatly, it was just the nouns, pronouns, adjectives, and so on and so
on. Who would have figured back then that we were learning he basics of
human speech, how to talk proper. Fast forward now to present day. You
won't believe the madness thats happening now. But, I will try to
explain it.

First of all, what's this English as a second language bullshit. You in
America, you speak English as your primary language. I work with nothing
but Mexicans, I swear, I'm not gonna even try and speak Spanish to
them,that's not my language PERIOD !!! One of the Supervisors who isn't
Spanish, but from another country, but , speaks perfect English,went to
one of the Mexicans guys to EXPLAIN to me what he wanted done. I took
offense to that bullshit. I pulled the Supervisor to the side and told
him, I was born here, I'm of NO Spanish decent, I do speak and
UNDERSTAND English. He said he didn't know, that I don't look American.
WTF ??!! Plus he said that I speak like I'm from not around here, New
York City. I told him I wasn't raised in the streets, I have some but no
a lot of education and I've traveled the world. He said he was sorry.

My question, when did English become NOT so important to know and learn
? These people of Latin decent, what, did they not submit a resume to
get an interview? Oh, I see, they were hired from word of mouth. But not
everyone, fits into this category. It just amazes me sometimes.
--michaelchappell

Just Some.....

Yesterday, I was standing in front of where I live, and a ex coworker
walked by talking with a woman. A female ex coworker that is. I mean she
looked right into my face, and an expression came over her face that
shocked me. It was one of, don't say anything to me right now, please
don't. This ex coworker isn't from this country and her religion and
beliefs are different, she's Muslim.

15 minutes later, I get a text from her, asking me what am I doing,could
I meet her. I said ok. First thing I said when I saw her was why she
didn't say hello, cause I know you saw who I was. She told me that she
was with her Aunt, and her Aunt doesn't allow her to speak to people
out in the street, what ?!!

She went on to explain it to me, but I wasn't paying any of that
attention. I was too focus on how some one else can tell another person
how to act when they are out in public. I felt sorry for her. This is
the same Aunt who when we were working together, use to take all of her
paycheck every week. The same Aunt who made her babysit after she put in
a 9 hour workday. I asked did she still live with her, and she said yes
and that her Aunt's husband has started coming into her bedroom making
advances towards her. She can't tell her Aunt, cause she won't believe
her, so she lets it go. This isn't the first time something like this
has happened with a female coworker of mine.

I can understand that in order to come from another country to this
country, you must have some one represent you, more or less a family
member. To me, all that family member sees is an additional source of
income and will do anything to take what that person has worked for away
from them. But the person that its happening to, doesn't see, or has
already agreed to some crazy ass terms in order to come to this country.
Shit is stupid if you ask me. But I see that shit more and more each
time.

Try talking some knowledge into her, and she goes on her religion, which
I can understand. One of my other coworkers told her Aunt what her
husband was doing, and she threw her out. She stayed with me for 2
nights until they found out where shews staying.

Some people take advantage of others and that's not good at all.
--michaelchappell

Wait a Minute

This guy I know, I always thought he was gay, not that there is anything
wrong with it. Well, he text me saying that he wanted to take me out to
dinner. So I called him and asked him what was really up. He tried to
play it off like all it is is dinner, nothing else. I tell him right. So
I come out and ask him, what, you want me to fuck you in the ass? That
opened a can of worms.

To be honest, I'm not gonna lie, never did a guy before or anything. I'm
not gay or even bi have you. So I tell him, if my dick gets hard, you're
fucked. I don't know why I said that to him cause he goes into saying oh
I can get it right and shit. I don't think so. Dinner is planned 2weeks
from today. Then he says, oh you're a cook, how about he buys the food,
and I make it. I tell him no, you invited me out to dinner, that's where
we are going.

Hour later, a female coworker of his calls me, she knows me too. Says
can she come along for dinner too? So I explain to her what this guy is
trying to do, she tells me she knows, that he asks her to come along
too. Then she ask me if I'm gonna go ahead with it if things get heated
up. I ask her will she be in the bed room too? She ask me do I want her
there...YES !! Now she is looking forward to this night, tells me don't
chicken out. From what I remember of her, she finer than frog hair, so
its gonna def be on between her and I, him and me..now that's a
different story.

He text me back with all this shit about, how he can't wait, that he
doesn't want her, he just wants me, but he will let me enjoy her to a
certain point, then I have to switch to him. First of all, aint nothing
going in my ass. 2nd, don't know what's gonna happen between him and I,
we will see.
--michaelchappell

?????

So, she said she wants to come and spend my days off with me. I have no
problem with that. Hope she doesn't expect anything special to happen.
I'm really, really tired though.

Had a convo with my 25 year old housemate... while she was in this short
short bathrobe...standing in my room. Then she sat on the bed. I always
ask her why she doesn't have a bf, now I know. She is ashamed on how her
body looks, this is coming from her, out of her mouth. I asked what she
does for sex like when she gets horny. No answer, so I told her, just
come into y room anytime, day or night.you don't have to say a word.
Started to ask her to open her bathrobe, next time I will though.
--michaelchappell

Soe People will just About Go For Anything

I try and I do mean try to be honest with people. But with some, you
have to tell a white lie. A not so true statement so that you don't hurt
their feelings. But, if you're gonna be an asshole about certain things,
well..'Fuck ya feelings'.

Like this woman who wants me to be her steady man. I told her, that
right now, I'm not ready to settle down. She said, but I was ready to
get in her pants. So, I told her the truth. I don't like coming to your
home, place cause it doesn't smell clean, smells like roaches. Also,
your bathroom is nasty. I'm not sorry about saying any of it either. She
had the nerve to say, then we can always go to an hotel. What tha fuck,
I'm paying 600 a month for where I sleep at, not paying 80 dollars for 4
hours are you fucking stupid.

Besides, she isn't in school, nor does she work. To be honest, her 22
year old daughter gave me her telephone number, told me to call her
sometimes.I told her straight up, well I'm fucking your mother. She said
when you're finished, call her.

Some people's kids.
--michaelchappell

I Have To Speak About This

One of my housemates, her name is Fanny. 25 years old and has a daughter
that's 5 years old but she doesn't live with her. She isn't even in this
country, she's with her Grandmother in the Dominican Republic.

Fanny says she wants a better paying job,a job with more hours. So I
told her, asked her did she have a resume. She didn't. So, I went along
with helping her put one together. First off, I have no time for people
who don't want to help themselves. I should have quit while was ahead,
but since I said I would help her, I did. For one, I don't know how she
made it this far along in her life, or its just me. Getting the
information from her to start her resume was like pulling teeth.

After I had it all together, then she asked me could I help her with
finding a job. She told me she wanted to apply to one of theses home
improvement super stores, which had to be done online. That meant
setting up an account. Then, you have to take an assessment test, all
this I did for her without her knowing about it. The store emailed her,
they wanted her to call a number and speak with a rep.

She came into my room and made the call from.her cell phone. Straight
boff from the start, she was pissing me off. She was on the phone for an
hour, which really, should have been 15, 20 minutes tops. After her
call, I explained something to her. I told her she has to speak up, stop
acting like you're the shy type of person cause that shit doesn't cut
it out there in the workforce.

Thanks to me, she is now working at this store. She didn't so anything
but answered a a few questions on the phone. The hardest part was me
doing everything online FOR her. I told her she either owes me a lap
dance or a decent 20 minute fuck, she choose one. Hey, my services
aren't free.
--michaelchappell

Shit Makes Me Wonder at Times

I know one thing, the food industry, mostly have people of Spanish
decent working in it. I can count the Black people working for this
company on one hand, everyone else is Spanish.

What tripped me out was that my supervisor came and asked me was I a
friend of a person who works here. I said know. He asked me how I know
about the job I said online, he said, well you must be good cause they
don't hire online people.

My resume can be long, but I choose to only place last 4 jobs that I had
on it. But when filling out an application, I have an 'intense' resume
that I print out that's 4 pages long. I did it myself, and I attach it
to the application. Most people who interview me get this look on their
face when I attach that resume. I mean, it can be a lot to look at and
handle. Also, the interviewer always ask why I want this job. I say
cause its something I never done before and its part of , and will have
me working with food in a different aspect. I tend to find jobs very
easy.

I tell people who ask me, what can that do, or how can they break into
the food industry. I always tell them to take any job that's has a
posting or hiring for dishwasher. But before that, try applying for a
deli job even though you have no experience. Tell them you WANT to
learn,and learn everything they teach you. Don't be afraid to ask
questions. Also, don't be afraid of the slicing machine. Yeah, you can
cut your fingers completely off, just hope the machine blade is VERY
sharp. This way you won't feel the bladee slicing your fingers off.
--michaelchappell

Friday...Some People Just Need To Get Real At Times

So, I went to my old job, to collect my Food Handlers Certificate that
was hanging on the wall. The customers who were so use to seeing me
actually showed me so love. They told me my talents were far better than
what this place had to offer me. They also said that if I need some help
in finding another foodie job, let them know, they know people with
places, businesses. I collect about 5 phone numbers in all. I also had a
talk with the store manager.

In more or less words, he told me he fucked up, and that he lied to save
his ass. See, this would've blown all over had the store manager been
Spanish or Black, but he is White. I never had a problem with him with
the 2 years that I've been working at this store. He said that he came
in the office on the back end of the convo with me and the bookkeeper
and that he didn't know what was going on. I told him, asked him, why
didn't he just tell the truth. He was speechless, didn't know what to
say. He hurried up and walked away, went back to what he was doing.

Like I said, I gave me letter that I was leaving, so expressing to the
store manager how I felt...wasn't even worth the air I breathe. This
incident will come back and haunt him in the future..I hope it does. I
knew I did nothing wrong to warrant the bookkeeper yelling at me. With
his having a 'thing' for her, the bookkeeper, he felt he was protecting
her honor or some shit I guess.

The good thing about my present job is that its something I never did
before, another aspect of a small business that about to either wither
away and die or blow up in the future. One thing is this... about 30 to
40 employees. About 4 to 8, including myself are Black. NONE of them
work in the area I work in though. Some that shows me that I can move up
here and get out of the cold, cause I dislike the cold.

Without saying what I do, cause I signed a discourse agreement, I help
in the process of making fresh juices. My station is Prep. I peel, slice
and cut cases of fruit. This causes me to stand in one place for long,
long periods of time, something I am use to. One thing I'm going to
suggest is that they get some one professional to come once a week and
sharpen the knifes. I not to go at sharpening them myself and a good
sharp knife plays a BIG key in putting out a good product.

One of the fall backs of this new job is that I can't do the things that
I'm use to doing when at my old job...Twitter and my blog. Right now its
4:33am, and I'm on the F train writing this. So any entries have to be
done before or after work.

I don't know if I will be at this job for long, I mean I like it and
all, but I'm use to customer service. Slicing meats and cheese, making
sandwiches and fresh salads to order. But mainly talking with my
customers. Here, they, my coworkers all they speak is Spanish and they
don't talk to me cause I don't speak Spanish. In fact, we had a meeting
yesterday with some one to translate to Spanish what was being said.
This made a 20 minute meeting go into an hour. The body, when its use to
doing something, and then there is a breaking in what it was doing,
well, my body tends to freeze up and get sore. But that won't happen
much though.
--michaelchappell

Wednesday Morning

Ok, so I'm use to waking up early in the morning. But since I'm
starting a new job this morning and I have to take 2 trains, sleep
didn't come easy last night.

I shouldn't have taken that nap for n3 hours, I think that's what did me
in. But I'm standing here in front of the place ready to go at 6am. Wish
I could have taken a sleeping pill.
--michaelchappell

Whatv Are They Trying To Do?

Ok, my employer called me, no, I called my deli manager. He told me the
owner said that either I come back to the store on the floor as a stock
the shelves person, or transfer to another store to be working in the
deli. Well, right now I'm at orientation of a new job that I got. I made
my mind up with what im about to do. Guess I'm moving on.
--michaelchappell

Angry Birds

Since I don't have an iphone, I downloaded Angry Birds for my laptop. I
hooked on this game. Its taken me 3 weeks just to get off this one
panel. My nephew, I put it on his laptop, and he is way ahead of me. Its
not fair. He told me that I'm not a gamer. This is coming from a 9 year
old.
--michaelchappell

The Hardest Part Is..

...waiting. They tell you that they want you and they say to expect a
phone call from them. But still, the hardest part is waiting. I dislike
waiting, no for real. Its either right here and now, or never. Always
been like that.

Even when hanging out with friends, I won't wait for you, but will meet
you there. But not with my old army buddies though. The know the meaning
of right here and now. My friends now, f I want to borrow their car.. I
throw in money and a half tank of gas, but its like pulling teeth for
the keys. Army buddies...see me when you return the car. I'm talking
about my army buddies from the late 70's too.

But I'm still sending my resume out like clockwork. I'm not putting all
my eggs in one basket, gotta keep searching. This place called me to
interview, got the job. I have orientation on Tuesday down in Manhattan
on West 29th Street. Had to buy a Metro Card, they are 29 dollars now
for 7 days. Man, shit is expensive to travel around NyC.
--michaelchappell

My Interview Today

Like I said its been a while since I had to go on these interviews. But
this one, I had a good feeling about. Organic juices, they supply them
for Whole Foods Supermarkets. Since I answered thru Craigslist, thought
there would be quite a number of people there, only one other person,
the another came 20 minutes after I arrived.

Person who did the interview said that he has a good feeling about me,
wants me to be on his team. I guess its because of my resume, I worked
on a cruise ship before. He wanted to know more about that than anything
else. Said he wanted to give it a shot. I told him, you leave everything
behind and just go. You sleep on the ship, 5 month tour, 2 weeks
vacation, then 5 month tour again. I stressed its 12 to 14 hour work
days, 7 days a week. His face changed when I said this. Told him that if
he's a good cook, worker and can follow instructions, you'll no
problems. Said he would look into it.

Now, he says he will call by Saturday to start on Monday, hope so.
--michaelchappell

Another Interview

Day before yesterday, sent my resume out, got a response, by phone in
like 5 minutes. Interview on the 7 line at 9:40am, Production Team Crew.
Don't know what that consists of, but I know I can do it.
--michaelchappell

Monday

Ok, I'm headed to an interview and its 2:40pm. Its scheduled for 4pm,
but I hate being late for anything. This feels funny though, butterflies
in my stomach, shit running thru my head. I'm not being cocky or
anything, but when I email my resume, 5 minutes later I got a response.
Thing is that there are probably 100's of people wanting the same
position, but I'm not going to let that stop me either.

Jobs are very hard to come by, but they are out there. Mostly as waiters
and busboys, dishwashers and preps. I will take anything right about
now. Maybe this suspension is a good thing. I mean I didn't hate going
into work, its just that I wanted to do more.

I spoke with my mother about this also, she gave me some good advice
too. If they are willing to lose me, cut me loose, they must expect that
my department's intake for the week is going to fall way off. And, she
said that if they allow you to come back, don't, move on. I'm gonna take
her advice, cause she knows people and how they act.

But since this has happened my mood has changed. Its like a strange
feeling that I'm not use to. Hard to explain, I guess its called being
afraid. That I am. I'm use to getting up and having certain routines
that I do every morning. This morning, I didn't get out of bed til 7am.
I'm usually up at 4, 4:30am. Plus, I kept waking up through out the
night too. Well, the body does know when change enters your life and it
reacts I guess.

On the train with the standard interview attire on, minus the tire.
Dislike wearing ties, don't know why. My housemate saw me before I left,
and she said that I look completely different from the way she is use to
seeing me. A good sign? She also told me to break a leg, more good luck
I guess.

I will see.
--michaelchappell